Few things are as troubling as the unknown. Not knowing what is happening or what has happened to the ones you love is perhaps the most troubling of all. Love itself cannot conquer this worry; nothing truly can. It is only through seeing them alive and well again that your doubts will be stayed. It is elating to know that the one's you love are safe and it is for this reason that even in the darkest of circumstances a homecoming is always akin to celebration. Enjoy...
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"Any news?" Amber heard as she walked down the corridor.
In a hushed voice the other replied, "Fighting hasn't started yet, last I heard, but apparently they have armed themselves and are prepared to fight."
"Does anyone know how they acquired the weapons?"
Amber paused nearby, attempting to look as though she were examining one of the portraits of the Prince's long dead ancestors.
"We're not sure, but they must have been acquiring them for some time by the amount that they appear to have. They must have gotten at least some of them from the outlying areas near Lingley."
"That's frightening. What do you think will happen? Will the people there fight?"
"I'm not sure, but if it does come to fighting it will likely be Pyrrhic victory for either side."
Amber moved away after she heard this for fear of being discovered. She had been attempting to listen to the rumors ever since he had gone. The politicians and royalty were keeping silent on the details of the rebellion, that it was happening had not even been announced, but the secret was too big to be kept completely silent.
She knew that he was there. He had left the morning after he had told her that she belonged with him. He had not told her where he was going or why it was so urgent for him to leave, but as soon as she had known what was happening she knew that there was no other place that he could be. She had been hoping to hear something of him, but he had never been mentioned in any of the hurried and hushed conversations that seemed to be happening all around her now.
Three weeks had passed since he had vanished and she could only hope that nothing had happened to him on his mission. The relief she felt knowing that no fighting had broken out made her feel as though she could function again, but her sense of dread had not dissipated in the slightest. She had hated the idea of violence and bloodshed all her life. Her father had shared her dislike of war and battles, but he had been conscripted into the army.
Amber had been seventeen when her father had received the summons. She remembered being unable to understand why he was willing to go on that fateful day. She remembered trying to convince him to stay on the day that he was assigned to leave.
She had pleadingly told him, "Don't go."
"But you know I must," he had told her with a soft, sad look.
"Why must you? You were the one that always told me that violence doesn't solve problems it only serves to further them," her voice rising in volume as she spoke. "How can you do something that goes against everything that you taught me?"
He could see the tears begin to escape her eyes and he rushed over to catch her wilting form. At first she had fought him and tried to push him away in anger, but he would not budge and in truth she wanted him near. She embraced him and cried all the harder.
As he sat her down on the one comfortable and sturdy chair they owned and told her, "I am doing what I must, to give you the best life I can. You are the most important thing in the world to me and I need to do right by you."
She looked at him and asked in honest confusion, "How can leaving me possibly be what's best for my life? What am I to do, alone and abandoned?"
"I cannot run from this without shaming myself and in turn you. I have never had the ability to provide you with the dowry you deserve, but at least if I continue to be respected your beauty will win the heart of some wonderful young man and you will live a life far better than I have been able to. You will be left in the care of Mrs. Billingsley until I am able to return. I have left enough money with her to care for you for the next two years."
"But I don't need a better life. I'm happy with the one I have," she protested as she pulled away from him slightly. Her head rapidly began to clear as she focused on this fact and realized that she could fight him with it.
"We won't be able to keep the life that we have now if I am to refuse this duty. We would have to run, never knowing a days rest or a nights sleep without worry. Is that what you want?" he pleaded.
"As long as I don't lose the last of the family I have, yes it is," she said, her voice clear.
He looked at her, clearly wounded. He began speaking again, but this time very slowly and with obvious pain in his voice. "I am not trying to take myself from you. I am trying to give you the best life that I can, but if this is how you feel I cannot deny your request. You are my daughter and you are all that I have left in this world. I will never abandon you as I have already dedicated the rest of my life to making sure that yours will be a good one.
"However, you still have much life to live and I am not what you should base your life around. I know that you worry about me as well as my health and that you do your best to make sure that you are as small a burden as possible, but this is not the proper relationship of a father and daughter. A father should protect and provide for his family and help them to secure the best possible future. It is my aim to do that now, as it always has been.
"I may not think much of fighting or war, but I am willing to do anything to protect my family and I will save you from persecution by doing what is required of me. It is for this reason that I feel compelled to leave you. Leaving you will mean that you are safe and away from harm and there is nothing that I want more than that. But, if you tell me that I cannot leave you without harming you even more greatly myself, I will stay."
A tight knot had accumulated in her throat as he had spoken and it was now no longer possible for her to fight him or argue. She still didn't want him to go, but she also knew that telling him to stay would be wrong of her. She could see how hard it was for him to come to the decision that he had made and that his resolve was beginning to fail him now. She knew what she had to do, but that didn't make it any easier to do it. "You could never hurt me papa."
He pulled her tightly against him as soon as she said those words. They stayed like that, both weak and weary from what those words had cost each of them.
"Bless your heart, my precious gem," was all he could muster in response when he finally let go of her.
Amber sniffled and then told him, "You still have to come back though."
"Of course I do."
"You promise?"
"Yes, in fact," he said as he let go of her to grab something out of his pocket. "I want you to hold onto this for me," he told her as he stuck out his hand.
Amber's eyes went wide as she what he held. "But, that's your locket. Mom gave it to you. I can't take that from you."