We met online, how very modern of us. Not on a dating site, let's just say by chance, destiny? The romantic in me would like to think so. I don't believe either of us was looking for this connection, but it was there right from the start. You told me you were married, you knew I was not. We aren't kids anymore and should be mature enough to have an online friend. Besides, we live thousands of miles apart, not exactly a day trip. So, we thought, what's the harm?
It started with a little innocent role playing, the subject doesn't matter, it was apparent we shared the same fantasies which made it feel quite real. Somewhere along the line, our role playing turned into private emails, getting to know each other, as we grew closer and more attached to one another. Our "conversations" grew more intimate and passionate. I loved making you hard as you read all the steamy things I wanted to do with you, with my mouth, with my body. You loved making me all wet telling me the same. I could close my eyes and feel your lips kissing mine, feel your lips traveling down my neck, my shoulders as your hands caressed my body, sliding up to my breasts, undressing me, finally making love with one another. Occasionally, we can chat on the phone, but time and circumstances make it easier to email or chat online. Maybe deep down you thought it was "safer".
Is it possible to fall in love with someone you've never met? Do we expose more of ourselves behind the anonymous shield of our keyboards? Or do we fool ourselves into believing there is more going on than really is, both of us caught up in the excitement of the flirting, teasing and anticipation of what might be? Or have we both been too lonely for too long and are grasping for things that might not be there? You thought I was sexy, funny and smart, I thought you were sexy, sweet and charming. I believe all the words we shared are real, at least they are for me. Seems the only way to really know is to meet in person.
But life gets in the way and circumstances being what they are have curtailed our connection and delayed our plans. Neither of us wanted to be selfish and inconsiderate so our relationship gets put on the back burner. Our love and passion for each other never ended, was only derailed, and we found ourselves once again wondering what it will be like to be together. After weighing the consequences, we decided what we had was bigger than us both and we couldn't stay away any longer.
After all the starts and stops to previous plans that didn't happen, we are finally able to come together. We decide on "neutral ground:", half way between our homes. We meet at the airport since our flights are only an hour apart. You spot me before I see you, coming down the escalator, suitcase in tow. Even though we have only exchanged pictures, you recognize me and watch as I scan the crowd below, my face lighting up when our eyes meet. We embrace when I reach the bottom, temporarily blocking the pathway as people push pass us, some smile as you plant a big kiss on my lips, others mumble "Get a room". That's exactly what we intend to do as soon as we pick up our rental car.
As we leave the airport, you are driving with one hand as the other slides up and down my thigh, needing to touch me. My hand rests on top of yours, as I need to touch you as well. We keep stealing glances at another, to reassure ourselves that we are truly together. I can't stop smiling despite the nervousness I feel in the pit of my stomach.
So here we were, finally, holding hands as we checked into the hotel, having only shared a few passionate kisses in the car on the way there. We are both a little nervous, anxious after all that has transpired the last six months. There are others in the elevator, so we don't talk as we make our way to our room. I have waited so long to be with you, apparently you have as well as you reach me for the moment you close the doors. Drawing me into your arms, you hug me tight, reaching your hands to my face you kiss me deeply and more passionately than I have ever known. My arms wrap around you pulling my body tighter against you, feeling the fire burn in my belly, breathless we break apart. Looking into each other eyes, feeling the love that has grown between us. You see the tears in my eyes.