(very special thanks to all the help from Max Sebastian)
Kenneth sat in his chair watching TV, eating dinner on a tray, washing it down with a cold Miller Lite. It was about the only thing he felt like doing lately since Kathy had left. It had been a year since the separation and divorce, but it seemed as though it had been only yesterday when she walked out the door because she was so unhappy in their relationship.
The TV was playing in the background, and he was a million miles away in thought. One of his colleagues, Frank, had told him about how he had met a girl online and that despite the odds, they were getting along great. Now he contemplated what Frank had said. But he didn't even know what to do, or how to even begin to meet someone. Just then on the TV, a dating site was being advertised and he quickly wrote down the website address. Holding the sheet of paper in his hands, he thought "What the hell, I'll go give it a shot. If Frank can do it, I feel that I can do it too."
He entered the website address and watched as it loaded on the screen. Hmmmm, he thought, they want me to answer a lot of questions, and then they supposedly will be able to match me up with someone. Yeah, right. But he figured it was worth a try, so for the next hour he read the questions, and gave a lot of thought to each question as he answered them one by one. Finally it said it was complete and in the next 24 hours he would receive an email telling him to log on and see who he had been matched up with. One last thing, he needed to take care of the payment for the service. Did he want to go month by month, quarter by quarter, or go for the yearly deal? He laughed to himself as he figured it would take a year to find even one person he could stand for more than a few days. But he paid for the monthly subscription, that way if he didn't like it, or if they couldn't come up with anyone who could possibly be a match with, he wouldn't be out any excessive money. It cost more doing it that way, than the quarterly or yearly plan, but he didn't really believe it would work, so he was willing to lay out the extra bucks each month when he paid his bills.
Sure enough, the next day there was an email saying that there were 2 women that he had been matched up with. One woman lived in a town nearby and the other one lived a couple of hours north of where he was. So with intrepidation, he logged online at the site and read the basic information about both women. Sally was 5 foot 5 inches, 105 pounds, worked as a paralegal at a law firm in town. He wondered which one, as there were several larger firms in the downtown area, and a few on the outskirts of town. Brianna was about the same measurements, but there was something in her picture that caught his eye, and he found himself glancing at her picture several times as he read the information that she had posted.
The website wanted both of them to take turns answering questions about themselves, and then finally they would be allowed to chat openly about what ever that they wanted to talk about. It took about 4 days for him and both of the women to go back and forth with the questions that each one chose each time, and the more he read of Brianna's replies, the more his curiosity was peaked.
Sally was ok, and he found himself asking the question of whether he should pursue someone who lived so near, and would be easier to access once it got to that point, or should he go for the one that seemed to make him want to know more and more about her. He finally decided on Brianna and they started talking openly once all of the question sessions had been completed. He did tell Sally that he wasn't interested, and that he was pursuing another interest. She emailed back that she understood, and that she wished him the best of luck.
The one thing that kept nagging him in the back of his mind was the distance, but he thought that maybe it would give them time to get to know each other a little bit better in a less threatening environment. He had not dated anyone else except Kathy, so all of this was going to be new again to him. He admitted to himself that he was in hopes of finding someone who could fulfill the dreams and desires that he had missed for so long.
Just out of curiosity, he pulled up a program that he frequently used to find out where people were, or to plan routes for transportation, especially when he wanted to go for a ride in the country with his Harley. He notices that the town she lives in is over 100 miles away. 100 Miles! How was he going to have a relationship with someone so far away? But he looked at her pictures again, and the eyes and that face intrigued him so until he just had to find out who she was.
They begin to talk on a popular internet chat program, and sometimes they would email each other. Neither one knew where to take the road to, but as they talked, they both knew that they wanted to continue the path that they were on.
It wasn't long before she gave him her cell phone number and they talked for what seemed like only a few minutes, but wound up being a couple of hours. She was timid to share anything deep about herself. He found out that she was a widow of less than a year, and she confided to him that a deep sting still punched her in the stomach when she thought about the loss of her husband, and the guilt that she felt seeking out a new relationship.
He assured her that he understood and would not be pushy or try to rush things. They shared a lot of common interests in music, hobbies and things that they liked to do in their spare time. So it was never hard for them to talk, whether online or over the phone, the conversation flowed freely.
"Brianna, one thing I love doing is cruising on a casino boat for an evening. Do you enjoy a bit of gambling sometimes?"
"Yes, I love going to casinos, but I've never been to one on a boat. I've only been to the ones on the Indian reservations."
"Well, why don't we go to the one on the boat sometime? I think you would enjoy it, and it would be something different!"
So they discussed it many times, and finally she gave in and agreed to go. It would be a good place to meet publicly, and also allow them some time to be able to enjoy the games just in case the night didn't go too well.
"Ken, I'm really unsure of myself, and how I will react to being with another man. I've never been with anyone but my husband, as we were childhood sweethearts."
"Well, we'll just give it our best and see what happens", Ken replied.