Part 5
Father's, Studs and Bitches.
~ Rachel ~
Lily didn't have to tell her that what she had done was wrong. She knew deep down that she made a mistake the second she saw him leaving. She was shocked he was truly alive and had showed up just in time to save her again. Whenever she needed him he was always there. Like the seven years had never happened.
She asked Matt to stay and make sure the kids were safe. She knew what she had to do now. She had to make this right somehow. She considered first to catch a cab but thought better of it. She wanted to walk. To think of what she would say to him. What she wanted more then anything. More then all the words in the world. She wanted him to hold her like he used to.
The house was just as she remembered it from when she was here the day before. The old truck was parked in the driveway. He must not be worried about these people, whoever they were, finding him she thought.
When she walked in the house the first thing she saw was the dress and panties sitting on the living room floor lying atop a pair of open toed sandles. She bit her lip nervously and looked up at the sound of the running water.
She crept up the stairs and froze in the doorway of the bathroom. She could hear the water running down their bodies. Hear the screams of pleasure from the blonde who couldn't have been a day over nineteen. Their bodies were intertwined and he was hammering into her for everything he was worth.
"...No..."
She whispered in agony and put her hands over her mouth. She couldn't stop the tears that threatened her ears. She had only known him for a few weeks before she thought he died but she loved him more deeply then she had ever loved anyone. Even now, seven years later, to see him in the shower with this girl caused her heart to shatter.
She saw the girl smile when she saw her and took it for exactly what it was. She was rubbing it in that she had won. That she had him now.
When she heard the growl she turned and fled. She couldn't watch while him gave another woman his seed. That should be her. She should be in that shower against that wall. He was hers, they belonged together. She was the only thing that kept him alive during surgery. It wasn't fair!
She wanted to run away. To run back to the motel and do all the things with Matt that she had hidden until last night. Do them all and let Jacob watch but when she reached the foot of the stairs she stopped. She looked up at the bathroom and sighed. Instead she went to the middle of the room and picked up the clothing. She walked back up the stairs to hear her talking to him about some nonsense about painting. Strange topic for post coital shower.
She laid the dress, underwear and shoes down on the floor and called.
"I need to see Jacob alone."
The pair froze and she turned and marched down the stairs. It wasn't long before she came down the stairs. Dressed again in the black sundress and sandles. Her hair was wet and hanging down in little curls over her young beautiful face.
"He'll be down in a moment." The girl said with a warm smile.
"It wasn't necessary you know." She said crossing her arms over her chest. "You didn't need to egg him on because you knew I was there."
"I don't have any idea what your talking about lady." The girl scoffed. "He's always like that with me."
The word Always came like a knife in her stomach. She watched the girl leave the house and looked up at the ceiling. Fine, if he wasn't coming down she'd go up. She stomped back up the stairs and paused in the bathroom door. He was wearing a pair of jeans and his boots again but was shirtless. She noticed first the multiple stab wounds in his back from Ryan Haley and bit her lip.
A tattoo covered his shoulder blades now. A tribal design that when she looked closer made her breath catch in her throat. On the left side of the design were the initials LAP, Lily Ann Peirson. In the center of the design were the initials RMP, Rachel May Peirson and on the far right the initials JTL, Jake Teddy Lawrence.
The buzz of a power razor rang out as he shaved the beard from his face and his hair was pulled back and twisted into a bun. If she knew him, with his cover no longer needed it'd be the next thing to go. You are never no longer a marine and he would wear his hair as such.
"You wanted to talk?" He asked looking into the mirror at her. "So talk."
"I'm sorry I slapped you Jake." She whispered.
"Don't be." He scoffed. "I was a fucking prick leaving like I did. My choice or otherwise, why should you not act like a cunt?"
"Jacob Lawrence!" She screamed and then shook her head. "Breathe Jake. Please."
She watched in the mirror as the small smile crept to his lips when she said that. Watched him take that deep calming breath and then looked up again at her.
