This is my first story; I enjoy reading romance stories so I wrote this one to follow along those lines. Please send me feedback, as this being my first story I will welcome any comments. I guess it could only get better! Enjoy.
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Ever have the feeling that life will never cut you some slack? I get that feeling all the time, and well, to be quite honest, it's very depressing. At 22 I should have experienced everything that life holds for us, but not in my case.
The most important one, love, has been missing from my life since the day I was born (not including relatives). At 22 I'm still a virgin (I know, I can just hear the laughing now) but well, it's true. I've had a few girlfriends during my life, but nothing even remotely serious, I was dying to find true love.
I guess I'm not unattractive; I've tried to keep myself in relative good health, I find (at least that's my opinion) am a good humored person, I have friends, and they enjoy my company. But I do suffer from and intense shyness around women, it's like I'm terrified by the thought of talking to women. It's not that I don't want to, it's that I don't know what to say, and I always feel like they're not interested in me. I know that this attitude won't get me anywhere, but I've tried to change with no luck.
Now that I've brought you up to speed on my predicament, lets get on to the present.
I just finished another year of university; I am studying Engineering, and hope to own my own firm some day. I was sitting in my apartment bored out of my mind, summer was here and I was working, but come five o'clock I was free to do what I wanted which normally would be a good thing but all my friends have left for the summer, going home to work, while I stayed in town to work at the University.
I didn't feel like staying home another night just to watch TV, so I decided to go to the local bar, alone but at least I'll get out of the apartment. Taking a shower, fixing my self up and putting my best club cloths on, I was finally ready. The bar was only a couple of block away from my place so I decided to walk; it was a gorgeous night, which helped to lift my spirits. I also promised my self to try and talk to someone, thinking, "Screw my fears"; I was determined to break my 22-year drought.
But as usual a curveball was thrown at me, upon arriving at the bar, I noticed the huge lineup to get in. "Great, just great! I'll be here for hours." Silently cursing. So, still determined to overcome my weaknesses, I lined up and dutifully waited for admittance. Nearly two hours later, which put the time close to midnight, I finally got in, it was packed as I had imagined. Women and men where mingling everywhere, and a healthy number of drunks where also about. The first thing I decided to do was to get myself a Coors Light, not being a heavy drinker I figured I would start slowly and work myself to inebriated bliss.
Taking my beer I started to walk around the bar, chatting with the odd fellow, but I still haven't mustered the courage to talk to one of the fine ladies present that night. Frustrated with my self I took a long pull of my beer and scouted out a lady that peeked my interest. She was very good-looking, not supermodel-like, but very nice, just the type I like. After quite a while I managed to get enough courage to go up to her, and say, "Hi! How's it going, having a good time?" I know, not the wisest choice of words, but considering my lack of experience, it was the best I could do. "Great, how about yourself?" she said in return, then I felt it, that feeling that I had to vomit, DAMN I screamed in my head, "Good, ya, pretty good, umm, ya...." She looked at me, and started to laugh hysterically the said "You sure? Are you drunk?" God, I wish I were...
"I'm sorry, I uh, I'm not very good at this, you know..." I managed to say, after considerable effort.
"At what? Talking to me, is there something wrong?" was the reply to my garbled speech.
"No, no, I um, well, I uh think you're drop-dead gorgeous..." What did I just say?
She stopped laughing and looked at me, then turned to her friend standing next to her and whispered into her ear, they then both broke out laughing. Meanwhile I felt like I just lost a war, ready to give up forever. I needed to get drunk, and fast!
She then turned to me, still giggling, and said, "You're a nice guy, but you see, I'm seeing someone, and well, see ya!" And just like that, I was chewed up and spit out. I managed to smile and wave, wishing I were that one special man she was seeing.
Well, after standing around for a bit I decided to go and sit down and have a few shots of Tequila, and boy did I ever need them. Making my way back to the table I noticed the woman I was talking to earlier (or at least tried to), she was sitting on a huge, muscled guy's lap, while making out with a guy beside him, all the while the huge guy was feeling her up. I almost dropped my drink, and quickly turned around and went the other way. Now I can handle being rejected (Well, not really) since it's happened more than I care to admit, but being lied to and rejected, well that was the killer. I felt like shit and just wanted to leave.
Heading towards the door, saying good night to the bouncer, and exiting, I felt like this was one of the worst nights I've ever had. I guess it couldn't get worse, could it? I know most men would have just picked up their socks and tried again, but you see, I'm sort of touchy when it comes to things like trust and honesty, when someone just makes up an excuse to get away from me, it makes me feel, well, you know...
I decided to go to a café, and have a coffee to get things off my mind, that decision would change me for the rest of my life. Walking up to the café, I could see that the only person in there was the attendant. "Good a quiet place to drown my sorrow in a nice hot coffee." Thinking to myself as I entered, noticing the attendant was female, with long brown hair, a beautiful face, and a nice body from what I could tell. As I approached the counter to order, she smiled, one that could warm the coldest day.
"I'll have a large house coffee, please, no sugar." I said.
"Anything else sir?" Her voice, OH MY GOD!
"No that, um, no, that will be all" Oh no, not again! I looked down at my wallet quickly to avoid her gaze, and pulled out some money, which I handed her and told her to keep the change.
Taking my coffee to a table in the corner, opposite the counter, I quickly sat down and started to drink my coffee while stealing quick glances at the gorgeous attendant at the counter. I was hoping that she would come over to talk, but at the same time I knew what would happen if she did, so part of me hoped she wouldn't, I couldn't handle any more embarrassment. So, being the kind of person I am, I just bowed my head and look at my mug of coffee, looking up only to drink. That would be why I didn't see her come up to my table and stand there for a few seconds before saying, "Is everything ok here?".
I would have given anything to see my face the instant she spoke, it startled me so much that I tossed my coffee straight up in the air, splashing my self with coffee and even getting some on her. What a dumb way to make a first impression. I don't think I have ever apologized so much in my life, I couldn't stop, I felt so bad; I tried to clean it up as much as possible but failed.