After weeks of endless torture, seeing him at work, the simple touches, the glances we gave each other I had found myself attracted to him and wanted to explore my feelings. I knew that I might get into trouble with him. It was the first time in a long time that a man made me feel like this. Made me feel like I was something that had so much to offer a man. I had begun to feel like I was only to be a mother to my children.
He had asked me time and time again to go out with him. John called me and asked if I would like to go down the shore with him for dinner and a walk on the boardwalk. How could I reject him. I told him I would be ready and waiting. So when the night finally arrived, we went out to dinner and we sat across from one another. We looked at each other, I wanted to let him know how I felt. I didn't say the word yet, even know I wanted to say it.
After dinner, we walked to the car and drove the rest of the way to Atlantic City. We spent hours walking and talking about what we wanted in life and the horrors of our past relationships. We ran into my friend Melody, she had met John before, so we all got along great when we went to a bar for a drink. All I wanted to do was be alone and not to share him with anyone but me that night. He asked me if I was ready to leave and I couldn't get out of the bar fast enough. Melody asked if I needed her to call me but I knew I wouldn't need her.
We walked back to the car.
He said "I have a special place I would like to take you."
I responded, "Lets go."