Some say, 'From pain comes wisdom,' but Megan had endured a lot over the past weeks and felt no wiser. Her boyfriend left her and it had hollowed out her soul. When she pushed through the door and rang the bell at Trader Dan's, she was hoping to put a bullet in her old life and thumb her nose at the jackass who left her behind.
And Trader Dan's is just such a place; where souls
are
bared, pain
will
be endured, and whatever healing occurs will be
everlasting
.
As she settled into the proprietor's chair with the tools of the trade laid out neatly on a small table nearby, Trader Dan's resonant voice filled her ears with a tale from another age. It seemed charming but odd to her. Perhaps it was just his effort to entertain his clients or calm frazzled nerves. Regardless, Megan found herself drifting back in time while the man gave her 'wisdom,' prick by prick.
"Meijuan sang like an angel, and from a very young age her voice would echo in the cavernous St. Ignatius Cathedral in Shanghai. Although she never really understood the words she had memorized, her performance of "Ave Maria" on special Sundays brought converts from high born Chinese and peasants alike. But she had even no such stature, because she was the illegitimate child of a visiting American Bishop and an ethnic Mongol housekeeper. She had become a permanent ward of church at birth."
The tattooist paused his story to dip his needle in an ink cup, and Megan watched as another inch of her skin disappeared under deep indigo before he continued.
"She grew up to be a beauty too, a stunning mix of Asian and western features would make her seem a native in the Beijing, Lisbon or even Seattle. As she came of age, the good sisters of the St. Ignatius orphanage knew they had a problem. They knew her voice and exotic look would draw unwelcome attention from men no matter how well they kept her cloistered away. Then, sure enough, on a rare cold day with snow falling in the city center, she was stolen away by a wealthy Chinese landlord and hidden in a town, far from the coast."
Megan pressed her head back into the rest and concentrated on the ceiling as the tattooist stretched the skin of her breast with his fingers, driving in colored ink with a circular motion. It had been like a hundred bee stings at first, but now her skin just ached, doggedly accepting his touch. She closed her eyes and imagined lost innocence and a stolen life. The tattooist's story resonated with her.
"So, what happened to her?" she asked.
The tattooist glanced up from his work on Megan and nodded thoughtfully. He said, "Well, at first she resisted, but he marked her with blue birds on her breast to announce his ownership of her-- for anyone who might see. For a time she was content as a concubine, playing the Pipa and singing in a Xian tea house to earn her keep."
He paused, and the tattoo machine went silent. "But then everything changed," he said.
"And?" urged Megan.
"And, I think that's all I can do tonight," said the tattooist. "Would you like to see?" he asked as he held up a hand mirror. Megan was distracted and surprised that the session had ended so abruptly. She took the mirror and examined the birds cavorting on her left tit, from her collar bone to her nipple. The tattooist reached over and wiped away traces of blood that still oozed from her skin.
"I love it!" said Megan as stepped off of the barber chair. The modesty towel fell away in her haste, and she she stood viewing her body in the full length mirror wearing only her panties. She'd really only intended to get a small tattoo on the back of her shoulder, but this seemed much bolder and more defiant. Like it or not, it was hers now, and only hers, forever. Tempted to touch it, she reached her fingers to her chest, only to be stopped by the 'tut-tutting' of the tattoo artist.
Megan glanced at him watching her in the mirror. Was it too soon? She'd just had a bad breakup from a long relationship and
should
be reluctant to chase another wild hare. She asked slyly, "So, is that what it means? Do you own me now?"
He grinned and shook his head, "No, more correctly, you own a piece of me."
Megan felt a stirring in her gut as she watched his eyes roaming her body, a stirring she'd felt off-and-on throughout the tattoo process. She turned excitedly and presented herself, hopping on her toes in a way that made her boobs bounce.
"What do you think?" she asked.
"Beautiful!" he said, chuckling.
Megan silently hoped he would make a move, but she waited patiently as the tattoo artist applied antiseptic and a protective covering. As he pressed the last piece of tape on her chest and over her shoulder, Megan raised her eyes to his and that simmering lust rose to a boil. Their lips were inches apart but neither moved closer. Their eyes were frozen and fixed on each other.
The artist blinked first and they both turned away.
"Get outta here!" said Aubrey, Megan's girlfriend, incredulously.
The two were sitting face to face at a two-top in a coffee shop and Megan had just given Aubrey a peek at her new body art.
"Show me again," insisted Aubrey, who leaned even further across the table.
Megan looked around carefully to make sure no one else was watching and quickly wrenched her shirt collar to the side, exposing more of the tattoo. After a few moments and a whistle from her girlfriend, she covered up.
