She wore a plain, square-necked gown in dove-grey silk from his mother's wardrobe. I didn't fit perfectly and was hardly the fashion of ladies in town, but it suited her well. The colour contrasted with her hair - which he was amused to see looked more than a little dishevelled from the spring winds outside. Several strands had escaped the plaited mass atop her head and fallen to graze her cheeks and neck.
She seemed to belong here already. Sat on the edge of the bed, she stretched her bare feet out in front of her, at ease. She adapts to his world well, Dunstan thought, but I suppose she is used to being a chameleon.
He lingered in the doorway of her room, one foot still in the bathroom that adjoined the two bedchambers, unsure of how to follow up their last exchange.
Simply sharing the room with her coloured the air with a thrum of tempatation. Sebastian's words rang in his ears. 'Are you certain you know how to handle yourself?' they chided. Of course, Seb knew all too well that Dunstan did not, in fact, know how to handle himself when it came to desire. Guilt prickled at him. He rubbed at the back of his neck as if to erase the emotion. He tried to put it out of mind, as he had since their conversation in London.
"If you're going to come in, come in," she called across to him. Dunstan stepped fully into the blue-drenched room, dimly aware of how stiffly he was moving. The afternoon sun was casting a beam onto the bed where she sat soaking in the warmth like a cat. The light caught her red-blonde hair in flame.
"I wondered how long it would take you to make use of that door," she remarked cooly, gesturing at the threshold he had just stepped through.
"Miss Baker, I must reiterate my intent to-
"To treat me as an honoured guest, yes, yes, thank you. You made that intention clear enough this morning. Need I reiterate mine, or will you stalk off again?" She fixed him with a challenging stare. "I had hoped that when you finally knocked it would be with a more interesting intent than that. If that is all, you may take your leave, Mr. Whitling."
He did not move. She is more hurt than I knew. He felt another twinge of guilt. It was wrong of him to admonish her, he knew, and worse still to abandon her in the garden. I am not a delicate woman, said a voice in his ear. He had wanted to take her then, there in the corridor of Sebastian's house, he had wanted to take her by the lake and the entire restless journey back from London.
"Your being a guest in my home includes my own appropriate conduct," he protested. The words sounded feeble as they hung in the air. She narrowed her eyes in response.
"What was it you said before? 'Fuck appropriate.' I hardly believe the man who said that is now suddenly a gentleman."
The reminder of his past behaviour tugged at him, whispering memories of her skin against his. His pulse quickened. The room suddenly felt too small, too blue, too full of her presence. A sticky heat clung to him as he found his eyes drawn yet again to her lips and the soft curve of breast atop the neckline of her dress. Hypocrite. Coward. He could not deny that he wanted her as much as he did then.
"That was -- that was a lapse of judgement," he found himself saying. Even as the words left his lips, he cursed them for their falsity. Liar.
"As I said, you may take your leave, Mr. Whitling."
Something crumpled within him at the finality of her tone. He could tell that, despite the desire she had confessed to him, the window of her interest was closing. She was unwilling to put up with the indignity of rejection and soon, he would only ever be 'Mr Whitling' to her. The thought of it cracked through his chest, sending a wash of longing into his very fingertips.
Without knowing what he intended to do until it was already done, he strode across the room to where she sat and knelt over her, drawing her face to his with both hands. His heart pounded in his ears in response to the soft warmth of her skin, their breath on each other's cheeks.
Led by nothing but feverish yearning, he traced the contours of her face with shaking thumbs. Her lips, mere centimetres from his, were parted in surprise at his sudden approach, but her dark doe eyes glittered with a mutual desire.
Breathlessly, he pleaded, "Dunstan, call me Dunstan."
"Dunstan, I-"
Her breath caught as he pressed his lips to hers. Her voice rang in his mind, the sound of his name feeling entirely new to him from her mouth. He remembered their previous kisses; how harsh they had been. He wanted to kiss her properly now. Tenderly. Slowly. As a brand-new man. He wished he could return with her name, but all he had was the facade she had provided him.
A cold doubt washed over him. He pulled out of the kiss and groaned in frustration. Why on earth was he allowing himself to do this? He scrunched his eyes closed and pressed his forehead against hers, allowing the pain to hold him, just for a moment. "Tell me," he murmured softly to her. "Give your name to me, please. I need to know the truth of you."