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This is a romance. Thereâs some sexual content, but not a lot of sex here. If thatâs what youâre looking for you may choose to pass on by. All characters are over 18, except Brie who does not have sex in this story.
The story will be released in four chapters, but all are written so you wonât need to wait a long time. You are free to read in any order you wish, but reading the chapters in sequence will make much more sense as you try to follow Dougâs journey.
I hope you enjoy it. Please rate and/or provide feedback as you feel led.
ŠBarryJames1952 - August 2019
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The praise team party was incredible and Doug felt on top of the world. Doug started the new week with great hopes. He was happyâDani seemed to be happy when they were togetherâBrie was happy. Until recently, this had been a tough stretch of life for Doug. He thought things were finally going in the right direction
Monday and Tuesday were highly productive and positive. Wednesday, though, something seemed different.
Doug awoke with a shudder of fear. He had no idea why and tried to dismiss it. His walk in the morning seemed subdued, but he thought he may just be a bit off that day. But even Brie seemed less frisky. She knew something was wrong. Brie always knew.
When Doug arrived at work, he learned the truth. There were a lot of sad, tearful eyes. Cindi ran to him and embraced him.
âCindi, whatâs wrong?â
She sobbed almost uncontrollably.
âItâs... itâs Tammy. Sheâs...she died!â
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Brie Knows -- Chapter 3
Tammy was dead. Cindiâs words hit Doug like a ton of bricks. His fears came to pass for that lost womanâthat intelligent, beautiful, and lost woman. He pulled Cindi into his office and they both fell to their knees and sat on the floor to comfort each other. John walked in with tears in his eyes and sat in a visitorâs chair.
âJohn, do we know what happened?â Doug asked.
John choked out a response. âThey found her in her car, overdosed on sleeping pills. She took her own life.â
That tore at Dougâs heart. His thoughts ran amuck. â
Why wouldnât she listen, take our offer for help? How did I fail her? I fired her. Did that drive her over the edge?
â He was wracked with guilt.
John continued. âI know the two of you are the closest to this. Go home. Do what you need to do to get past this. Take whatever time you need. And, DougâI know you. Donât you dare think what we had to do had anything to do with this outcome! You did the right thing. We did the right thing. She wasâbeyond our help it seems.â
Doug gave John a solid âBro-hugâ before leaving.
Doug was worried about Cindi driving, so he took her home then drove to his place almost in a trance. When he opened the door, Brie sensed his mood. Brie knew. He collapsed on the couch and she simply jumped up and snuggled him. No out-of-control wags or frisky barking. Just snuggle.
Doug sat almost in a state of shock for several hours dwelling on a life that could have had so much promise but was thrown away like rubbish. He truly liked Tammy and would have done anything for her. But her life experiences and upbringing were like a foreign language to him. He felt like he couldnât fix what he didnât understand.
Feeling helpless in a life-and-death situation ate at his gut. He found himself wishing Dani could be here with him, but they werenât at a place in their relationship where he felt it would be appropriate.
Doug took Brie back to the park where he often found peace and where Brie always seemed to find a way to cheer him up. She did her best and the beautiful nature around him also tried to brighten his mood, but it only worked a little. Doug nearly broke every time he thought of how he let Tammy go. Did that drive her over the edge? He knew this wasnât his fault. John was right. He still hated the possibility that he may have been part of the reason she took her own life.
Doug stopped at the church and talked with Pastor Mike. He helped Doug a great deal and they prayed together. The pastor questioned if Doug was up to running rehearsal that night, and Doug assured him he was. In his mind, he only hoped he was.
Doug didnât talk about Tammy to anyone before the rehearsal. He didnât think he could hold himself together if he mentioned it. So the rehearsal was subdued, for sure. It was even more solemn than the day two weeks ago when Doug fired Tammy.
Just as had happened two weeks ago, after everyone left, Dani was there.
âDoug, tell me. Spill.â
âSpillâ wasnât quite the right word. He gushed tears and Dani simply held him. He finally managed two broken words.
âTammy... died.â
Dani held him tighter and he regained enough to control to share some details.
âMy God, Doug. That poor girl. You donât feel responsible, do you?â
âNo, not really. Itâs justâsuch a waste of a life that should have been spectacular. Watching someone you consider a friend struggle to find a shred of happiness before ending her lifeâit feels so hopeless, and I felt so helpless.â
Doug had a sudden realization hit him hard. âOh, no. This is so selfish of me. Angie told me you lost your husband not too long ago and Iâm being shamefully insensitive.â
âDonât think that way, Doug. Iâm doing okay, and itâs two different situations.â
âTrue, but it pains me you had to go through that kind of loss.â Doug turned and straddled the piano bench to face Dani as she did the same.
She went on to share how she and her husband met in college, fell in love, and were married a year after graduation. They had just celebrated their tenth anniversary when a teenage girl who was texting while driving ran a red light and t-boned his Toyota. Both drivers died on impact. So, at thirty-two years of age, she was a widow. Doug held her hands as they both teared up while she relayed the story. His heart hurt for what she had to go through.
âDani, you seem to be the glue holding me together these days. Youâve become an important friend in only a few weeks and I wish I knew you earlier to help you the way youâve helped me.â
âIâll never forget him, of course. But Iâm secure in where he is now and Iâm moving forward. And youâre helping me now, and thatâs what friends do, right? Help each other?â
âI feel like the âtakerâ in this friendship so far.â
âNo. Just having you as my friend in my new home area has been a huge help for me.â
âThanks, Dani. I think Iâm good now have a better handle on myself, but would you do me one big favor?â
âSure.â
âGive me a Dani hugâtheyâre something special!â
She smiled and embraced him as they comforted each other. Doug felt his cares begin to melt away.
âI needed that too, Doug. Iâm guessing tonight may not be the best time to practice a comedy skit? â
âYeah, youâre probably right. We can run through it after church again.â
Sharing strong emotions from grief brought them closer together. Doug felt the strong pull towards Dani and wanted to ask her out even more, but the day a friend died wasnât the time to pursue it. He was grateful for what Dani had become to him to this point. The promise for more later felt within his grasp.
Doug called Dani the following day to thank her once again for being there for him. They shared an upbeat conversation for about 45 minutes when he asked her for a favor.
âDani, can I lean on your friendship one more time regarding Tammy?â
âSure. What do you need?â
âWould you mind going to her service with me on Saturday. I could use your strong shoulder by my side.â
âIâd be honored to go with you. Oh, also, did Lisa call you about Sunday?â