Swimming was my passion- still is in some ways I suppose. I used to compete at a high level and that caused me to miss a lot of growing up. I didn't "miss" it at the time until they picked Katie over me.
Let me back up a bit.
My name is Julie Haskins and I love to swim. It teaches me discipline and gives me an aerobic workout better than running, and is easier on the body. I don't care much for running, pounding the pavement but slipping through the water is a feeling I love, and I was one of the best.
I started to homeschool my sophomore year of high school because I was constantly on the road going to meets and training. 300 days a year at a minimum. The only days I wouldn't train were if I was on an airplane somewhere.
So, no Junior or Senior Prom. No Homecoming dances. No boyfriends, no girls' sleepovers. Instead, I had friends who were competitors also, but we didn't have sleepovers because if we saw each other it meant we had a meet the next day and lived several states away.
My senior year of high school ended early- about Christmas time, and I didn't have a party or get to walk across the stage to receive my diploma. I had a day at home with Dad and my brother Jason, then Mom and I were off again.
I turned 18 a few weeks before the Olympic Trials and was really looking forward to them. I had a handful of medals from every Championship in the United States and could taste the Olympic Gold!
I beat Katie in every event except the 100 Meter Butterfly and wasn't a competitor for any realys, and that was ultimately why the coaches selected Katie over me.
I was crushed. Devastated. And frankly, I hated swimming at that point and vowed to never compete again.
In full disclosure, you all know who Katie is and she came back the second most decorated swimmer (behind that one American man) and second most decorated woman in The Olympics that year.
But it still hurt.
I hadn't made plans beyond The Olympics and scrambled to get into college, but I had no desire to try out for the swim team. But I made it and looked forward to my next chapter.
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My roommate Maddie was a sophomore and had a similar childhood. At 5 foot 4 she was about a size 3 former Miss Teen Iowa. Blonde, curvy, beautiful, Maddie was all feminine. I was almost 6 foot tall and a size 10. Muscular. I had B cups that I tried to smash into a wetsuit growing up and Maddie's D cups were fully on display. I was not attracted to her, but she was probably one of the sexiest women I had ever seen. Purely feminine, I hoped to learn a thing or two from her.
The other thing about Maddie was her sexuality. She knew a few things about sex and was not shy. I was still a virgin.
But I intended to change that. I fully planned to see what I had missed.
Our first weekend after the first week of classes saw a gorgeous mid August Iowa Saturday and the State Fair was still going on 40 miles away in Des Moines. I didn't have a car and declined Maddie's offer to go along. I intended to find alcohol and a man.
Unfortunately after about half a beer and 3 shots of some nasty drink, I felt sick and went home. Alone.
I was in bed and Maddie returned. It wasn't her boyfriend and even though they woke me up, I remained quiet. Maddie's skirt went up and her panties were missing as this guy stuck his fingers inside her.
"Oh, that feels good," she said.
I touched myself. It DID feel good. Of course I had played with myself before, but this was kind of different. It was more exciting.
"Lick my pussy. I need to be good and wet before you stick it in me," Maddie said.
Uh oh. I was turning into a voyeur. A pervert.
I kind of thought the idea of oral sex seemed dirty and gross but both seemed to be enjoying it.
"You were soaked on the way home, but you taste like Heaven," he said.
I had seen plenty of testosterone fueled swimmers with big packages inside their wetsuits and more than a few penises in my time, but when Maddie's boytoy dropped his shorts, I thought he was packing a war club!
"Oh, yeah, I gotta suck this or it will never fit inside my pussy!" she said.
"I bet it will fit in your ass," he replied. "I've seen you fit some big dildos in there."
What?! Ew! NO!
"I want to feel that in my pussy. I want that to stretch me out!"
He apparently leaned in to kiss her, and she stopped him, "No kissing."
"Why?"
"Too personal," she replied.
Kissing is too personal but oral sex and penetration were not?
Before long she was bent over the radiator as he worked himself inside her. He fucked her in front of the open window of our second floor dorm.
"Pull out," she said. "You're not wearing a condom."
When he got close, he asked, "Where?"
She took it on her face like a star. And I came about that time myself, letting out a moan, alerting them to my presence.
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The next weekend I went to a party with a guy from my math class. We drank a little, we danced some more, and since Maddie was at her boyfriend's place (not the guy from last weekend) I took him back to my dorm.
