Becky My Hill Country Redhead #7
Love lost, rediscovering Becky 15 years later.
Author's Note:
This is a story about meeting the lost love of my life fifteen-years later. This is the first part of the two part conclusion of "Becky My Hill Country Redhead."
In order to fully understand the background of the story, it is advisable to read the original series, chapters 1 to 6, first. For those into romance stories, you won't be disappointed reading this series. I longed over Becky for fifteen years until I finally happened to see her again.
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Becky My Hill Country Redhead #7
Part 1: Bumping into Becky again
A good friend once taught me a few Yiddish phrases that could probably be uttered in my situation. Naturally, everyone knows 'Oy vey,' but the most profound statement was 'Gornist helfin,' which roughly means 'Nothing will help you unless a great power intervenes on your behalf,' for which I was hoping.
It was the summer of 1989 and I was about to make the biggest mistake of my life. I left the woman that I loved in Clifton, Texas to take a better and higher paying job. I moved 100 miles west of Austin, Texas. I invited Becky to come live with me, but she didn't want to leave her family and her friends. Having never lived in a big city, living in the small town of Clifton was all that she knew.
Besides, with her working in a job earning minimum wage, I didn't have the money to help move her, and she didn't have the money to move herself either. We were stuck to continue living a life of poverty unless I did something about my dismal future. Even though I loved her, I couldn't allow her to hold me back. I had to go west where the money was.
I had to leave. I had to leave her. I had no choice. A heartbreaking decision, I had to let her go. I needed to move on with my life without looking back at the past.
Ten years earlier, too focused on my future work career, after leaving my beloved Becky behind to fend for herself in Clifton, my dating and sexlife came to a screeching halt. Something that I missed having, I had unbelievable sex with Becky. I sacrificed her when I landed a much better job. The best thing that I could have done for myself, that one career move paved the way for the rest of my professional life.
Leaving Becky, the woman that I loved for my job and for the continued growth and success of my career, was a real sacrifice. An easy, sensible, and intelligent decision to make, it wasn't much of a choice. Only, giving up on the love of my life was painful. Yet, either I continue living in poverty with Becky, or I take the much needed steps to improve the quality of my life. I could always meet another woman but a job like this happens only once in a lifetime.
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When I moved from Austin, Texas to Fort Worth, Texas for my dream job, removing Becky from my mind, not an easy thing to do, I focused on my career. That was easier to do without having Becky teasing me and daring me to seduce her. Too busy at work, not having much free time, I gave up dating.
With me working 10-12 hour days, I became something of a hermit. Besides, I didn't want any woman other than my beloved Becky. Besides, with every other woman not measuring up to her in comparison, no one could replace what I had with her. We had a one-of-a-kind and once in lifetime love affair.
Seeing my loneliness, my best friend set me up on a blind date and with a woman that he thought I would like. Since then, he apologized because he realized that the woman that he arranged for me to meet was a huge mistake. Unable to blame him, he really didn't know that much about her to set me up with her. Her name was Judy, and, physically and emotionally, she was the exact opposite of what I wanted, needed, or desired to have in a woman.
A plain woman, she was tall, about 5' 10" tall. She was a large woman with a full size figure. With her having brown hair and brown eyes, she was far from being pretty and shapely. She wasn't ugly but, when comparing her to Becky, she didn't even come close to measuring up to her. Except for her height, nothing memorable and easy to forget, she was one of millions of ordinary looking women who looked like her.
The one thing that I liked about her was that she was a good cook, which would explain her large size, only, that was the extent of her charm and her hidden talent. Although both of us worked in downtown Fort Worth, I went out to lunch with my co-workers. Unfortunately, as it turned out, something that I didn't see right away and slowly discovered, she was a female Jekyll and Hyde.
In public, she was overly friendly, polite, nice, and kind. Yet, should any woman show me her attention, giving the woman a threatening look, she was possessively jealous of me. She once told me that the reason why she didn't have to worry about being alone is because she looked like a fat bitch with an attitude.
In public, she'd fawn all over me like she would a puppy in public. She'd smile at me and compliment me. Yet, in private, turning into a jungle cat, her claws and sharp tongue came out. When alone with her, with not caring if she hurt my feelings, and with her not having anything good to say about me, she became the mean and nasty bitch that she is.
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Unfortunately, with me allowing it to happen, too busy to notice, she gradually moved more of her stuff into my apartment. She literally had moved in with me without us discussing it and without my consent. Yet, with me working long hours, I wasn't home very much.
Too tired to complain or care, I allowed her to take over my apartment and me. I just wanted to have something to eat before taking a shower and going to bed. Then, up early, making coffee and my own breakfast, not even turning on any lights, I was already gone for work while she was still sleeping.
