Author's Note: This series builds off of elements of the previous Panic Moon series. To get the full experience, it is recommended, though not necessary, to read that one first.
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Kurokami
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'So...' Amy found herself leaning forward conspiratorially, eyes drifting furtively to her all-too-open door, as it gaped open, leaving her and her new... whatever Sander was, vulnerable to eavesdropping. And that wasn't something that the redhead would put past her aunt, especially in a situation like this, when Amy had just bluffed a complete stranger into the house.
'You're thinking we'll be spied on,' Sander, on the other hand, leaned back, supporting his weight on the palm of one hand, seemingly very at ease in her room. Amy remembered the last time he had been here, and what had happened; a blush crept up her cheeks, as she recalled just how uninhibited and vulnerable she had been then. It had been...
Well, Amy couldn't really decide what she thought of that. There were undeniably attractive aspects; even leaving aside the fact that it had led her to Sander- who had his own set of developing positive traits- that strange lust was freeing, in a way that Leadworth rarely allowed her to be. This place was deathly, powerfully
normal
, and letting go like she had been able to in the past few days was immensely satisfying, just on its own terms.
But Amy could be rational too, and she knew how dangerous freeing herself from the expectations of her home could be, even for as short a time as those furtive, dizzying bouts of sex. She could forgive herself for going against the limited imaginations of those in Leadworth for a second time- after all, she had well and truly burned that bridge upon first speaking of the Doctor- but the way she had betrayed her own safety...
The fact was, both times she had allowed herself to be overcome by her baser urges, it had been with total strangers; first the brunette woman in the field, and then with Sander in her own home. Of course, she had had no way of knowing what either of them wanted, whether they were sane, or even where their dalliances would go, before she had them. That
alone
was a bad enough lapse in judgment, but then she had been so desperate as to open the door and let Sander into her bedroom on only their second meeting...
She regarded the man opposite her, trying to find... something,
anything
that she might have missed earlier, in the fugue of arousal, that would reveal who he really was. Whether or not he was telling the truth was still the biggest question in her mind; it felt like he was at least
mostly
being truthful, but then, he could just turn out to be a very good liar. Hell, he didn't even have to be that good; Amy knew she had a weakness for anyone who would accept her account of the Doctor, and Sander had more than accepted it, he had
expanded
on it. For all Amy knew, she was just being credulous in the face of such acceptance.
'Would your aunt do that?' He spoke again, and Amy realized she had been silently staring for just a little too long. The man smiled, and with the sun shining on his face and familiar scenery surrounding him, Amy couldn't help but find herself more at ease. This was a far cry from having him pressed against her in some damp alley, all powerful and threatening; here, he seemed almost normal, though this idea was somewhat undermined as he continued, 'Eavesdrop, I mean. I don't know much about her, she was... somewhat out of my time period.'
'I dunno, maybe,' Amy replied, before adding thoughtfully, 'Probably.'
'We'll need to find a workaround for her,' Sander frowned. 'I mean, we'll need to work pretty closely together... Not easy with someone like Sharon breathing down our necks.'
'She does do that,' Amy nodded. 'When she's here. Honestly, you don't need to be that concerned, she works a lot. But I've noticed you assume you're staying, too.'
'I do think I'm staying,' Sander nodded. 'Because you let me follow you home.
Twice
. And because I saw the look in your eyes when I confronted you on that. You know what's going on in your head isn't natural,
and
you figure I'm the only one who can help.'
'See, I really
don't
know that,' Amy countered, shooting him a challenging glance. 'All I know about you is that you're good at... well,
one
thing.'
'Yeah, but I said some stuff about the Doctor too, so you're at least gonna give me a chance,' Sander grinned, catching the path the conversation was taking solidly enough to shoot a cautious glance out the door to catch any possible interlopers.
'Alright, fine,' Amy relented, acknowledging the truth that he was, in fact, sitting on her bed. The fact was, she had trusted him this far, there was little point in arguing that now, 'Start at the beginning. Alien brain parasite?'