For my first time, he was a little rough and we did it traditional missionary style, but the second time he bent me over the same radiator and fucked me like Maddie had been fucked the week before- open window and all.
We used the same condom for both times, which is not smart but I was on the pill. Anyway, we dozed off and I heard him get up. I figured he was just going to the restroom but about an hour later I guessed I woke up and found our soiled rubber on the edge of the garbage can and leaking on my floor.
Also his clothes were gone. He had left.
He didn't return my text on Sunday and Monday in class he wouldn't make eye contact with me when he said, "I'm just not looking for anything, y'know...serious or long term."
He fucked me and left me. Used me. I felt like the soiled condom he left behind. I had opened myself to him and he discarded me.
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My next boyfriend had to wait before I got on my back for him and we dated for several months, but eventually we broke up. I felt better about that. At least we both got something more than just sex out of the deal. More experience for one.
I was headed in a direction I was unfamiliar with but seemed to enjoy. Maddie, it turns out, had a "camgirl" business with her boyfriend. They'd sit around for about 2 hours at a time, get naked, play with each other, and usually have sex since that was what most of their subscribers and benefactors wanted to see. And it started out innocently enough for me.
I'd sit on the couch with them, cuddle with Maddie and eventually Dave would get her naked and fuck her and I'd run the camera. But after a while Maddie was having some "issues" and they talked me into letting Dave eat my pussy on camera. No one could see my face, but the whole thing was exciting!
Eventually, we had a threesome. Dave would fuck Maddie while she ate me out. Once Dave fucked me and came in Maddie's mouth.
And our last weekend of college, we had a foursome. With War Club.
Dave fucked Maddie while she ate me out while I sucked War Club. Later that night I took War Club inside my pussy like a champ.
My cam cut for the last month of school was $1400. Did I even need college? I didn't need swimming and sex was fun.
Then Maddie told me she was pregnant. It was probably Dave's, but she wasn't sure.
At that momentnI realized I was not at a crossroads, I was at rock bottom. No more sex until marriage. And I needed to take college seriously.
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My sophomore year started with me swimming 3 days a week in the mornings and volunteering to teach swimming lessons at the local YMCA twice a week. Steve was my partner.
What can I say about Steve? I actually went to Prom when he was a senior and I was a freshman. He was good friends with my brother, a little nerdy, or bookish anyway; nice, cute but definitely not the man he was today.
Surprising everyone, he enlisted in the Marines right out of high school and went off to Afghanistan where he apparently was a hero. I was not sure of the details because I was wrapped up in my own exploits.
It felt really important at this time in my life to have him in my life. I needed the lifeline back to my old self and swimming and Steve would get me back there.
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"Julie, would you do me a BIG favor?" he asked.
"Sure. What's up?"
He seemed shy, but he started with what seemed like a rehearsed speech, "Remember when we went to Prom? "
"Of course," I said. "I had a life that wasn't 100% about swimming then. It was the only time I went."
"Really?" he asked.
"I was always swimming and finished homeschooling."
"Well, I have a thing coming up. We are having our Military Ball, and our Navy Captain- anyway, I mean, would you like to go...with me? Like a college prom?"
He was so cute and shy. I told him of course I'd go and got a few details. I looked forward to it.
When Steve came to pick me up he was in a full Marine Dress Blue Uniform- you all know the one. Makes women soak their panties and makes guys jealous. He even had a sword!
But he was nervous. Real uncomfortable. "Are you okay?" I asked.
"Yes, it's- it's just a-" he stammered. I didn't push. I just took his arm and said a little prayer for him.
When we got into line- the Receiving Line as it is called- the other Cadets and Midshipmen all were in what I would call typical ugly military uniforms. Some were jealous at first but then seemed to notice something on his uniform and their demeanor turned into admiration. Almost whispered. Many came up and shook his hand which he told me later was not typical.
The Distinguished Guest of the evening was a Marine Corps general with a prosthetic leg, who actually hugged Steve as we passed through the line. "Sergeant Davis, your Captain and I go back to the Academy together and I did not want to miss this. If it weren't for you..." he said as he cracked up.
His wife spoke up, "Sergeant Davis, thank you again. It's so wonderful to see you. And who is this lovely lady?"