Chapter 2 - Friendship
Thus, I saw Sarah four times over the next week for our exercise runs. As we ran, I shared with her my discovery of new restaurants, small successes at work with some threat detection software, and she talked about her job search, and her explorations around the town and county.
We were just into our second month of friendship when we took a long run on a Saturday and ended up back at The Station for another omelet breakfast. After we were served, Sarah studied me for a bit.
Sarah finally said, "Doug, are you gay?"
I kind of recoiled. No one had ever asked me that question. "NO!" I protested. "Whatever gave you that idea? I don't mind people of that persuasion, but that ain't me."
Sarah laughed, "Well, I know what I am and that's a hot babe, especially in tight running shorts and this sports bra, yet you've never even looked at me in lusty way, and by now I would have expected that you would have asked me for a date of some kind."
I started to sputter and stutter. "I ...s You ... We ..." I paused and restarted, "Sarah, I have noticed you and your ... mode of dress, but I'm not even in your league. You are so far beyond where I am or where I've ever been that I couldn't even contemplate us going out together other than to jog -- and that only because we kind of fell into the activity when you were new in town.
"You're beautiful -- stunning and all eyes are drawn to you, not because you've done porn but because you are stunning. You're one of the most beautiful women in the world and will obviously remain that way for the rest of your life. I'm a rather plain guy without much pizzaz or charisma or draw.
"Besides that, I am shy and haven't dated very much. I would embarrass myself with somebody like you pretty quickly. Heck, I think I told you when we first met that I am a super nerd. The kind of guy that I imagine you'd like would be more like a James Bond type in a black tuxedo with a style and grace as smooth as glass. I doubt that I'd ever be that kind of guy."
Sarah sat back and smiled. "You have seriously overrated me. Let me tell somethings about my past. I have a dark side that you need to consider."
She settled into her meal for a bite, and then started. "I lived in a one-room flat in a tenement in Vegas. It was the cheapest housing in the city except for the homeless shelter or a cardboard box. The rats had better housing. When I dated it was often with one of guys from work -- a cameraman, a grip, or maybe even my co-star. None of that was serious, and most of them wouldn't even know what a tuxedo is. True, I had some rich guys that hired me as an escort that wanted exclusive long-term rights, but I turned them down because that's not the kind of life that I see for myself. I wasn't going to try to be a Pretty Woman in real life -- like the movie. I knew that for them basically I was a whore, and nothing more. I'd get cast aside when something better, prettier, or younger came along. I was realistic.
None of those guys were boyfriends -- not one. The last boyfriend that I had, with that title as such, was in high school. I did not fuck the whole football team as you might think. Not one of those boys or men ever met my standard for a 'boyfriend'.
"I had a roommate named Ruby for a while when we first started fucking on film. We shared the rent and she was a hooker. We were both whores and about at the bottom of the pile. A few months after we became buddies, she ODed. That was a shock, especially since I was the one that found her dead. She'd stoked up, gone to bed to enjoy her high, and died in her sleep. I'd just turned twenty, and haven't touched a narcotic since. That was a really dark period in my life. Some of the porn people I knew were into drugs a lot. More than just Ruby hurt themselves that way -- 'crash and burn', we'd say.
"I contemplated suicide after Ruby died, but then decided that I'd fuck and suck my way into the future and save every cent that I could so that I could get out of the business. I set a goal and did about everything I could to get there. I had been spending about a thousand a month on drugs. Instead, I went cold turkey and I saved it. I sold myself -- my body, and saved every cent I could. I bet I know every way there is to get a free meal and cheap rent -- sex is often involved. I didn't lose sight of the goal and that was to leave the sex industry and get back to a stable way of life -- my 'normal', if you will. I was not your girl-next-door or your Pretty Woman. I was a money hungry whore.
"So, in reality, I'm this small-town girl that happened to get into a profession where she fucked or had sex with a lot of other people. She was a mercenary whore, and is trying to get out of that mode now. She has the residual reputation, and will for the rest of her life. I discounted that aspect of things and how people would see me, but that's my bag of rocks to carry around the rest of my life, or until I get so old that no one recognizes me as Candy Sweet.
"So, am I out of your league? If anything, I'm lower in the caste system than you think. Some days I feel lower than whale shit. Please don't think that you're out of my league."
She paused and then bluntly asked, "Have you looked at my videos online?"
I blushed. "Don't go there, Sarah. I like our relationship, and I'd be embarrassed to go there."
She shook her head, "Answer me, please." She tapped the table near me firmly with one finger.
"Okay, yes, I've watched everyone that I could find -- straight sex, multiple partners, lesbian, group, gangbang, BDSM, orgy, slavery, water sports, and masturbation, and then six of your romantic movies. And, to answer your next question, yes, I jerked off to all of them. You are or were sexy as all fuck. But the movies aren't real. They're abstract and fiction, like a good book. I don't even connect them with you sitting here next to me."
Sarah nodded curtly. "Thank you. Good answer. At least we have THAT behind us."
I frowned, "What do you mean?"
"What are you doing tonight?" Sarah asked in a bold manner as she leaned forward.
"I ... was going to walk downtown and have dinner at the noodle house and then study about air traffic control procedures. Remember, I'm taking flying lessons." I'd told Sarah about my interest in aviation and golf.
Sarah's whole demeanor changed suddenly to become lighter and happier. "Doug ... oh ... Most Omnipotent, Omniscient, Great and Unobsequious Master of the Universe, Doctor Douglas Anthony Mallus, will you do me the honor of accompanying ME to dinner tonight at the noodle house downtown, and then maybe a nighttime stroll along the bayfront?"
I balked, "You're asking me out -- for real?" I was in total disbelief this could be happening. No female had ever asked me out.
She smiled, "I am. It'll save you the trouble of working up to it. Back to where this conversation started. We come to this point as equals of some kind, and these days and in this place, it is acceptable for a woman to ask a man on a date." She looked proud of herself.
I stumbled, "Yes, I'd be truly delighted to go out with you. I'm stunned by how beautiful you are and will feel privileged to be seen in public with you."
"Good. My place at seven p.m. for a glass of wine, then we'll walk downtown. The dress code is casual, but not grunge. Do not wear a tuxedo or try to be anybody other than yourself."
We were silent after that exchange, and focused on our meals. My brain was truly scrambled by the last ten minutes of conversation, plus Sarah's revelations. Our conversation devolved to what was going on around us and then the walk home and our apartments.
I had a flying lesson in the early afternoon, and did some studying about various types of airspace before and after my lesson. My instructor was named Ken, and he was ex-Air Force, so knew his stuff.