Mischa smiled broadly at my suggestion, and nodded.
"I haven't brought another man home since Billy died." she said quietly. "Honestly, I haven't been looking; it's still so soon. I hope he doesn't take it the wrong way."
"How long has it been?" I inquired. "I mean, if you don't mind my asking?"
"Eighteen months," she replied, "and no, I don't mind your asking in the least. It's a logical question to ask, considering. How long has it been since you lost your wife?"
"About two and a half years." I said quietly. "Sometimes it doesn't seem like that long, and other times it feels like a lifetime, you know?"
"Completely." Mischa responded. "I go through it too. I guess it never really goes away."
I shook my head in response.
"No, it doesn't," I agreed, "but it does get a little easier. Time heals all wounds, but the scars can last for years if you let them."
Mischa stared at me keenly.
"I guess it gets better, quicker, if you have someone to lean on." she observed. "I mean, I have Tommy, but it's not the same as having a man in my life. We lean on each other though, when times get tough. The holidays are the worst, though."
I nodded in understanding.
"Christmas is difficult for me." I offered. "Cheryl used to help me trim the tree, and then our anniversary hits me hard too."
"I'll bet." Mischa concurred. "But you know what?"
"Chicken butt?" I quipped.
She grinned and laughed a bit.
"I see you went through that phase too." she said with a giggle. "But no, I was going to say that I think we can lean on one another now, too. We've both suffered a similar loss, and I think we can share our stories. Not just the anguish of what we've both been through, but the good times we had with our missing pieces."
"That's an odd connotation," I mused, "but I guess that's what they are; missing pieces to what makes us whole. I know I sure feel like something's missing. Especially at night. Sometimes I roll over and go to put my arm around Cheryl, and she isn't there. That's when I feel so alone. It's even worse if I've just been dreaming about her and I realize she's gone. It's like getting punched in the stomach."
Mischa nodded knowingly.
"I know." she sighed. "Sometimes, I dream Billy and I are out hiking or having a picnic or something. You're right, it feels so lonely to wake up and realize it was all just a dream. I usually start crying."
I smiled gently, and reached across the table; taking her hand in mine.
"Maybe we can wake up to each other." I said quietly. "You know, if things work out."
Mischa smiled back and nodded.
"I'd like to wake up next to you, Jack." she responded. "I think it would go a long way toward making me feel whole again. Especially since you remind me so much of him."
As if on cue, our server returned with the check.
"Well, you two certainly polished all of that off in good time!" she said cheerily. "I noticed you sharing the desserts too. You two must have been dating for a while, the way you snagged his cheesecake like that."
I chuckled a bit.
"Actually, it's our first date," I explained, "but you're right; we hit it off really well."
"Really?" she inquired in a rather surprised tone. "I deal with a lot of people, and you two look like you've known each other for a long time."
"I dunno." I said with a shrug. "Is ninety minutes a long time?"
The waitress stared at me as though waiting for the punchline to follow.
"Are you serious?!" she asked incredulously. "You two just met? Were you talking online or something for a while first?"
Mischa shook her adorable dark-blonde head, and smiled.
"No," she replied with a warm smile, "he just waltzed in like a knight in shining armor and beat the crap out of some biker dudes who were hassling me, and then asked me if I'd like to have dinner with him. I love chivalrous men, so I of course said yes."
The waitress looked stunned, and crouched down between us.
"That is totally awesome!" she whispered excitedly. "You know what, dessert's on me. There aren't too many people in this day and age willing to step in like that. Why were they hassling you in the first place, if you don't mind my asking?"
Mischa looked a little embarrassed but answered truthfully.
"I was trying to make some extra money for my son and myself." she explained. "I took a job over at Twin Peeks. Big mistake. I wasn't there more than twenty minutes before they started making fun of me. I'm not blessed in the breast department and they thought it was funny. Jack told them to knock it off and they went after him. He sent two of them to County General with broken bones."
The server looked impressed, but I did my best to shrug it off. In my line of work, violence sometimes comes with the job. When you're undercover, you have to be able to handle yourself better than the average officer.
"It seemed like a good idea at the time." I explained, with a shrug of my shoulders. "I identified myself as a cop, and told them not to do it, but they insisted on doing it anyway. It was a mistake."
"I guess it was!" the woman exclaimed.
She looked intently at Mischa.
"My sister is the manager that's here tonight." she continued. "I'll bet you could get a job here as a server. We have certain days when we need extra help, and you're an attractive chick."
"Betty's your sister?" I queried. "I guess I see the resemblance, now that you mention it."
"Yep." she replied. "I'm Kelly."
"I'm Jack." I responded. "This is Mischa."
We shook hands, and Kelly caught her sister's attention, motioning for her to come over.
"Is there a problem?" she inquired, as she approached us. "Everything okay, Jack?"
"Oh, everything's fine." her sister assured her. "I need you to take dessert off the bill if you would, and this lady here might just be interested in filling in during busy times. She's looking for some extra work."
"Yeah?" Betty asked, turning to Mischa. "Have you ever served before?"
Mischa shook her head.