I HATE working late. As I near our quiet street, I'm in a terrible mood. My mind is over-tired, the problems still swirling inside. They won't go away. There is a horrible taste in my mouth. Too much caffeine, too much coffee, too many vending machine snacks. The traffic from the game getting out made me even later than usual and my knuckles white, clutching the steering wheel.
Thanks god I don't smoke, that would only make it worse now. I used to, but you asked me to stop the first day I met you, the first night I had you. I have never touched tobacco again. Giving it up was hard at first, of course. But easy compared to the thought of losing you, even displeasing you. That is the unthinkable. Now I can't even stand to be around it, the smell vile and repulsive to me.
As I turn into our street, I relax a bit, seeing our house is dark, not even an outside light. As I knew it would be. It's only a little after nine, on a normal night you would still be up and so would I. But never when I call to tell you I have to work late.
I turn into to the drive very slowly, letting the car almost coast to a stop. I shut my eyes, putting my head to the wheel for a moment. When I lift it again, my head is clear. I LOVE working late!
I open the door slowly and carefully, setting each foot softly on the drive. After pushing the door slowly shut, so it latches with barely a click, I walk to the house in the grass next to the walk, avoiding the grating sound of the cement. Each foot is placed carefully on the steps, and I pause between each movement. I ease the screen open and find the front door ajar, as I knew it would be. Once inside I leave it unlatched.
I pull my shoes off and leave them in the hall, feeling the deep carpet under my feet. It mutes my footsteps as I pad into the downstairs bath, where I close the door silently, then quietly turn on the water, just enough so I can wash the day off my face. And I swirl the sweet rinse in my mouth, ridding it of the nasty tastes and smells. I slowly undo my tie, unbutton my shirt and take it off, hanging it on the hook behind the door. My T-shirt follows. Then my pants and socks. I leave only my briefs on, straightening them and adjusting myself inside them.
Gently I ease out the door and over to the stairs, slowly and carefully ascending. I can see the yellow glow, which I know emanates from the open door of our room. It is steady now, nothing but your breath disturbing the air. But I know that soon it will flicker, making gentle patterns on the wall. I ease my way through the door frame, seeing the candle, as always, in the far corner, its direct light shielded from the bed. The entire room is illuminated by the softest glow, getting slightly brighter as my eyes adjust.
There is a faint but unbearably delicious, sweet smell in the room. It could be fruit, or spices. But I know. It is you. You started hours ago, after I called, slipping into a deep warm bath into which you mixed some magical potion which gradually imparted it's scent to you as you steeped in the heat and wetness. Perhaps you played with yourself a bit, thinking of me. I hope so. Stroking your breasts, pulling gently on your nipples, trailing your fingers gently along your inner thighs. As I know you hoped I would do soon. Perhaps you even slipped a finger inside yourself, probing gently. But I know you went no further, saving the delicious ending for our mutual pleasure.
I move to the foot of the bed. The covers are turned down. You are on display for me. As I knew you would be. Your eyes are closed, and you don't move. Perhaps you are asleep. Perhaps not. Most likely, I will never know. My eyes drink greedily, starting at your toes and traveling, oh, so very slowly, up your legs and over your body. I know you are wearing thin, soft, filmy bikini panties, but they are almost invisible. The soft curves of your hips and thighs make me shudder as my eyes creep across them.
I devour your breasts, the dark nipples soft and flattened now, but round and beautiful. Even on your back, your breasts are round, firm and full. My breath is catching, and I almost gasp aloud. You have displayed your long chestnut hair on the pillow for me. As I knew it would be. A giant swirl around your head.
Slowly and quietly, I move to the side of the bed, still staring. You are even more beautiful to my eyes from this vantage, and I am not inclined to break my gaze. But I can feel the relentless swelling in my briefs. My breathing is much deeper now, almost ragged. The candle has started to flicker gently.