I scan the crowd, looking for that familiar face. Not that I've ever seen it before in the flesh. There. Out of the corner of my eye, I spot you. I don't think you've seen me yet. I start to walk towards you, beaming with glee.
Finally, I get to meet this amazing man for real
I think to myself.
You see me, and your smile lights up the entire room. You start to walk quickly towards me, bumping the other bystanders just to get to me quicker.
Then, we stop. We just look at each other.
What do I do now? Shake hands? Hug him? Kiss him? Wait for him to make the move? Goddamit woman! Say something!
"Uhh... hi. I finally made it" I say, blushing.
You just stand there, staring. Smiling. Is that a good thing?
You step forward and wrap your arms around me. I melt in your embrace, and you kiss my forehead. "Hello, my love" you say, still holding me.
"Mmmmm" it's all I can manage, as I drink in your touch, your smell. This moment, right here, is perfect.
Minutes pass, we haven't moved but the bystanders have now thinned out.
How long have we been standing like this?
I wonder to myself. And I don't care. If this is all I get, I'll be happy.
Finally, we slowly move apart and take a good, long look at each other. Just exactly as we thought we'd look. Still smiling, beaming, silent.
You take my hand and lead me away from the open space of the terminal and take me outside. I falter, and just breathe in my surroundings. I close my eyes and you tug gently on my hand. For a moment, I'd forgotten where I was. "Oh, sorry. I'm ok. Just... overwhelmed" I say as you look at me, puzzled.
"Come. There is so much to see, but first you need to rest."
You tug on my hand again, pulling me towards you, and then you let go as you drape your arm around me to lead me to your car. Bags loaded, and you plant another kiss on me, this time my cheek.
Sweet, but will he just kiss me already!
I'm still unsure on everything, and my stomach is doing belly flips, even harder than it's ever done before.
You already know where we are headed, I gave you that information a while ago. After all, even though we have known each other a while, we don't really
know
each other. I watch the scenery go past, and start to feel sleepy, but I fight the need as I want to take all of this in.
I check in and we head up to the room I have booked. It's beautiful. Heavy drapes billow slowly in the breeze and although the room is small, it will suit my needs. Kitchenette, bathroom with an extra-large shower, and a king bed. A dining table with 2 chairs, plus a couch with a TV on the wall, complete the room. I walk to the bed and flop down, hearing you giggle at my silliness.
"You ok baby?" you ask as you see me, star-fished on the enormous bed.
"Yes hun" I say between giggles, "but I am sleepy. Can you stay a while? Do you... want to?" I ask, hopeful. After all, spending time together was what we both wanted.
You check your watch. Habit maybe? I don't know. I don't know if you cleared your entire schedule for while I was here, or only a day or so here or there. "Of course, I can stay. If that's what you want." "Uh huh" I mumble, just to not sound as eager as I am.
Stay. Kiss me more. Touch me.
I think to myself.
I get up to pull the curtains closed. It is the middle of the day after all, but I am very tired, and the sun will only be a distraction. Even more than the man in the room. You sneak up behind me and wrap your arms around me again, only this time, you place your hands on my boobs and give a playful squeeze.
"May I be big spoon and play with these while you sleep?" you ask, and I catch a glimmer of hope in your voice. I instantly melt. I close my eyes and lean back into you, feeling your arms tighten around me. "mmm" I murmur.
"Lift your arms" you command, and I do as you ask. You slowly pull my t-shirt off over my head, grazing your fingers along my sides as you do, making me squirm and giggle.
"Oh my god, that tickles!" I exclaim, and I can feel the heat of your smile on my back. I drop my arms and you unclip my bra, in one swift move the hooks are undone and it falls to the floor. Instinct would have me immediately cover my breasts, but this time, I leave them exposed. I am comfortable for you to see me exactly how I am.
Next, you slide my jeans and underwear off in an expert move. Again, swiftly and quickly. I take a step to the side, leaving all my clothes where they fall, my back still to you. I wait to see if there are more commands for me follow, and instead I hear the bed being uncovered and then a "oomphf" and "pat pat pat". "Come my dear, in you get."
I turn to see you. Beautiful, naked, hard, you. Naked. Staring at me. I can feel myself blush.
How did I get here and what am I doing? Is this really a good idea? Should I be doing this?
I must have stood there staring for too long, because then your look turns from amazement to puzzled.