I drove James back to my dorm room, and we talked idly; I nearly wrecked more than once because I couldn't keep my eyes off of him. He was a dream incarnate, sitting next to me making funny, caustic remarks about this town I was only now beginning to think of as home. "This reminds me a lot of Germany."
I glanced over at him, grateful for an excuse to do so. "Germany?"
"Yeah.. I went to high school overseas.. And for some reason, this place reminds me of Germany. Without the nazis."
I quirked an eyebrow. "Of course."
Walking him to my dorm room felt like a religious experience. It was late fall, and the wind blew golden leaves gently across the long cobblestone walkway. Fall was beautiful, especially late October, and the picturesque, small campus of my college looked every bit like the postcards they sold in the student bookstore. Ever since the phone call where he talked me through my first night on campus, every time I had walked the cobblestone path to my dorm, I'd imagined I was walking with him through those postcards, showing him where I lived.. Showing him my home. And I was finally doing it.
When we got to my dorm room, the first thing he had to do was unpack.. And the first thing my friend and next-door neighbor, Kristina, had to do was come and check him out. The first moment that James had his back to us, Kris shot me a look and mouthed the words, "I hate you." I giggled, and James turned around.
"Something humorous, young lady?"
"Oh, not at all." Kris and I began giggling again.
He eyed the two of us suspiciously. "You weren't laughing at my ass, were you? Because I happen to think I have a very nice ass." James was not the type to make such an assertion unless he had good grounds for it. It definitely made the top ten in asses that I'd seen.
My friend Kris stopped giggling for a moment. "Oh, not at all."
"Good. Because I have no shame." He paused in unpacking. "Here." He held up a pair of olive-green silk boxers a few inches from Kris' nose. "See? This is my underwear. I don't even remember your name, and I'm showing you my underwear. Dignity? What's that?"
Kris laughed, and looked at me. "I think I'll leave you two alone now.." I nodded, and the two of us wished her goodbye. The door closed, and I was alone with James. Wow.
After he finished unpacking, he hugged me most unexpectedly. "Thank you so much for making me come visit you.. It's exactly what I needed." There was that melting feeling again, like the two of us were blending into each other, like some artist was sketching all of this and had taken the eraser and gotten rid of the lines that separated the two of us. Pure perfection.
"Oh, it was nothing.. Thank you for coming to visit me."
He pulled back slightly, and plopped dramatically on to my bed. "Christ, I'm tired.. a day of flying, then 14 hours on a bus. When's breakfast? I'm starved."
"Well, it's a weekend.. So we have brunch at 11:30."
"Oh, god, that's three hours from now." He sighed, mumbling incoherently, and then laid so that his feet were propped up on my pillows and his head rested on the foot of my bed. "I think I'm going to take a nap... Come join me. There's plenty of room if you sleep normally."
I reluctantly joined him. "All right.." I handed him a pillow, and laid down, one hand resting gently on his kneecap. It felt like my entire consciousness was poured into the palm of my hand, and rested there on his kneecap, feeling his skin, touching him.
After a few moments, when we were both nearly asleep, he encircled his arm around my calf and began rubbing my leg gently. "Moira?" His voice was distant, as if he was talking in his sleep.
"Yes?" It came out half-yawn as I began to drift off.
"You really are beautiful." I smiled, and that's the last I remembered.
At brunch, he entertained my friends quite well with his charm and caustic wit; after, my friend Kris asked us if we'd like to go roller-skating with her, of all things. James grinned. "That sounds like fun! Definitely. C'mon, Moira.."
I looked at James carefully, and shot Kris a look. This whole idea irked me slightly; I wanted James to myself. Call me selfish, but.. And besides, there was another problem. I blushed lightly. "I don't think so. James can go if he likes, but.. Well, I've never been on a pair of roller skates in my life."
"Come on! I'll teach you how to roller skate. Just come with us.." James took my hand in an attempt to lead me out the door.
"I don't know.." I really did not like the idea of one of James' first impressions of me being me falling flat on my ass for a couple hours.
He brought the hand he'd been holding to his lips, and kissed it with the utmost reverence. It sent a shock of electricity from my hand up my arm, and right behind my eyes, causing my vision to swim. "Please?"
I heard myself answer. "All right."
Amazingly, the few hours spent at the roller-skating rink went relatively without incident; I only fell once, and James was right there to help me up. It basically entailed two hours of him forcefully keeping his grip on my hand, making sure I wouldn't fall. I wasn't complaining.
We caught an early dinner, and by 6 o'clock, he was crashed on my bed. I never knew he was a sprawler; he had, however, warned me that he snored when he was dead tired. I couldn't have slept if I wanted to, not with that racket.
I slipped out of the room, turning off the lights, and went down the hall to take a shower in the community bathroom-most of the people in my school wish they had their own personal bathroom, but not me. I've never been a bath person, and the shower stalls were nice and big, plus the water pressure was incredible. I slipped out of my clothes, and turned the water on so hot it nearly cooked my skin-the kind of hot where the moment it hits your skin, the water knocks the wind out of you. My kind of shower.
I found myself getting extremely turned on as I soaped my skin, and my scrubs turned into caresses. I could scarcely believe that the guy I had loved and lusted after for 7 months was lying, asleep and snoring, on my bed. I shaved my legs carefully, trimmed my pussy hair (I'd given up shaving it bare after reading it was bad for vaginal health), and washed my hair. I slipped into a short satin nightgown with a matching robe, and went back to my room.
James was still asleep.
I found this quite disappointing; this was the nicest nightgown I owned, the only one I had that was anywhere CLOSE to sexy, and he was still sprawled on my bed, snoring. I couldn't even join him, he'd sprawled so much. I carefully extracted a pillow from below his feet and sunk to the floor, leaning against the wall. I chuckled. What was it they said about the best laid plans?
So, as corny as it may sound, I sat on the floor, looking up at this snoring, sprawling young man who had positioned himself in a way that was far more humorous than sexy... And for what seemed like only a few minutes, I was captivated by watching him sleep-but soon, those few minutes turned into a few hours, and the room was so dark I could barely discern his form.