She realized she wanted him when it was too late. Maybe he was the one that got away. There was some tension but she could not and should not let it get to her. She treasures these fleeting moments to this day. In reality, he is off limits. Not only is he the best friend, but he is getting married in a few months' time.
He said to her once in the middle of their usual banter, "You're too late. And now look". She was taken aback, but she did not let it show. But there was more than admiration and affection; she couldn't wrap her mind around it before. She was of age, making it a bit normal for her to have these kinds of thoughts about a man.
She has played with herself a few times while imagining doing it with him and being able to relate to naughty stories that are similar to hers. She doesn't know why she's attracted to him; maybe it's because of the looks? That's too general. Or is it because of the brains? That's too boring. Maybe it's his sense of humor. That's too childish. Or maybe it's a blend of everything, with an added dash of maturity that makes it sexy.
There has been a near miss moment. They went out drinking with friends. She wasn't sure if he was as tipsy as her. She just told a guy friend she has a crush on him, not sure if he was able to notice it. They were joking during the ride home. And then he told her he knew who she was crushing on. She had hoped so too. She could feel herself heating up right then and there. There was a small window of chance. But there was too much at stake, too much to lose.
In the end she didn't budge. They parted just with kisses on each other's cheeks.
In a few months' time, he'll be tied up in a commitment. She thought about of sending him off, since he was kidding that she should be there during his stag party; since she was one of the boys. She's read a story like that once, the girl friend organizes something, and then it happened.
So she set off planning the perfect event. She's off gathering the guys in secret, planning naughty and fun details the poor guy would take to his last night as a bachelor. Then it was set. It would be in a hotel room at a town within two hours' drive. There would be drinks, balloons, party poppers, confetti, lingerie, masks, feathers, fishnet stockings, heels, toys, and of course, the guys and the girls.
She was excited.
The guys didn't know that she would be literally in on the surprise. She has her separate plans. She was in charge of gathering the girls and setting up, while the guys are in charge of letting him drink a bit to get him ready for the night.