A special thank you to my partner in crime in this story - will_4_rp. You've been a 'brilliant' partner. :)
Chapter One
Lyla lay in the cool darkness of her bedroom, unable to sleep for the umpteenth time in months. She was tired, but even the comforting weight of her husband's warm arm did little to sooth her frazzled nerves and running mind. Something was... off. Maybe it was her. With a soft sigh she gently wiggled away from Matt's heavy arm and rolled onto her side. Frustration welled up inside her. By all accounts, she should be blissfully happy.
Yesterday had marked her seven years of marriage to her high school sweetheart. They had met after she had transferred her junior year and instantly connected. The rest was history. After two wonderful years of dating, Matt had proposed after graduation and they had taken the leap into married life. While everyone had scoffed that things wouldn't last, they had managed to remain together happily through college, both working to afford their little apartment. No kids busied their lives, both agreeing that, for now, they wanted to be financially secure. So it wasn't the stress of motherhood, she was happily employed, and happy too with Matt's progress as a construction foreman. But in the last few months, Lyla had felt increasingly frustrated and confused. Sex, which had always been better than nice, and sometimes quite brilliant, was now usually passable at best. Not for Matt's lack of trying, which made her feel horrible. How could she enjoy sex, however, with the "dark cloud", as she thought of it, beginning to gather around them.
Matt's dizzying rise at work had occurred alongside a tide of new contracts for his firm, subcontracted out from major players and home and abroad. And so it had come to pass: he was to work overseas, and scheduled to leave the following morning. For Iraq.
The argument that followed after they had first received the news hadn't been pretty. But it was nothing compared to the ugliness with which her imagination, in the weeks since the announcement, had been terrorizing her. Lyla was worried sick—some days quite literally. Matt had tried to sooth her frazzled nerves, of course. He'd assured her he would be fine; the work was all in the lushest forest of the Green Zone; it would mean a staggering injection of money for their savings; it would mean kids. But in Lyla's mind, the risks didn't outweigh the benefits and she resented him for not taking into consideration her feelings.
Yet the cloud had other origins too. Deeper, darker. Iraq had given it focus and intensity. But she knew. It was now just part of all that was off kilter in her life.
With a heavy sigh, she turned onto her side and gazed at his handsome sleeping face, his dark brown hair rumpled and sticking this way and that in the most adorable way. She reached out to ruffle it and almost stopped herself. His classic square and lean features relaxed in sleep, nose a bit too sharp a precipice, but dashing nonetheless. Still young, and working construction, his body was lean and strong, often catching the eye of other women. And she couldn't blame them. Her husband was something of a hunk. It must be in the genes. That handsome mug was duplicated, in an older, xeroxed, pre-digital copy, in his older brother Michael.
Michael...She tousled Matt's hair. Usually single, not eager to mingle, quiet, considered, more socially reserved—or so she imagined. He'd moved away shortly after she'd fallen hard for Matt. Something Michael, of course, had been implicated in. Perhaps he had even orchestrated it. And now they saw little of him, and heard mere whispers—driven, accomplished, successful, her mother in law dropped hints subtle enough to break the tiled floor of the kitchen, ever failing to annoy the hell out of Matt. Was he going to Iraq to show he could be successful too? Lyla shuddered.
Tousling again, she watched Matt's eyes slowly lift, bleary with sleep. He smiled sweetly at her, his arm returning to pull her soft, curving form against his lean, hard planes. "Hey, babe..."
She forced on a smile and touched his forehead gently, toying with his hair still and drawing out a low rumble of appreciation. "Shhhh... go back to sleep," she murmured softly.
Nuzzling the side of her neck, he shifted his big body and pressed his lips to her skin, sending a ripple of pleasure down her neck. She closed her eyes and relished the sweet, painful feeling, her heart aching. Her voice breaking: "You should be sleeping..."
