January 2
~4:17 AM~
Blue didn't know what to say.
Well, that wasn't exactly true. She knew what she
wanted
to say, but leaping into John's arms and yelling out a heartfelt 'YES PLEASE!' would probably put her on John's Borderline Crazy, Run From This Woman As Fast As You Can list- (every man had a list like that, didn't they?)- and she really,
really
wanted him to stick around and follow up on what he had just said to her.
"I want you to come for me."
He'd said it in that slow, low, southern-tickled drawl of his, making Blue's breath stop somewhere between her lungs and her throat. And now he was watching her, his eyes narrowed as he read her expression... probably even reading her
mind
, oh lord... and his mouth formed such a sensuous smile that her tongue stuck to the roof of her mouth and she wouldn't have been able to form any words that made sense anyhow.
"You're blushing." He seemed so pleased by it that she didn't mind him seeing that tell-tale reaction. She minded it even less when he placed his palm on her chest, just below her neck. "Even here. It's sexy."
Blue swallowed, and his fingers traced her throat where they had felt the movement. Placing both hands curved around her neck, his fingers pushed into her hair at the back of her head and began rubbing in small, comforting circles.
"What..." Blue had to clear her throat against the rasp and begin again. "What do you want me to do?" she repeated her question from a few moments ago.
John leaned in and pressed his lips to the top of her head. "I just need you to relax, let me take care of you, and..." A puff of breath stirred her hair. "Talk to me a little." She felt his cheek rub down the side of her head, smoothing against her hair.
"Talk to you... about what?"
"Hmm." It was more of a vibration than anything, and Blue moved her head forward the fraction of an inch that it took to lay her forehead against his chest, wanting to feel the sound. "About yourself, baby. About yourself." The words rumbled quietly. When he tucked her hair behind her ear so he could brush his lips over the exposed shell, she shivered. "Tell me, Blue..." The whisper brought goosebumps. "Do you masturbate?"
Surprise stiffened her body. But what was even more surprising was how she answered him so readily. Breathlessly, yes. But honestly.
"Yes, I do." Blue nodded for good measure. All the same, she was glad her face was hidden against his chest. She snugged a little deeper, burrowing between the open edges of his flannel shirt to the worn-soft cotton of the tee underneath. Taking a deep breath in, she was instantly heady with the warm, unique smell of the man who was wearing the shirt so well.
John's breath rushed past her ear. "Good." he whispered. "When?" His fingers slid into her hair and pulled. Gently, but firmly enough to tilt her head back, giving him access to her neck. "What is your favorite time of day to do it, Blue? Morning?" Firm lips softened and brushed along her jaw. "Do you like to pleasure yourself in the middle of the day?" He paused his questioning to trail his tongue down her neck. "Or at night, maybe? When you're all warm in bed, just before you go to sleep?"
Blue gasped, as much from the eroticism in John's voice as the feel of his teeth nipping at the tendon at the side of her neck. "At night, mostly. Sometimes... sometimes in the evening... at sunset. I don't know... I just..."
"There's something about that time of day, when the sun is going down."
"Yes. But at night too. Usually."
"Lights on? Or off? Laying on the bed? Do you slide down under the covers?" He was back at her ear, his words humming through her.
"Um... lights off, usually. Under the blankets. I don't know, it makes me feel..." She was at a loss for words, and bumped her forehead to his chest, her olfactory senses needing another hit of musk and leather and John. "I guess, it makes me feel... hugged?" Blue laughed a little, resisting the urge to make fun of herself before he did.
He didn't poke fun at all, and the tension left her shoulders.
"While I'm gone-" A kiss to her shoulder, and then he was leaning away, watching his hands bring the long, heavy length of her hair around to the front to lay over her breasts. "I'm going to think about you. Your hair down. Lying in your bed at night. Touching yourself. Making yourself come." His eyes met hers as he took a step back.
Missing the warmth of his body, Blue looked down and realized she was still holding the ties of her open robe, her fingers trapping the length of fabric in a death grip. While she watched, his hands closed over hers and eased her fingers loose. The robe was already hanging off her shoulders, but he smoothed his hands down her arms, taking the robe down a little farther, to her elbows. Lower, more revealing, but not off.
His eyes quietly intense, he drank her in. Blue would have wished she had chosen to wear something sexy... if she even had something sexy, which she was sure she did not... but the appreciation in John's expression banished that bud of insecurity before it had time to bloom.
He licked his lips, a gesture that made her thighs tingle. He was focused on her breasts. She knew he could see clearly how her nipples had tightened, obvious through the snug, thin material of the white ribbed tank top she wore. He wet his lips again, and her nipples hardened even more in response. He shook his head and smiled, and she wondered what he was thinking, but then his eyes drifted down.
When his eyes stopped in the vicinity of her hips, he cocked his head. Blue read his mind.
"Boy shorts." she answered the unspoken question. She palmed the soft, stretchy cotton hugging her hips and thighs, her fingers fluttering over the leg-line. They're called 'boy shorts'." She shrugged. "They're comfortable. I like to wear them to sleep in." she explained further, needlessly, almost defensively.
"Is this what you usually wear to bed?" His eyes held a smile when Blue nodded. His hands covered hers where they lay over the front of her hips. John's fingers took over the territory where the hemline curved over her thighs. "I like it. It's sexy on you." he breathed, looking down at her through his lashes. "I'll remember this too, how you look right now."