I woke in the morning, Linda pressed against one side of me and Madison half laying on top of me, her chest and head resting on my chest like a pillow. I wasn't completely sure she was asleep as she held my hard cock, her hand teasing it just enough to keep me hard. Linda was laying, facing away from me, her back and ass pressed against my side, my left arm looped under her head so that my hand cupped her right breast, her hand holding mine in place as she slept.
I lay there listening to the strange sounds of the island, wondering how I'd gotten into this position. I had to admit that I loved Linda. Not just a little, but a LOT. Like I had felt with Grace, I was learning that I'd do damn near anything she asked me to. Grace never took advantage of that, always making her requests something reasonable, even though she knew that I'd do my best to make even an unreasonable request come true. I wasn't so sure yet that Linda understood just how much of a hold over me she had. She wanted me to experience her world. I was doing my best to do that and to accept it, though I wondered just how well I'd handle watching her pretend to be sexual with some other young guy. I knew it wasn't going to be having sex, but even looking like it, might very well be more than I could handle.
This thing with Madison was another thing all together. When I told her last night to go get her, I just thought the three of us would share the bed. I never figured that would include having sex with Madison. I mean we'd talked on the plane about her. Chatted about what I thought of her and how much I liked her. She even asked if I thought I could be physical with her in any way, hypothetically of course. Only now it wasn't so hypothetical. It had never occurred to me that Linda and Madison could be THAT close. What would you call them? Lovers? But maybe it's even more than that. They've been together for over seven years. That's a damn long relationship. Even though they aren't married, sometimes they look like a married couple. And now I was in the middle of it. Was I about to break them up? Or was Linda's love for me more powerful than her love for Madison? Was it something we even wanted to test? But if we didn't, what did that mean for me? Now that I had started to look at Linda as my future...wife...Yeah. That was exactly what I was thinking.
My head swirled with all these questions as Linda stirred, squeezing my arm against herself, almost as if she were checking to see if I was still holding her, yeah, still here. She finally released my arm and rolled over to face me, pressing her sexy chest against me, her head on my shoulder so she could gently kiss my cheek.
"Morning sweetie," she whispered.
"Morning," I answered back.
"Been awake long?"
"A little while."
"Thinking?"
"Oh yeah."
"I'm guessing last night confused you?"
"Oh yeah," I whispered, not really wanting to wake Madison yet so we could talk.
"When Madison was married to Larry, we occasionally shared him," she whispered. "Until I met you that is. Suddenly I didn't have any desire to be in his bed. But I sure as hell had a desire to be in yours. Now the shoe is on the other foot. I wanted to share some of you with her. Just not quite everything."
"And by everything you mean?"
"Your climax. I wanted to save that for just me," she whispered. "I know how you feel about making love. I know that for you, that's more personal, as much about emotion as it is physical. I mean anyone can fuck. She can ride you all day and it's not really any different than a dildo. But watching or listening to you climax inside her. I wasn't ready to share that with her."
"Okay... I think."
"I know. It's all so confusing. To be honest, it's a bit confusing for me too. I mean she and I are as close as two married people, yet we aren't. I guess you could call us lovers, but it's so much more intimate than that. We've shared every most personal detail of our lives with each other. And yes, before you ask, I have most definitely shared intimate details of our sexual time with her. Not only what we've done physically, but how it made me feel."
"And just how has it made you feel?"
"So loved and cared for. When you come inside me and I can see your face, it makes me feel like you're connected to me in ways that I've never felt before. I feel like there's nothing you won't do for me."
"There isn't. Which I guess is why I'm laying here with two women at once. Something a year ago I would never have even considered doing."
"I didn't realize that until last night. I saw the look on your face when I asked you to let her fuck you. It wasn't just startled. It was... disbelief. I could see from the look in your eyes that you didn't understand why, but because I asked, you were going to do it. I guess I should have stopped it then. But it wasn't until later that I realized that what I asked might well have hurt you in ways I might not even realize. That it might have actually hurt your love for me."
"I'll admit that I don't understand. More importantly, I was seriously thinking that after today, I might ask you to marry me. But now...I don't know what to think. I don't know where I stand with you."
I felt her nuzzle her face against mine, the impact of what I had just said sinking in and saddening her. "I love you. I love you more than I've ever loved anyone. If you say that we can't do this, that Madison can't be part of what we are, I'll understand. You have to be my priority. I hope that after today is over, you'll still love me enough to ask me that question," she whispered almost so quietly that I almost couldn't hear her.
I didn't want to hurt her, but I also knew that at this point, honesty was more important than anything else. "God Linda. I hope so too. But right now I'm so confused that I don't know. I just don't," I whispered.
"Don't know what?" Madison whispered from my other side.
"If he still wants to marry me," Linda answered quietly for me.
"Because of me?" Madison asked quietly.
I took a deep breath and let it out slowly. "Yeah. Pretty much. I'll be honest. Just having Linda falling in love with me was pretty overwhelming, but now, I feel like somehow I'm breaking up your guy's relationship. I knew you were friends. I knew you two were kinda close. But I had no idea until this trip just how close."
"I love Linda," Madison whispered. "If anything, my short marriage to Larry told me just how much."
"And here I am, breaking that up. I don't know if I can do that. But at the same time, I don't know if I can do this. How do I not hurt you? Or worse, hurt Linda?"
"I don't know that there isn't an outcome here that doesn't hurt someone," Linda said softly. "If you leave, you and I are both hurt. If she leaves, she and I are both hurt. If we all three stay together, how do you and I not hurt her? We always assumed that we'd each find forever partners. But now... Hell, is this how men feel when they're torn between a wife and a lover?"
"I wouldn't know. I've never let myself be in that place. Grace and I were completely committed to each other."
"She was lucky," Madison whispered. "I'd give anything to be confident that the man I loved was that committed to me."
"Larry wasn't?"
"Oh no," she answered me. "Hell, the same night we got married he was fucking someone else. I'd had a little too much to drink and passed out, so he got a little from one of the younger models on our shoot. Guess he couldn't resist a twenty year old pussy."
"Sorry," I whispered.
"Hey. It's okay. I didn't really expect it to work anyway," she answered quietly. "So. Back to us. Just so you know. If you hurt Linda, you're gonna have to deal with me. You know that, right?"
I nodded quietly. "I think that it's safe to say, that I really don't want to hurt Linda."
"So let's let it lay there for now. We have a full day and I for one am getting hungry," Linda said, pushing herself up next to me. "You think three of us can manage to shower in one of these little things at once?"