"FUCK," that was all I could scream inside my head.
My face was flushed, I was already sweating and I felt the throbbing in my head reaching an all-new level of intensity.
"Fuck, fuck, fuck," my mind screamed at my hands.
How absolutely stupid could one person be? My hands flew over the keyboard, issuing the recall command, but I was already receiving an incredible volume of read-receipts.
I cried inside my head, "didn't these people have better things to do, then read me e-mail right away?"
I thought, no I swore I had just sent the story off to the Literotica.com website, but now my racing heart and mind were already telling me that I was not that lucky and that in fact, I had sent my latest story not to literotica.com but to the entire distribution list at work and to those on my personal mailing list as well.
The recall worked on some messages in-house, but I knew the damage was done.
My heart leapt into my throat when I heard the RING of the phone on my desk and saw the name Charles Davees x3294 appear in the display.
"Yes Mr. Davees," I sort of whispered.
"Please come to my office right away," was all that the authoritative voice on the other end of the phone said.
I was barely able to let out the words, "of course Mr. Davees, right away sir," before I felt my throat choke off sound altogether.
I stood up leaning on the table to steady myself, not knowing how I was going to make it down the hallway to the Vice Presidents office without crying, or falling to the floor. I felt like just running out of the building, never to be seen by these people again.
So here I was, an outwardly shy, 19 year old who had barely even conversed with another person about anything but business, walking down the hallway, getting stopped along the way by men and women alike who were all saying things like 'thanks, I enjoyed that,' or 'wow, I never knew.'
In fact all of those that I walked by had big smiles on their faces.
I also got winks and the occasional swat on my behind. Well OK nobody actually winked or slapped my behind, but it sure felt that way to me.
I hadn't remembered the walk from my office to the Vice Presidents office being more than 4 doors down from mine, but today it felt like I had to walk past at least 200 cubicles and 50 closed doors, while my face got redder and more flushed.
What could I say, what would I say, would I even be allowed to say anything? Was I going to be fired on the spot?
As I stood in front of Mr. Davees door, I remembered not only the internal people that got my e-mail, but also the people on my personal distribution list, all of them who once thought I was quiet, almost sexless, thinking how perverted and how sexual I really was.