Besides, I was lonely. I was sad. I was depressed. After missing Becky, I was desperate for attention and sex which she willingly provided any time that I wanted. At first we fucked every night but then it sharply tapered off to once a week. She always complained that she was too tired or had a backache.
Then, Judy rarely gave me a blowjob. She wouldn't even stroke my cock unless I practically begged her to do that. She would only give me sex when she wanted sex, and not when I wanted to have it. In that regard, not wanting to have sex with her, I was happy with our nonexistent relationship.
Besides, I never liked kissing her in the way that I loved kissing Becky. Kissing her just wasn't the same. Judy didn't race my pulse and harden my cock in the way that the love of my life did.
Moreover, in comparison, Judy had grossly huge, soft, and saggy breasts, probably a triple D cup equal to an F cup. Where Becky had shapely breasts that were a perky and firm C or even a D cup that perfectly filled my hands, Judy had flabby handfuls. Suffice to say, I missed her huge, firm, and shapely breasts with her big, erect nipples. To be honest, going from the best to the worst, having sex with Judy was the worst sex that I ever had.
Missing her every day, little did I know how wrong I was for leaving Becky behind. I didn't seem to have any other options for finding another woman in the limited amount of time I had for dating when not working. With Judy my only woman, I thought about proposing a marriage of convenience.
Yet, reluctant to put a ring on her finger, I didn't love her. She was more of a roommate or my mother instead of my lover. Glad that I hadn't done that, marrying Judy would have been a huge mistake and something that I would have regretted.
Then, one evening, when she wasn't home and out with her friends, I began reminiscing about the women I had known and dated over the years. I thought about the only woman that I ever loved. There weren't that many women in my life but one woman in particular stood out in my mind. That's when I started thinking about and masturbating over Becky, the love of my life.
I had resigned myself to the possibility of never seeing her again because we both had moved on with our lives many years ago. Yet, I wondered where she was, no doubt, still in Clifton. I wondered what she was doing, working, going out dancing with Shirley, even though Shirley didn't dance, and having fun.
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Then, one day, while at lunch with the guys from the office, I noticed a particularly striking, redheaded woman professionally dressed seated at a booth on the other side of the restaurant. Even though she was too far away for me to get a good look at her, no doubt, because of her beautiful red hair and the side view of her big breasts through her dress, she reminded me of Becky. Yet, I've always been attracted to redheads, especially natural redheads, and especially redheaded women with big breasts. Whoever this woman was, she filled my sexual attraction needs.
As usual, I went out with the guys from work to one of our favorite places for lunch. With her back turned to me, still not getting a good look at her face, I didn't recall ever seeing this woman here before. Yet, racing my pulse and hardening my cock, there was something eerily similar about her as much as there was something different about her. We happened to look up from our meals at the same time and, when she looked at me, our eyes locked.
'If Becky had a twin, this would be her,' I thought.
Then, lighting me up inside, she gave me a big, beautiful smile. Whoever this woman was, she was a better version of the love of my life. Indeed, new, and improved, she was Becky version 2.0.
Her hair was professionally coiffed whereas Becky cut her own hair. She wore an expensive dress with matching high heels and a handbag. Becky never wore a dress and didn't own a pair of high heels, forget about a matching handbag. Then, after she smiled at me and when I saw her smiling at her friends, she had perfect, white teeth. Becky had bad teeth. Wishing that she was my ex-girlfriend reincarnated, she wasn't.
Yet, with her having the same mannerisms, and that same beautiful laugh, there was something about her that made me continue to stare at her. She looked familiar. She looked a little bit like Becky.
Yet, again, she never wore her hair like that. She wore very little makeup. I've only seen her in cutoff jeans and a low-cut blouse. I've never seen her in a nice dress with high heels. Yet, no doubt, because of her red hair and her big breasts, the woman reminded me of and made me think of Becky. I'll be masturbating over having sex with this beautiful woman tonight and again, tomorrow morning.
Then, she turned and saw me staring at her, she smiled at me. She had a big, beautiful smile that warmed my heart and throbbed my cock. Yet, unlike my beloved, she had bright, white, and perfect teeth. Again, Becky had bad teeth because of a calcium deficiency when she was little.
Still, nevertheless, there was something shockingly familiar about her. She made me feel empty and longing with deep desire within my core. Even though she looked so familiar, having never seen a woman as beautiful as she was before, I still couldn't place her. Giving one another a longing look, we stared at each other a little too long before returning our attention back to our lunches and to our luncheon friends.
'Did she recognize me? Does she know me,' I thought? 'Is this Becky?'