She made a final check to make sure she packed everything. This would be the trip that she was going to seduce him. Their last visit was the hardest, literally at times. She had found herself trying to will him to step over the self-imposed boundaries they had established. She would wake up in the middle of the night with his erection tucked into the cleft of her cheeks, his warm breath feathering against the nape of her neck, and the pounding of his heart pressed behind hers. If it hadn't been for both of them wearing pajamas it would only have taken the slightest of movements to relieve the pressure that she was sure that they both were nearly consumed.
There were several times that she almost confessed her love to him, but she really needed to hear it from him first; not that she didn't think that the sentiment was mutual. She was just being cautious with her heart. Okay she was just plain chicken.
When she looked at him she saw her future. Even though they had only been together in the traditional sense for a relatively brief period of time, she could no longer imagine her life without him. He had once told her that they would figure out how to make a long distance relationship work, that the sky was the limit... and damn if he didn't make good on his promises. They were able to see each other every couple of months (thank God for three-day government weekends).
He picked her up at the SeaTac airport as usual with her favorite flowers (tiger lilies), a bear hug and a kiss that actually got catcalls and whistles from passers by. His kiss stole her breath. It had only been two months since the last visit, but still they couldn't let go of each other. This made getting through the revolving doors difficult, but they didn't care.
She laid her head on his shoulder and hugged his upper right arm as he drove, simply inhaling him and absorbing his heat. She fought sleeping but it won out as he maneuvered through traffic to get her home. That is how he thought of it; it wasn't just his place any more, it was "home" because even if only for a few days, she made his house a home.
Instead of going out for dinner he suggested ordering in so that they could both just relax. She liked the idea, and so she quickly went back to the bedroom to change into some shorts and a t-shirt. They sat down on the couch and ate their Chinese food, feeding each other with their chopsticks. He dribbled some sweet and sour sauce on his chin and she giggled at him then kissed it off.
As always conversation was abound. He spoke of his trying week at work, made more so by his impatience in waiting to see her. She told him that school was going well and that she too found herself counting down the hours until she was going to see him again. He asked her if she had had any wet dreams lately, and she said she did. She told him the gist of them; he more than liked what he heard.
He had to cross his legs to cover his erection. If she only knew how many times he masturbated thinking of her. He didn't just masturbate when he was alone, sometimes when he would get up and leave her to go to the bathroom in the middle of the night it was actually to masturbate and get some relief. He masturbated more now than he did when he was single! But he had made a promise to her and he would keep his word if it killed him.
She couldn't believe how close she was to raping him! Just being in the same room with him made her body hum. She was going to wait to seduce him until close to the end of this trip. But now, she didn't think that they were going to make it through dinner. Every time she looked in his eyes she got hot and bothered all over again. If eyes truly were the windows to the soul, she was ready to climb into them.
After dinner they both cleaned up and then he changed into a pair of pajama pants. They had decided on a double feature that night, a comedy then a sappy romance movie. She plopped down next to him and curled up against him. She never got tired of how they fit together, as if carved of the same stone. Throughout the romance movie they would smooch and absently caress the other, but nothing too heated. For lack of a better word...it was sweet.
When the movie was over they fell into their nightly routine; brushed their teeth and went to bed. He pulled back the covers and waited for her to lie down in front of him. She crawled in next to him and let out a big sigh. They talked in the dark as always, talking about their dreams, aspirations, hopes, desires and just random thoughts. She never got tired of listening to him talk; it was so refreshing to find a man that wasn't afraid of communication. They kissed each other goodnight, several times. But in the end he pulled away and then rolled her so they could spoon. Okay this was frustrating she thought, but she needed to calm down. She snuggled up a bit closer and surprisingly drifted off to sleep shortly thereafter.
She woke up in the middle of the night and turned towards him. She just watched him sleep for a while, not touching him. He was amazing. If she'd had ordered her boyfriend from a catalog she couldn't have found a more perfect man than he was for her. She sent up a prayer of thanks for every daft woman that let him slip through her fingers. Their loss was her gain. She leaned forward and kissed his forehead then each eyelid. He didn't budge.
She sat up so that she could lean in over him. She leaned down and kissed his neck then nibbled on his earlobe a bit. Then she kissed and nibbled her way down to his heart that was rhythmically thumping under his strong chest. She laid her left cheek over it, savoring the sound of it, willing hers own to slow down. He squirmed, but he was still asleep. God she loved this man, more than she ever felt humanly possible. And for the first time in her life she knew she was truly loved in return, he showed her by his actions everyday. It was time that she showed him how she felt too. She realized that waiting for him to say "I love you" first was not as important as being honest with him about her feelings.
She kissed him awake. He lazily looked over at the clock and said,
"Good morning". Then he kissed her tenderly at first. It didn't take long for the kiss to escalate into a passionate frenzy. She looked him dead in the eye and swallowed down the lump in her throat. She took one of his hands in hers and placed it over her heart, never breaking eye contact.
"I love you and I am ready to tell and show you, I am yours if you will have me. "