"You're what?" Natalie stared at her boyfriend, Mike, in amazement. "You're going where?"
Mike stood with his back to her making a cup of tea in her tiny kitchen. The air was thick with tension and Natalie could feel her stomach contract with disappointment and fear.
"I'm sorry, Nat...there's nothing I can do about it."
"But...a whole month? In Scotland?"
He carried on stirring his tea and Natalie felt tears gathering behind her eyes. February. Traditionally the month for lovers and where would her lover be? In bloody Scotland!
"But you can come home at weekends, surely?"
Mike shrugged. "I doubt it. This course is pretty intensive, you know."
"But Valentine's Day! We were planning to go to Paris!"
He turned finally and put his arms around her. "We can go to Paris in March, Nat. It'll probably be cheaper then anyway. You know what it's like near Valentine's Day. Everything costs more."
She stared at him. This was their first Valentine's Day together and she'd expected so much. In the past she'd always been disappointed. At work, no bouquets had arrived and there hadn't really been any cards, unless you counted the one she always received from her mum.
Natalie turned away from him so he couldn't see the tears in her eyes. She'd been looking forward to their weekend away for so long and even though nothing had been definitely booked, she'd been preoccupied with her thoughts lately and imagining all the things they would do together.
"Look, I'll see what I can do, OK? But there's going to be a whole group of us, Nat. Everyone'll be in the same boat."
She looked at him suspiciously. "Who's going, then?"
He shrugged. "I don't know. All the new people, I suppose. It's training. We've got to do it otherwise I'll be out of a job."
Natalie knew how important this job was to Mike. When they'd first met he'd been in a job he hated and couldn't believe his luck when he found out he'd managed to secure an interview with another firm just after Christmas. It was now mid January and he was still learning about the company, a huge multi-national business that had taken him on as an Account Manager, a job that Natalie joked was just a glorified salesman.
"But why Scotland?"
He sighed. "Because that's where they do all their training. I did tell you." He took a long gulp of tea and picked up the newspaper. "Look...it's a few weeks away. We can do something special before I go, can't we?"
Natalie shrugged. It wouldn't be the same. Just for once she wanted to feel special on Valentine's Day. Nobody had ever really made a fuss of her and this was their first celebration together as a couple. They'd met last April and had quickly become inseparable, and although Mike still had his own flat, he spent most of his time at Natalie's tiny cottage.
Now, all sorts of thoughts were invading Natalie's mind. That was her problem, she realised, she had too much of a vivid imagination. Suppose he'd met someone at work and this was just a ruse to spend Valentine's Day with her? Surely any self-respecting company wouldn't expect their staff to be away for an entire month, not when it was such a special time?
Feeling angry and alone, Natalie stomped off into the living room and turned on the television. A couple relaxed by a pool in the Caribbean and Natalie sighed angrily. There seemed to be lovey-dovey couples everywhere and it would just get worse as Valentine's Day approached, most of the shops aflame with red love hearts and stupid cuddly toys. Then, of course, there would be the restaurants and hotels offering romantic dinners and breaks...And where would she be? Stuck at home on her own. It's not fair, she thought angrily. For the first time in years I have a boyfriend on Valentine's Day and where will he be? Stuck hundreds of miles away in Scotland...
*
Two weeks later, Natalie said a sleepy goodbye to Mike as he kissed her in bed. It was before dawn and he was on his way to catch a flight to Edinburgh. Despite Mike saying they would do something special before he went, nothing had happened and Natalie had to admit that things had been strained between them since he'd made his announcement. Natalie was angry but she knew how much the job meant to him; her only consolation would be that the job would mean a better future for them...if they were still together.
They'd made love last night and Mike had been even more loving and gentle than usual. At first she'd tried to resist him, but gradually as his fingers and tongue had worked their magic, she'd surrendered. He was never normally one to bring her to orgasm through oral sex, but he'd spent ages exploring her pussy with his tongue, as if he knew that by doing that she'd forgive him. As she lay panting and full of pleasure after her first delicious climax he'd entered her swiftly and given her another from his long, hard strokes that had left them trembling and gasping. Afterwards, they'd cuddled and kissed and she knew that she would miss him more than he knew.
She heard the front door slam and then silence. She buried her head under the pillow and cried her eyes out, the pent up emotions finally getting release. She could still smell him on her and on the bed sheets and knew that she wouldn't change them until he came back. He hadn't mentioned anything more about Valentine's before he went and Natalie was too proud to give him the huge card she'd already bought. He would just have to have it when he got back, late or not.
Over the next week she kept busy, her job as a hotel receptionist keeping her occupied, but at night, after she'd called Mike and they'd had a brief chat, the evenings stretched out long and empty. Once, when she felt really miserable, she went through all the photos she had of Mike and herself together, but it made things worse, seeing how they'd been happy together. They looked such a great match: he was tall and dark haired with laughing green eyes that had attracted her so much from the first. He was smiling and had his arm around her protectively, loving the fact that she was tiny and so very feminine, her long dark hair falling down her back in waves. He once said that it was her face that had captured him but now she knew that the same face hadn't smiled since he'd gone.
One night she'd tried to persuade him to have phone sex with her as her frustration and loneliness was almost too much to bear. His voice whispering in her ear as she brought herself to orgasm would have been a consolation of sorts and she'd cried down the phone as he'd gently refused. Again, she felt that horrible doubt surface in her mind. Was there someone there with him?
On the Thursday before Valentine's Day, Natalie went into work early as usual, her mind full of the day ahead. The hotel itself was holding a huge Valentine's Ball and part of her duties was to arrange the flowers and balloons. She felt like she was working on autopilot as she took delivery of the red carnations and lilies that were to be the centrepieces of the tables. Thankfully, she'd already arranged to take the Friday and the Monday off as holiday, thinking that they would be flying to Paris for the weekend. When he'd told her he was going to Scotland, she'd considered cancelling the days off, but decided that she would book a few pampering treatments at her local spa to cheer herself up.
Returning to Reception she saw the local florist's delivery man standing at the desk, a huge bouquet of red roses in his hand. "We didn't order roses," Natalie said, thinking that the delivery was for the ball. She checked her notes. "I'm expecting some more carnations, though..."
The delivery man smiled. "These aren't for the hotel, my dear. It looks like these are for you."