The rumor in the mess line that day was the 59th Illinois Volunteer Infantry Regiment was moving out for home. Samuel smiled grimly. He'd heard the same thing since Lee surrendered in April. He'd heard then that the Army had been ordered to discharge as many men as possible as soon as possible. Samuel believed he would be discharged, just not that it would happen immediately as some accounts stated. Over the months, he'd come to the realization that for the 59th at least, immediately didn't mean the same thing to the Army as it meant to everybody else.
That realization wasn't really new. It was just a continuance started by what he'd experienced since he'd volunteered at the St. Louis Arsenal in September of 1861. The Union was desperate for troops to fight the Confederacy, yet just getting him sworn in, supplied with uniforms, a rifle, and all the other things an infantry soldier carried had taken a week.
Life over the past four years had been boring weeks of waiting in dirty, smelly encampments interspersed by hours or days of gun smoke, flying bullets and cannon balls, and most of all, sheer terror.
The 59th was expecting a speedy return to Illinois via the railroads. Instead they were marched from Nashville to the Tennessee River and loaded onto riverboats. The riverboats slowly made their way to Cairo, Illinois. At Cairo, the anxious soldiers expected to turn north up the Mississippi and home, but the Union was not done with them yet. Instead, they were loaded on other boats going south to New Orleans, Louisiana.
From New Orleans, they were ferried by ship across the Gulf of Mexico to the port of Indanola, Texas. From Indianola, they were moved to San Antonio, and then to New Braunfels where they had duty, on and off, until December.
Much to Samuel's surprise, this rumor proved to be true. The regiment was marched back to Indanola. Two days later, they'd been loaded onto steamboats and taken up the Mississippi to Cairo, Illinois and then by train to Camp Butler in Springfield, Illinois. On December 7th, the regiment was mustered out, and on December 8th were paid and discharged.
Samuel returned home just in time for Christmas. His mother had cried on his shoulder for half an hour while she held him tight to her breast. His father hadn't shed any tears, but his voice sounded a little choked.
There was little to do on a farm in winter except care for the livestock and split firewood to feed the insatiable appetite of the fireplace and cook stove. Samuel took over both of these tasks. His father was often stricken with bouts of rheumatism because of the cold Illinois winters, and Samuel wanted to spare him the pain of that work.
He also listened to his mother's subtle hints about wanting grandchildren, though Samuel wasn't particularly attracted to any of the young girls who attended the little church in town. Before the war, he'd had a favorite or two. Now, they all seemed so immature and silly to him. They'd collapse into titters at anything, and seemed to spend all their time talking about which girl was being courted by which boy.
His own thoughts during the day were about what lay ahead for him. Though he'd assumed most of the work on the farm, after two months he began to be unsettled. The past four years had been boring, but also filled with excitement and anticipation. He wasn't sure he could ever be happy with the quiet life of plowing, planting, weeding, and harvesting that would occupy most of the daylight hours through spring, summer, and fall. Winters would be the same as what he was then living, routine tasks that interrupted the long hours of doing nothing.
By the time the maple and oak trees in his parent's front yard began sprouting buds, Samuel knew he could never be a farmer again. Already the routine of caring for the animals was becoming a task he dreaded even though it did space out the hours of idle time. It seemed so pointless to him.
Every morning and evening, he forked piles of hay from the stack in the mow in the barn into the racks in the stalls. He'd then go into the stalls and clean out the manure dropped by the horses and cattle. That manure and the straw bedding had to be carried out to the pile in back of the barn to be saved until it could be spread on the fields before plowing them. After cleaning the stalls, he forked new straw into them. It never ended and would never end until he died.
If not farming, what course would he steer through life? Samuel had been taught how to farm since he could remember. He'd followed his father through the fields as the plow sliced furrows into the soil. He'd followed his father as he planted the seed that would grow into corn, oats, and wheat. As soon as he'd grown strong enough, he helped shuck the ears of corn from the stalks and throw them into the horse drawn wagon that followed them through the field. Samuel had never learned any other skills other than those required to maintain the equipment used on the farm.
Living in the countryside meant Samuel and his parents got all the news about happenings after the church service in town on Sunday. That Sunday, he listened as one of the members told of the letter he'd received from his brother.
The brother had moved to Kansas before the war and had built a farm. During the war, there had been little trouble with the Indians in the area. After the war, according to the letter, more and more settlers had moved there, and the Indians had begun raiding the farms to steal livestock. A few farmers had been killed, but that was about to end. A "privet general" from the Civil War, Lieutenant Colonel George Armstrong Custer, and been given command of the 7th US Cavalry. Though the 7th Cavalry had been greatly reduced in size after the war, they had been ordered into the area to force the Indians onto a reservation and end the raids. According to the letter, they were looking for recruits to refill the ranks.
That Sunday night, Samuel considered his options. The only skills he possessed other than farming was soldiering. He could stay on the farm, an option he knew he would hate, or he could join the Army again. His parents wouldn't like it if he left home. His father needed him. That bothered Samuel, but he finally decided he needed to look after himself. His uncle had helped his father during the war and would continue to do so if Samuel wasn't there.
On Monday, Samuel sat down with his parents and explained his decision. His mother wept, but said he should do what was best for him. His father said he was proud. Both knew it was likely they wouldn't see him again.