*Hey guys, sorry this has taken so long to put up, i had university exams then my net died at home. I have a few chapters ready though. Hope you like them. :)*
~*~ Lilliahna ~*~
"Mum? Dad? I'm home," I called out as I headed for the kitchen. No one answered and the house was quiet so I figured that no one was home. Then I found the note telling me that they had gone to Grandma's for tea and that they hopefully wouldn't be too late.
"Looks like I'm home alone," I said as I looked up from the note to see Zac looking at me with a cheeky smile on his face.
"What?" I asked him suspiciously.
"You look really cute when you're concentrating on stuff, Lilliahna," he said sexily as he came over to give me a hug.
I just shook my head, a smile spreading across my lips.
"Did you want a drink or something?" I asked him as I broke the hug and headed for the fridge.
"Yes please," he replied.
"Um, we don't have much. Coke or apple juice?"
"Juice please," he said.
"Did you want to go and grab your school books so we can do some homework too?" I asked him once he had finished his drink.
"Yeah, I'll quickly run home, I won't be long." Awesome, I thought. That would give me time to clean my room quickly. Well, at least it would give me enough time to pick my underwear up off the floor and stash it somewhere.
Zac was back before I knew it; it wasn't really that far to his house, I just thought that he wouldn't have any energy left after the basketball game. I guess I was wrong.
"Come on," I said as I headed to my bedroom.
"I always study in my room, it's pretty messy but as long as it doesn't bother you, it doesn't bother me." Zac just shrugged so I opened the door and dropped my bag on the floor.
~*~ Zac ~*~
I wasn't sure whether or not I should go in her room. I'm an only child so I've never actually been in a girls' room before. Lilli didn't seem to worry about it so I tried not to either. I went over to her bed and just looked at her.
"You are allowed to sit down," she said with a gentle laugh.
I put my bag down next to her bed and then cupped her face in my hands and kissed her. She wrapped her arms around my neck and pulled me on top of her. She was kissing me so passionately and pushing her body so hard against mine that I started to become turned on and embarrassed.
"I'm sorry baby; I'm not ready for this..." I couldn't tell her. How do you tell the most amazing girl, who probably has nothing that she isn't confident about that you are too worried you won't be good enough for her to do anything other than kiss and cuddle?
I could feel myself start to swell and harden and didn't want to be too small, not live up to her expectations. I mean, Lilli wasn't my going to be my first, but I really wanted her to be happy.
"Zac?" Lil asked me with a confused look on her face. "What's wrong?"
"I...it doesn't matter, we should get a start on our homework," I suggested, not able to look her in the eyes. She wriggled over to me and made me look at her.
"What is it Zacy? You can tell me anything," she prompted.
"It's just I'm worried I'm not gunna be good enough for you Lil, you're so amazing and I'm me, it's scary not knowing what you expect from me, what your expectations are for stuff we do together, it's silly I know," I faltered, unable to look at her anymore. She did what I expected.
"Zac, you're a silly little ducky aren't you? The only thing I expect from you is that you are going to be you. To be truly honest I haven't done anything with a guy except kiss him, I haven't even let anyone put their hands under my clothes. But you, with you I just get this feeling of fire, this itch, it's like if I don't have more of you I'll die. I haven't ever felt this feeling before but I definitely like it. Trust me, whatever happens, I will definitely not be disappointed. Okay?" She asked, kissing my cheek.
I nodded and gently kissed her forehead. She closed her eyes and sighed quietly. I totally believed her and all my fears disappeared.
"How about we get something to eat?" Lil suggested after an hour of homework. "I don't know what we have to eat though."
After looking through all her cupboards she suggested toasted cheese sandwiches and chocolate thick shakes.
"It's not as good as what our date would have been," Lil said laughing.
"Your right, it's better," I said hugging her from behind as she made the sandwiches.