Zach procrastinated before he dared look at the pictures Lydia had taken. He knew he would think himself an idiot in the pictures.
I'm no model!
he thought.
Smile for the camera when someone takes a group shot is the most I've ever done.
But the real reason he hesitated looking at the pictures is that he knew he'd be faced with the incontrovertible truth of what he had been doing as "Mr. Brenner." He would be seeing what Ms. Tanner (and Lydia) were seeing, and he didn't know if he could handle that.
Maybe it would be better to just send the pictures and never look at them! That way, I would never have to see how utterly ridiculous and idiotic (or even pathetic?) I might look
, Zach thought.
He knew that if he looked at the pictures, he was going to have to confront the photographic evidence of how sexually aroused he was to be Ms. Tanner's nude male client, her personal sexual fantasy in the flesh as she looked at him, touched him, and toyed with him.
Tasted
him.
He would be looking at himself with an erection, knowing that in the picture he was both aroused and embarrassed and —
addicted
— by the spell Lydia had cast over him.
While he'd struggled many times to figure all this out, now these internal conflicts were about to be ramped up even more. Zach was sure those worries would be intensified when he opened the camera roll on his phone. All this would crash down on him again, he knew, the instant he saw himself in Lydia's pictures.
Why am I so aroused, in spite of my embarrassment, for Lydia — or is it 'Ms. Tanner' — to see me naked? How can I both love it and be so-o-o embarrassed when I'm naked in front of my personal trainer?
Then he remembered the plus side:
She enjoys herself, even to the point of masturbation and climax, when she looks at my erect cock, my completely revealed body, my ass.
Then Zach was back to the other side of his insoluble equation:
Oh, my god! Me. Naked. With a hard-on. Looking into the camera.
He just didn't know how to feel about it. So far, going with the experience in the moment — and loving the way Lydia as Ms. Tanner talked to him, looked at him — was something he'd come to accept. Enjoy.
Crave.
After all, everything Lydia did as Ms. Tanner was a turn-on. All her words, her touches, her lascivious gazes running up and down his body — they all thrilled him.
And it thrilled him to know she was aroused looking at him.
That
was the biggest turn-on.
Before Lydia, Zach had never even thought about such a situation, about being completely nude in front of a beautiful woman who had no problem enjoying his naked displays, who reveled in satisfying her own sexual desires to see absolutely all of him, including his erection.
And then, in an instant that first day when Lydia walked into the room as he stood in his birthday suit on her scale, he had no time for conscious processing of anything. She was there. He was naked. She was looking at him.
He'd never imagined, fantasized, or even seen or read such a scenario.
Yet it instantly turned him on immensely. Maybe the fact that it was sprung upon him out of nowhere meant he hadn't had any time to erect mental barriers and protestations to a scenario he would otherwise have rejected out of hand.
I even told Lydia that's what happened
, he thought. And he'd often wondered what would have happened in some other scenario with some other woman — even a sexy, gorgeous, desirable woman. A woman wandering into the men's locker room by mistake at the gym, for instance, or him losing his trunks after a dive into a swimming pool, not realizing it until he hauled himself out of the pool in front of a Perfect Ten in a fetching bikini.
Nope. Those were nightmares, not fantasies. It was only Lydia — she was the only one driving the arousal-embarrassment cocktail that had him entranced with her, entranced by what she did to him, and entranced and horny at the idea of being naked in front of her, nude and erect, all for her personal sexual enjoyment.
Yet still Zach had doubts.
Am I some needy little wimp? Looking to get a sense of self-worth because someone else likes to look at me?
But he knew none of this was truly the case. He'd been over and over that line of questioning in his head time and again.
No — he was completely fine with what he and Lydia did as Mr. Brenner and Ms. Tanner. Their role play was just plain fun. Exciting. Sexy. And embarrassing —
really, really
embarrassing — but in some strange way, that just added to the sexiness, to the ripple of arousal that dependably set in every time he got naked for Ms. Tanner.
And now . . .
Well, now I'm going to see exactly what she sees
, he thought. It was the day after Lydia's most outrageous turn yet as Ms. Tanner, and he finally pulled up the pictures on his phone after finishing dinner that evening.
"Oh, my god!" he exclaimed, under his breath, as he began the scroll. "Holy shit!"
Picture after picture of himself filled the screen of his phone. All naked, all with erections whenever his cock was in the picture.
Lydia had done an excellent job as photographer. The mirrors probably reflected the overhead light somehow such that the lighting in the pictures was actually pretty good.
"Shit!" This time the exclamation wasn't under his breath.
Lydia had zoomed in, framing his hard dick in profile, capturing the little drop of pre-cum on the end of his cock.
It was a blatant, full-on dick pic.
What will she do with this?
Zach thought.
Lydia went to a lot of trouble to get good pictures of me naked, including this dick pic.
Then,
Does she want this picture to help her fantasize about sucking my cock?
Zach didn't know the answer, but the question was really arousing.