This caused him to shift, rocking forward on his haunches, pulling in as if in acknowledgement that this had become a serious discussion, all of a sudden. But there was a level of uncomfortable awkwardness to his features, a silent admission that what he had to say was less than entirely impressive. The simple fact was... he still didn't really know what was going on there.
And a shrug of the shoulders was not a convincing beginning to this conversation.
'Yeah...' He began, mind shifting through a multitude of possibilities and memories. He might not have had concrete facts on Amy's case
specifically
, but if he strained his imagination he could remember those few lazy biology lessons, all those years ago, that had covered psychoreactive biochemistry and its possible applications. Sander had learned just enough of the stuff to know how to apply it to artificial neuro-controllers and nerve connections between living pilots and the robots he had once designed for a living, but if he concentrated he was sure he could pick out a few choice tidbits about the organisms that had used such techniques themselves. He remembered being stunned at the sheer, dazzling cosmic genius of evolution, that it had produced such creatures, and he hoped that his half-remembered retellings would have the same effect on Amy; it was important that he at least
sounded
credible.
'I won't know for sure what we're dealing with until I can scrounge together some more data,' He continued, launching into what he hoped was an explanation just detailed enough to seem smart without leaving Amy behind. 'But you're playing host to what we generally call a mind worm, in layman's terms. That's why your behavior is... changing. The alien is directing you to seek out its chosen source of food.'
'
Fucking?
' Amy asked, incredulous. She blinked immediately after, apparently aware that she had said that just a little too loud, 'It feeds off of
sex?
'
'Orgasm, rather,' Sander felt relatively confident of that fact, at least. 'Specifically, yours. Or the chemicals your brain generates when you... well, cum. Or possibly just your orgasmic energy, it's hard to measure without the proper equipment.'
'Oh, and I'm willing to bet money this isn't the kind of thing that shows up on a CAT scan, hmm?' The redhead couldn't help but sound a little disbelieving. This all sounded awfully convenient for Sander.
'Not a twentieth century one, anyway,' The man sighed. 'This is what I'm finding hardest to grasp about all this myself. If we were just a thousand years later and a couple short FTL hops away, I could get you to a xenobiological ward on New Earth, or Crux, or any other Terran world and get you fixed up. Here... I don't know. This is something I'm going to have to experiment with.'
'If you try to probe me, I'll scream,' Amy said flatly, tapping her fingers lightly against one knee.
'I might argue that I've already done that,' Sander said with a grin, and Amy found herself giggling a little at that, too. He nodded to himself, glad to see her relaxing a little. He needed her to trust him, 'But mostly I mean watching. I need to know what you experience when... that happens, just to figure out what
species
we're dealing with.'
'There's more than one?'
'It's a big universe,' He shrugged. 'Most of them are catalogued, and I have a working knowledge of the most common ones. As much as anyone can, I guess. It's all a matter of isolating symptoms, right now.'
'I don't run a fever, if that's what you're asking,' Amy said. 'Any more than I normally would, when... well, I know you're not asking about that, anyway.'
'How often
do
you do that, anyway? I know there must have been a rise lately, but when did it start?' Sander leaned forward, and Amy could feel his eyes roll over her body. As per usual in the last few days, she felt her insides heat up a little.
'And here I thought you knew me,' Amy said, resorting to challenging him in an attempt to nip that growing problem in the bud.
'Shockingly, that never came up,' He rolled his eyes, before continuing, under his breath, 'Besides, when you and I were in the same room your usual was way higher, anyway...'
Amy seemed to have heard that, but not completely put together what he meant. The sheets crumpled beneath her as she shifted her weight restlessly, bringing her knees up to her chest and rocking on the curve of her backside, throwing her gaze around the room to find something, anything, that might make this situation just a little bit clearer. Of course, nothing was forthcoming; this was Leadworth, after all, and no matter how strange and exotic the world Sander claimed to come from was, right now he was stuck in the middle of
normal
, and it clearly dragged upon him. Leadworth exuded a complacent gravity, dragging down everything around it, and now even this supposed man from the stars had been caught in the well. Amy couldn't help the niggling doubts in her mind, at that.
'I still don't know about all this,' She murmured, just loud enough for Sander to hear. 'It's still all too convenient.'