They had met online after she had posted a personal ad on Craig's List: Married woman looking for romance, it said, if he could paraphrase.
It was a classy posting amid the no-strings-attached pleas for one night of animal sex, or the ads by women who said they were looking for a relationship, but, in fact, were just looking for a man to validate them with empty compliments designed for one purpose -- to get them out of their clothes. They both knew what would happen: They would have sex, part ways and move on to the next "love at first e-mail response."
With each conquest, they never felt better. Some felt worse.
But she was no player. Dozens of would-be suitors had responded to her post, but none had succeeded. Maybe she was too picky. Maybe she was looking for something -- romance -- that just wasn't going to happen in the internet whorehouse that Craig's List had become. Heck, maybe she should just give in and have empty sex with a stranger. Who knows? Maybe the sex would be good ... and Lord knows, she could use some good sex.
Like right now.
She sat on the sofa in front of the television. Everyone else in the house was asleep. Another of her long days -- filled with a job, school, family obligations, you name it -- had come to an end in the wee hours, but she couldn't sleep. Her mind was drifting.
Amid all of the rejections, there was one guy who kind of gnawed at her. She was sure they weren't right for each other -- he seemed too occupied with sex; she wanted to be wooed. He had a wife at home who was frigid and he wasn't about to jump into a relationship with another woman who seemed to shy from her sexuality. So, he tested her. She had a husband who didn't give her the soft love she craved. She teased him with a few sexy, sometimes baudy, comments. But in the end, she rejected him.
And now, he was back on her mind. She had kept his e-mails, in particular two explicit stories he had written for her. But she found them crude. He wrote about sex -- raw sex. One story was about a woman who picked up a man on the side of the road. The other described a threesome. Neither of those was a fantasy of hers.
Doesn't anyone write about romance anymore, she wondered.
But she had re-read the stories that day at work and now was rewinding them in her mind. She made believe the man by the side of the road with the disabled car was him. He had called her when his car had been disabled nearby. They were finally going to meet.
She reached her hand under her nightgown and closed her eyes ...
They were seated on the couch, a tray of tea and cookies on the table in front of them. She had made them as a joke because, once, to show her old-fashioned values, she had told him in an e-mail that one of her fantasies involved having tea and cookies with a man, a suitor, in a ritual from decades, maybe centuries, ago.
"Very funny," he said when he saw the refreshments. "Very funny."
She just smiled.
She picked him up after the tow truck left, and brought him home. They talked for what seemed like hours -- about her job, his job, what was going on in the world, their e-mails. She indulged his sense of humor by laughing in all of the right spots of the conversation. Every once in a while, when making a point, she would reach out and touch him on the arm, and each time it was like an electrical jolt through his body.
When she wasn't looking, he sneaked peeks at her, and undressed her with his eyes. He wondered what she looked like beneath the long skirt and the layered shirts, but since he wasn't Superman, with X-ray vision, it was all conjecture. Dark features, Small breasts. He liked that. He was never a big breast guy. He wondered about the size of her nipples. He wondered if they were erect as they spoke. After all, he was turned on. Was she also?
As she talked, his mind often wandered. He was trying to get up the nerve to kiss her. Should he? Shouldn't he? She wanted to be romanced. Did that mean she would be offended if he kissed her. Would he score more points if he held back? She had said she didn't want him. Did she? Didn't she? She was difficult to read.
He reached out and took her hand. It startled her for a second, but she realized she liked it and didn't pull back.
"Good sign," he thought. So he ventured further,
"I want to be honest," he said.