Mark and I have been best friends for as long as I can remember, we have gone though everything with each other: new additions to our families, divorces, broken bones, holidays, bad grades, puberty, and even broken hearts. Some how we always managed to jump back onto our feet and survive- just like the Beatles song "With a Little Help from My Friends."
We're now 18 and lately Mark is the only thing on my mind. I can't concentrate on homework, I've day dreamed through classes, and can't seem to even get interested in my regular TV programs. I keep trying to tell myself that I shouldn't think of him like this, that he's my best friend and just that...but I can't help it.
I sit here in Biology class, thinking of him without his shirt on, wearing his swimming shorts and wet all over. He has an awesome body and an even better tan! And his smile! WOW! He could be a model!
"Gosh Steph," I tell myself as a shiver runs down my spine, "get it together!" But the only thing I can think of is getting it on with Mark. To feel his lips on mine, to have his arms hold me tight, and to know that he wants me. To feel his hard warm body next to mine yearning for the moment when we would become one.
SIGH! I really got to get him off my mind. He's coming over tonight to do some studying and for our traditional "Friday Movie Night." How could I face him with these thoughts of mine!?! Yeah. Yeah. I know I should just tell him and then jump his bones... but what if he doesn't feel the same as me? I don't want to lose him if he didn't.