Dani was sitting in the Leska quarters and was feeling rather drawn. It was time for the second link day and to be honest she was terrified. She did like Mizaki and had been considering seeing him for a while but suddenly she was literally a long term, as in till death do us part, relationship with him. Even if it was that they only needed to come together once every five days it would continue till one of them died and then both would be gone.
Knowing everything he knew as well as thought and felt terrified her as well. She didn't want to know what a male felt when he needed to take a leak or while having sex. There were other feelings and sensations from him which bothered her. It did help that they were being taught to filter their thoughts, feelings, and needs from each other during the non-link days. It didn't help since when they did have sex all of his memories of the last five days would come to her.
On top of that all of her memories would go to him as well. How the hell could she deal with that? For the last few days she had only seen him during the training for their new talents. Yes he had polite with his interest both before that night and after. He had made a point of not coming to the quarters assigned to them but tonight he had to. Dani knew that she would end up in bed with him but this wasn't what she wanted. She had wanted a relationship based on love and caring. Not some relationship based on some damn link which didn't give a damn how they felt.
Dani knew that her Daddy and Satasha cared for each other and loved each other. It had taken her sometime to come to terms with that but after getting to know some of the Sholan's on the Sandi she understood. That didn't mean she was ready for a relationship with one of them, well not a permanent relationship. Sally might be Vangie's companion but that had been by choice and nothing else.
What was even worse was that she wasn't going to have a choice in when she might end up pregnant. Sholan's didn't have any use for birth control since the females had control of that. From tests done on Dani at her request it looked like she wasn't going to have a choice either. Her system had changed enough already that they didn't think the BC she was on would work. She was in no way ready to have a child at this point. She was in college for god's sake and didn't need the distraction of having a child she wasn't ready for.
When the door opened she twitched since she knew it was Mizaki even before he walked in. He let the door close behind him before speaking. "Dani can we please talk for a few before... Can we please talk?" His voice was low and sad as he spoke. "I know how distressing this is for you and neither of us could have begun to expect it but we need to talk." He settled down on the couch across from her. Mizaki had made a point of coming a short time before the link became over whelming.
Dani sat up and looked at him. Her face was drawn and tense. Her eyes were scared of what was going to happen but also a faint hint of desire showed as well. They did need to talk but what the hell was she supposed to say? "I don't know what can be said Mizaki. I have two choices, accept this and get pregnant or die. If I chose not to accept it then I have to accept causing your death as well. What am I supposed to say?"
He lowered his ears in distress as she spoke. He had to look down at the floor. "I don't know either Dani. Those are very difficult choices. I would prefer if we can work something out between us but some of it is your choice." He looked up at her before speaking again. "I know what I would prefer. If you do end up pregnant and have our kitten you have every right to use the clan daycare. I do like you which is why I was going to ask you to spend some time with me. No I didn't expect anything long term. I simply wished to spend time with you and show you my world."
She had to look down as well and heaved a very frustrated huff. "I do know that I can't let you die simply because I am feeling rather fucked in this situation." What she said hit and she grunted out an abrupt laugh. "Good god that is true. I am fucked one way or another, how ironic. As far as who raises any children", she stressed children, "I would feel the need to. I will not give any child I have over to someone else. Daddy didn't and even quite the military because of that. I am just angry that I don't have a choice in when I might become pregnant. I am also angry in not having a choice in who I have children with."
He closed his eyes since he could feel her anger and fear. He moved off the couch and knelt down in front of her though he didn't touch her. "Dani I wish I had something to say to help you with what you are feeling." Mizaki ignored her muttering about being screwed either way. When she muttered about her father quitting the military it triggered a number of memories. Most of them were from an older Dani, not as a child but as both a young girl and a young teen. He closed his eyes and let the memories come to him and when they did he had to shudder.
Dani might not realize it but she did have some talents though nothing like her sister. She had known how her father had felt even as he had hid it from them. Most of it was little hints and thoughts of how he had missed his life mate. Mizaki could also sense just how much Billy had loved their girls. Tears were forced from his eyes as hard as he tried not to. "I am so sorry Dani for your loss. I don't know what it is like to lose a parent but I do know my family would like to meet you. What else can I say?" He was almost desperate when he asked that.
When he knelt down in front of her Dani almost jerked back before she realized he didn't touch her. When her memories hit him she could feel the impact. She could feel his sorrow as well and before she thought about it she leaned forward and wrapped her arms around him. The second she did that Dani realized that hadn't been a good idea since the link demand surged through her. Almost before she could do anything she felt her body start to soften as she slid off the couch and straddled his legs.
Mizaki twitched when she touched him and almost instantly became aroused. When she slid off the couch and settled across his thighs his arms curled around her and his muzzle sought her mouth. When he found it and they kissed the link surged again.
*It is our time, this time is only for use Dani. Time for us to be as one, to love and be loved. I am not asking for anything beyond that. I do desire you and want you but this was more than I had ever wanted. I simply wanted to spend time with a very attractive woman, nothing else.*
When their mouth's met and the link really started all she could do was moan in desire. Whatever she might feel her body was saying different. She was scare of this demand and the long term, her body wanted him now and not later. When he contacted her it was like an electric jolt and she pulled him closer. Her mind was starting to mesh with his and she had to admit she did desire him, just not a forced mandatory desire.
*I wanted to spend time with an attractive Sholan male as well. Take me to bed and we will become one for the night.*
Dani chose not to comment on anything else he said and what was annoying was she knew he knew that.