"Wow, that's bad-ass, girl!" said Aubrey appreciatively. "Who... er... where did you get it done?"
"Oh, at 'Trader Dan's'" said Megan, "And, I'm not even sure that's his real name. I guess it's Dan."
"You let some guy tattoo your boob, and you don't know his name?" asked Aubrey.
Rather than answer, Megan swiped on her cell phone and laid it on the table. It was a selfie Megan had taken with her tattoo artist at his shop.
"Hubba, hubba!" exclaimed Aubrey.
Megan smiled. Aubrey had just affirmed the feelings swirling through her brain over the last few days. She sipped her coffee and closed her eyes, imagining where and how soon she would get her next ink. She'd found a man with good looks and taste, someone she trusted. The thought of committing, submitting to him didn't concern her. In fact it bubbled up a hunger in her like the savory aroma of rosemary from a pot of homemade stew.
"What will Gabe think?" asked Aubrey.
At the sound of her ex boyfriend's name, Megan's face went blank and her pleasant musing disappeared.
"Fuck him," said Megan flatly, "We aren't seeing each other any more."
"Oh," said Aubrey, flustered, "I didn't know..."
"He suggested we take a break. We argued, and I lost. I don't know for sure, but I think he's gotta a thing going with someone else, maybe someone he works with," said Megan with a reproach.
"But, you were so good together," objected Aubrey.
Megan closed her eyes again briefly, recalling her life Gabe and said, "We were. I really felt good about building a life with him, getting married, starting a family... Hell, he was even good in bed. But HE disrupted that, and... it hurts. I don't know how I can trust him now, or ever again."
Aubrey's brow creased, "Oh, I'm sure he'll be back. I know he'll want you back. What will you do?"
"We'll see," said Megan, eyeing her friend. Aubrey seemed to have a curious concern for Gabe, but it didn't matter. Could her ex have a place in her life now? Doubtful. She found herself profoundly indifferent to the prospect.
Megan slipped her fingers into her blouse and touched her tattoo idly. She had sampled an appetizer at a banquet, and it had only made her hungry for the main course. And her stomach was growling now. It was time to make another appointment.
"So, you see," continued the tattoo artist, "The drought caused many to starve and triggered a revolution, pitting the peasants against artists, academics and the wealthy, who were painted as lazy elites. These 'others' were blamed for crop failures and mass death, because they didn't work the fields. Meijuan found herself in an impossible and dangerous situation."
"Ow!" shouted Megan. A sharp pain sent a ripple through her body, causing her to contract away from the tattoo machine and the artist's hand. The artist swabbed her skin with a damp paper towel. He had been working on a new area above and over her hip, outlining a larger piece.
"Shh. Shh. You're OK now. The worst is over. Let it pass. Listen to my voice. Concentrate on my voice and that will help you through it," he said.
Megan closed her eyes to better focus on his soothing words. Her pain faded and she felt only ache where he continued to work, as her body produced exactly the right chemicals to mute the needle's effect. Even the buzzing of his tattoo machine seemed to fade into the background as he continued his story.
"Meijuan hid in an outbuilding while her master was dragged into the street and beaten by young thugs. He was stripped, shackled and hauled away to work in the fields as a peasant. For the crime of being a successful landlord, his property was forfeited to the state. Fearing her own fate, and having a home no longer, she imagined a disguise that would allow her to pass for a low-born worker. She scraped her fingers across the the earthen floor of the hut, and covered her face and arms with dirt."
The artist paused to examine the large goggle-eyed chameleon that now graced Megan's thigh. It clutched a leafy branch that extended onto her butt. When complete, the green lizard's tongue would arch onto her stomach and encircle an unsuspecting blue maiden fly perched over her hip.
"She was a clever girl, then." offered Megan.
"Yes, clever like a fox." agreed Dan. The tattoo artist took Megan's knee and drew it gently upward, to view the tattoo from a different angle. Megan followed his lead, rolled from her side onto her back and allowed her legs to part wide, leaving her exposed and tempting. She stared at the man and he stared back, each willing the other to make the next move. The artist turned away and Megan could feel her heart sinking. She felt self-conscious, but before she could cover herself, the man turned back around. He had set his tattoo machine down and was removing his gloves.
The tattoo artist pulled his shirt over his head, revealing a mass of indelible color in forms too numerous to count. There was a predominant dragon though, peeking over his sternum, partly obscured by thick dark hair that had been allowed to grow out. Megan felt a thumping in her chest as he knelt between her legs. She could feel his breath on her skin and could just see his eyes were crinkled in a smile, but she didn't need to see his mouth.
