He's your roommate, I thought irritably to myself. Your relationship is platonic.
But somehow, watching him walk out the door with Amelia, the busty blonde from next door, all of that logic flew out with them.
I had been living with Max for a year now. We'd gotten close in an AbPsych class our sophomore year. Neither of us wealthy enough to support ourselves and pay for college, we had decided to move in together. We got along well and shared similar interests. Studying was also a lot easier, because we were both psychology majors. We split the rent and took turns getting groceries. It was the perfect arrangement.
Lately, though, things had been strained. Not outwardly—neither of us were the type to really be emotional—but there was a palpable tension between us. We had grown very close living in such close quarters—with two people in a three room apartment, you're bound to get personal real quick. We told each other everything, except how we felt about the other.
Basically, we were attracted to each other. And maybe more.
Max was great looking, tall, lean and tanned, with an athletic grace that drew girls wild. He had a certain way of brushing his hair out of his face that, coupled with his easy smile and liquid eyes, caused general swooning. The effect had not been lost on me.
Tonight, he was heading out on a date with our neighbor Amelia, a dance major with huge tits that I was positive moonlighted as a stripper. I didn't say anything though; I was trying to be supportive. I knew that Max had had a bad breakup before we moved in together, and it still ached. I tried to be happy that he was dating again, but...
When the door closed behind them, I made my way back to the kitchen/living room and scrounged up some food. With our limited monetary resources, the most we had in the house at a time was some cheap peanut butter, a loaf of bread that was probably stale, some Ramen, and a huge stack of ginger ale on the counter. This week, I had scored a bag of Lays chips, which I now popped open and munched pensively.
I sat down on our threadbare couch and opened my laptop, making my way to Netflix. If all else fails, Netflix will always take your mind off a guy.
Lost in the fifth Children of the Corn, I didn't hear Max unlock our door and tiptoe in.
"Hey," he said. Startled, I looked around and took out my headphones.
"Hey. How was your date?" I tried to keep the acid out of my voice.
"Eh. Okay. She's nice, though."
I made a small noise of acknowledgment and tossed him the bag of chips.
"Throw that in the cupboard, would you?"
He did, and proceeded to kick off his shoes and join me on the couch.
"Children of the Corn, huh?"
"Yep."
Silence.
Things weren't usually this awkward between us. I was distinctly uncomfortable, and I could tell he was too. He blew a long sigh and stared at the cheap Dali print on our wall. After a long and awkward silence, he turned to me with a wary expression.
"Are you mad at me?"
Taken aback, I answered truthfully before I could stop myself.
"Kinda. I mean, no, not at all."
"
Kind of?"