She slid both hands through his hair and tugged at his hair until he lifted his face to gaze into her own. His lips came down softly against her mouth, just a feathered brush. "Lyla... I'll be back. I promise you, I will. So soon. You'll hardly have time to miss me." He assured her again, and again. Her eyes stung as tears threatened to spill.
Tilting her head back, she sniffed softly and swallowed hard. She didn't want to fight, and so she said nothing. Sensing her struggle, Matt dipped down and kissed her cheeks and nose, then back down to her lips, pressing more firmly until she opened up to him and, unconsciously, moaned. His body tightened in response. His sweet little Lyla. A girl's face, a woman's curves. Her silky skin arched beneath him, brushing his chest, her tongue stroking his own. A lone, silent tear broke free and traced the softness of her face, glittering in the near dark. He brushed it away. "I love you," he murmured, thickly, and she smiled at him, her slender throat working to control the welling of emotions.
"I love you too. Even if you are a stubborn ass," she forced herself to joke.
His smiled flashed, and then, in the darkness, she was lost to another of his kisses. Clinging to him, she pressed close, rubbing everything she could muster against him. Her thighs shifted to cradle his body against her own, opening, wrapping her legs around him, meeting the slow grind of his hips with circles of her own, her long t-shirt riding up, his naked body burning like kindling in a fire. "Make love to me, Matt," she breathed, terrified.
Terrified that somewhere between her own messed up feelings and this trip, she was going to lose him, and however it happened, it would somehow be her fault.
******
Matt was not the kind of man you had to ask twice for a fuck. One minute, he was lying there, sucked into sleep, and dreaming of running through the fields with the family dog, aged 9, beside his brother, overtaking him in the race for the finish. What was that dog's name? The next, his weeping wife had woken him up. He needed sleep, but the unbidden erection under the covers begged to differ. The huge journey tomorrow would be arduous, even with so much free booze on the company tab to keep the boys happy for the duration. And yet... The sight of Lyla crying, and – if he was honest – the curve of her sweet, perky breasts pressing through the thin fabric of her baggy bedtime t-shirt were all he needed by way of encouragement. His cock was saying yes before he'd even left the golden fields of his dream.
"OK," he thought, "And as I'm going away, here's one to remember."
Moving fast, he pinned her arms on either side of her head, and rolled onto her, knocking her halting breath out of her. He used one hand to grip her wrists together, kissing down her face to lick up the tears, then sucking at her neck and the panting hollow of her throat. His other hand, work-rough and powerful, slid hard down her torso between her breasts, then bunched the hem of her t-shirt and yanked it up between them, hard, exposing her to the moonlight creeping around the edge of their ill-fitting drapes. Now she gasped, arching her back, and he dove in to suck eagerly at the long, pink nipples extending from each solid mound. Meanwhile, his stiff, rough fingertips slid down across her belly, into the tropical space between her legs, and up to the short, abrasive fuzz of her slit, now stretched wide by his quarterback's thighs.
This time she did more than just yelp. Crushing her gasping mouth with his lips to absorb her delighted shock, he propelled his index finger deep into her soaking hole. He smiled: she was so fucking wet. Ever the teenage boy, this detail of their love-making – her body's desperate need, which he always assumed was for him and him alone – never ceased to give him a cheap but potent thrill. He moved his hand 90 degrees right as it slid in and out with some force, then 180 degrees the other way, there and back, there and back, like a key in a sticky ignition, before coming back to the middle and where he'd begun. Now he slid his middle finger in too, and used the pair to make their favorite bedtime gesture – come here, come here, they beckoned her. Come...
He rubbed his cock, by now fiercely hard and bursting to fill her in one pumping move, firmly against her leg and mound, wetting itself on her flooding juices as she bucked against his fist. All the while he bit and sucked at her lips, her painfully stiff nipples, her bare, blushing neck...
"Come here, come here," he teased her as his fingers flickered faster inside, right in the spot she loved best. He felt her widening inside, felt her ballooning open to receive him.