He looked at her very seriously. "Crystal, you do have choices. You can say, 'Publish and be damned!'âand expect to look for another job, admittedly. You can call the police and accuse me of blackmail. There are certainly some others.
"But you're right, we should go." He stood up.
She said, "Wait. Give me two minutes." She vanished into the bedroom, emerging in not much longer than she'd promised with a suitcase.
"What's that for?"
She sighed, almost a sob. "If I'm going to start a new career as a whore, I want to get started. I don't want the prospect hanging over meâI'm sure the anticipation will be worse than what I have to do! Unless you have some kind of plans or obligations for tomorrow, I'll be staying overnight, and maybe tomorrow night, tooâsometime very soon, if not tonight. I'll just tell my friends we really hit it off. They don't have to know about this." She hoisted the suitcase slightly. "That I planned to stay with you before we even went to dinner, I mean."
They went out to his car, putting the suitcase in the trunk, and headed off to the restaurant.
ââ 2 ââ
Tom thought Crystal enjoyed the meal as much as he did, and that she was surprised at that. They had plenty to talk about. In high schoolâher senior year, his sophomoreâthey'd sung a duet in choir. It had been intended for the district choir competition. The choir teacher, Mrs. Wallace, had done her best to give each entry the kind of judgment the singer or ensemble would receive in the competition, and Tom and Crystal had placed well above everyone else in this dry run. When they all were judged at district, the final results had been very close to her ratings and critique.
It had meant an hour or more after school, practicing, for several weeks. Then the day of the competition, they'd been together all of a long Saturdayâtraveling, warming up, an audition together plus one each alone, sitting listening to other people doing the same kinds of things, meals, the evening concert, and travel home.
Tom and Crystal had placed second, narrowly missing the chance to go on to state. This had gotten them some notice around town, for a few weeksâno one from Maplegrove Heights had ever done that wellâand they were asked to perform their song before several different groups. The school drew students from the surrounding, rural area, but it still was smaller and less well funded than many schools in the city and suburbs. The music program just couldn't compete.
That had been Tom's and Crystal's only really close contact, but they'd come to like and respect each other through all the rehearsing and everything elseâfor Tom, more than that. They touched on that time during dinner, also catching up on minor events since then, and talking about his work and hers. Tom was very aware that they were generating curiosity among some of the other diners. For some timeâyearsâneither of them had been seen out alone with anyone of the opposite sex, so there was probably a lot of speculation as to whether anything was in the wind. Certainly anyone watching them might have concluded something was! From time to time, she laughed at something amusing he said, and sometimes she reached out and put her hand on his, or on his arm, and gave a little squeeze. He did his best to make it easy for her to act her partânot primarily for that reason, though. He honestly wanted her to enjoy herself.
Eventually, dessert arrived, and the check. Tom paidâwhich might have been seen by interested observers as evidence, or maybe not. They went out to his car, and he drove to his house, which was somewhat out of town. She'd seen the outside many times, surelyâit was on a good-sized parcel of land, and it was large enough to draw attention without being ostentatious in any way. Everyone thought of it as the biggest house in town, and Tom knew it was. He hadn't had it built, but when he was looking, it had been on the market long enough for the price to come down, and there was room for all the things he wanted to do. Crystal asked questions as they went. She hadn't ever been up to it, much less inside. She didn't realize just how few people had ever been inside it other than on businessâbut if anyone she knew was included, she hadn't heard. And though it was Tom's place of business, he normally went to his clients' homes or offices. He needed to see those in order even to make recommendations, of course.
They sat down in the kitchen. She looked at him, and he looked at her. After a few moments, he said, "OK, you asked why you, and why not just ask for a date long ago. Fair enough questions! Not really that easy to answer, somehow.
"Back when we did that duetâ. Um. I'd have liked to ask you out then, but you were near graduation and I was just a punk sophomore nerd. We got alongâbetter than that sounds likeâbut I thought you were just being friendly. I still think soâyou were habitually friendly and nice to everyone. You were beautifulâyou still are, of courseâstunningly beautiful and sophisticated, from my point of view. You had a date for prom, and I sort of assumed that meant you had a boyfriend. Maybe I was wrongâat any rate, that didn't look like it lasted beyond the prom. Then you were going out with other guys, all of whom seemed way beyond me at that point. I knew I couldn't compete.
"Eventually, over the next couple of years, you seemed to be firmly hooked up. Jim, then Bud. I never knew what happened to end things in either case, which I suppose might have changed my view of things. After Bud, it sure looked like you must be just turning everyone down who asked you. I'm sure some still are asking these days, even so.
"Anyway, besides all that, I'm not good with peopleâespecially women. If I've got something definite we both want to talk about, I'm fineâwhether it's where the opportunities for someone to break in are, or how to make a duet work. Or what I want you to do, when saying no will be hard for you, I guess. But when it's personal, and I don't know how people will react, I get nervous and I just can't do it. I can't handle the prospect of rejection, and it sure looked like that's what I'd have gotten.
"So I guess part of the answer's that I was attracted. I like you enough, for sure. You're really beautiful, but I think that may not matter as much for me as for some guysâother things are more important. You're a girlâa woman, nowâthat any guy could be proud to be going with.
"And now this dropped into my hands. I hope that explains it enough! But now, your turn. Why not just buy the perfume, if you wanted it that much?"
She looked uncertain. "First, let me answer yourâyour tangential non-question, from a minute ago. I thought everyone in town knew, anyway. Jim and Bud both cheated on me. In Jim's case, I heard it though the grapevine." She grimacedâa bitter little smile, maybe. "I heard it from a lot of different peopleâalmost all girls, now I think about it. Apparently half the town knew! Enough that I thought there must be something to it. So I tracked him to her apartment, to see for myself. Then I told him offâin front of everybody!âthe next time he came up to me all lovey-dovey. It didn't make the news or anything, but I'm still surprised you didn't hear about it.
"With Bud, it was actually worse, even though I wasn't ashamed in front of the whole world that wayâthe last to know, I mean. One day, I had to run an errandâfor workâand I needed to stop by my apartment. And there he was, screwing her. In my own bed! If I'd had a gun in my hand, I'd have been up for murder, honestlyâdouble homicide! I just saw red! I chased them both out half-dressed, screaming at them. I called in toâ." She gave a bitter little laugh. "To 'Miss Priss.' You nailed her, for sure. I said I'd found an intruder in my apartment and needed to deal with it. I called the landlord, and told him I needed the lock changed that minute, and it was almost that fast. And I called Bud and warned him, and Friday evening all his stuff went out in the yard in a big heap. I just pitched it out the door." She looked as though she were having trouble not crying, and Tom just waited while she got control of herself.
"Anyway, that left me really turned off, as far as men go. Completely. Never mind 'girlfriend!'âI haven't even had anything resembling a date, until tonight. I've just said no. You're right, I'd have said it to you, too, without bothering to think whether you might be different. I might have thought you would, if I'd thought. Now, I don't know what to think."
They sat for a moment before Tom said, "I understand perfectly. They bothâwhat? Said they loved you, I'm sure. Said you were the only one, no doubt.
"And you don't have any more reason to trust me, but on that I'll say flat out I won't cheat on you that way. Period. Ever. If it comes to thatâto where I want someone elseâI'll tell you first that we're though, and I'll give you at least a little time before I go with anyone else at all, so it won't look like I dumped you for someone else. If you decide to publicly dump me instead, at that pointâit would depend on just what you said, but I'd probably accept that."