Becoming a dancer was a gradual thing for me. It started with serving drinks, I wanted to make more and then decided to move on to dancing so I could start making real money, like the other girls did. Dancing on a stage the first time was a little rattling, but what was really jarring was the feeling of the first time you have to dance for someone privately; to fake intimacy. The dancing itself isn't so bad, and really a good lap dance isn't all that hard to learn. The motions need to be soft, and smooth, you need to be quietly vocal, you don't even have to be good in the beginning as long as you look good and move slowly. It's the eye contact that's difficult, but necessary.
This story begins after one of my first lap dances. It was four years ago but I can still remember it like it was yesterday, right down to the horrid little yellow polo shirt the guy was wearing. Back then I was just starting and I spotted this young guy over towards the back. At first glance, he looked alright, just regular-maybe in his 20's, with sandy blonde hair that was neatly trimmed-a very clean cut college look.
"Hey," I approached him, "are you here all by yourself?"
He looked up at me and smiled, "Nah, I'm here with some of my brothers."
"You go to strip clubs with your family?" I said incredulously.
He laughed at that, "No they're my fraternity brothers. Dalton Reed of Omega Kappa Phi, miss...what's your name?"
I thought it was very charming that he said "miss", at the time. We were about the same age but it showed respect to ask that way.
"It's Starr. You can call me 'Starr'."
He gave me a really awkward smile, perhaps at how obviously untrue the name was. He looked me up and down and said; "You're kind of new at this aren't you?"
I was, but I didn't know what that look, or that smile, meant. "Oh, kind of new," I said, then thinking on my feet about not wanting to lose out on a private dance for a seemingly regular guy I lied; "but I've been dancing like, regular dancing, for a long time. Just not stripping."
He looked at me hard and then said, "turn around for me". It felt awkward, but I did it nevertheless. By the time I had made the full turn and looked back at his face, I noticed he was looking at my feet the whole time. Then he looked back up at my face with a big grin, maybe I did good? He leaned back in the over-plush, grey and purple seats and smiled again, saying "So are you going to ask me if I want a private dance?"
Oh, my job; "Yeah of course. Would you like a private dance?". It was never this quick before, normally I had to talk to the guys a bit longer, but he seemed like he knew what he was doing.
He winked and, I'll never forget this either, said; "Don't worry, I'll make a proper stripper out of you tonight." It was weird, it felt weird.
Just the same, I smiled and told him; "Alright, follow me."
We went to the back, he handed me $40 for two songs, and I seated him in one of the booths. Remember how I said you don't really need to be "good" at dancing to give a decent lap dance? This is how I know, because at the time my dancing was only "fair", but I was able to do a decent job just the same. Dalton was leering, paying more attention to my breasts than any movements I was doing. I paid attention to that and touched myself, my nipples, for his viewing pleasure. When I did this he looked up and the lust in his eyes became something else, something wild. The second song was coming to an end, 'this is getting easier' I thought 'that wasn't bad at all. I can't believe I earned $40 for it.'
As I started to get up, he grabbed my hand, roughly, "Hey" he said, "I want another dance. Right now."
I had no idea how that worked, adding a dance. Was I supposed to stop, have him give me the money now, or wait until the end? No one had told me about this before. As the possibilities ran through my head he pulled my hand, and my body down with it, onto his lap. "You're supposed to dance now," he started "and keep a tally in your head of how many I've racked up. I pay you out at the end."