"I don't blame you for being angry Rachel." He whispered. "They didn't leave me a choice staying undercover all this time but I could have found a way to tell you. So you could tell Teddy about me. So you'd know I was alive."
"Who did I say goodbye to at your funeral?" She asked.
"Me." He assured her. "The FBI agent...fucking douchebag, injected me with a military grade sedative. Like surgery anesthesia? I was awake. I hear every word. Lily crying..."
She saw his hand shaking now and heard the pain in his voice. Like all those years before, it was one thing for her to hurt but another for it to be Lily. Her beautiful daughter had claimed his heart the instant she met him.
"I had to listen to every damn word helpless." He whispered in agony. "Not able to tell you or her I was okay."
"And you didn't come find us because we were in danger?" She asked and he nodded. "Whose the girl?"
"She's a member of the Dawn Breakers. They do not refer to their spouses as wives or girlfriends. The women are Bitches whose only job is to serve their Studs. My initiation couldn't start until I tasted of the colony fruit."
"Colony fruit?" she asked confused.
"The women." He explained. "I had to have sex with one. I didn't want to pick anyone's wife...and unlike a lot of the others I didn't want to pick some underage girl so I picked Miranda. She's pretty...of age. And then once I had tasted of the fruit I had to fuck her in front of the group."
"Too much detail." Rachel whispered unable to keep the pain from her voice.
"...Yea." He answered and sighed. "I hadn't meant to tell you all that. Anyway, she was to become my Bitch and I her Stud. That is their equivalent of husband and wife, more or less. They sent me on my sabbatical, what Ryan Haley was on when I killed him. My first target was you so I killed the contact and got to you as fast as I could."
"How can you know she isn't working for them still?" she demanded. "She's a Dawn Breaker Jacob."
"She's not. She wants to be free of them."
"So you fuck her anyway?!" she shouted unable to hold it in anymore. "Is she still your Bitch Jake?"
"No!" He yelled and spun around now fully shaved. "Of course not! I wouldn't willingly take part of that disgusting display! She's just Miranda."
"Just Miranda?" She scoffed. "She's the girl you were just fucking stupid fifteen minutes ago Jacob. Up against that wall!"
She pointed to the shower her hand was shaking. Jake's eyes went to the wall and he looked more then a little guilty then he looked back at her.
"What the fuck room do you have Bitch?" He shouted.
"Jake Breathe."
"i don't even get a Hi Jake. Thanks for saving my worthless life again. You just hug the kids and that fucker!"
"Jake Breathe please."
"Then you walk in here and get mad at me because I needed closeness after realizing the Bitch I endured hell for the last seven years isn't even loyalty to her Stud!"
"JACOB LAWRENCE!" She screamed. "You aren't anyone's Stud! Remember who you are!"
When he didn't answer she stepped closer and watched him recoil. Her eyes were wide and more then a little scared. She reached up and cupped his face gently in the palm of her hand. She watched his lip tremble and his own eyes widened in pain.
"What did they do to you Jake?" She whispered. "Remember who you are. Please. For me?"
The pain that crossed his face was nothing short of unbearable. She could see it plain as day. Who did he need to be? The charming cute guy from the diner? The bubbling brute that burst into Lily's kindergarten class and stormed into a house where a killer was hunting? The animalistic lunatic he had become? Who?
"Come back tomorrow and meet your son?" She whispered her hand still cupping his face. "And Lil. She missed you so badly."
All he could do was nod. She leaned up and kissed his cheek, right on the edge of his mouth and whispered into his lips.
"So did I Jake."
Then turned and walked fast down the stairs. She needed to go now. She needed to leave before she went back there and kissed him for real. Before she shoved him into the shower and claimed what that Bitch had the nerve to touch.
With Matt it made things more complicated but she knew somewhere deep inside. She felt it at her core. Jacob Lawrence was hers. He belonged to her. And she, god help her, she belonged to him.
~ Jacob ~