She gets her mojo back by responding to a challenge
This short story is entirely a work of fiction
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Rowena's mind and body had been numb for months. Since her husband's death she merely drifted from day to day. Her life was composed solely of eating when hungry and washing when dirty.
Being wealthy she didn't even have to keep the house or the garden going. The buildings were managed by a 'live in' housekeeper who also laundered both Rowena's clothes and the household linen. The grounds were looked after by a local firm who manicured the three and a half acres to a well kept excellence.
What's more she had only twice shown her face at the business which she had so suddenly inherited and even then only to sign some necessary papers.
Any love for her dead husband had disappeared long before his fatal heart attack and in retrospect it was clear that he had felt little regard for Rowena other than his need for a bit of tasty eye candy to hang on his arm.
As he had once explained so succinctly, all that he required from a wife was for her to be well turned out at all times, to be obedient and to never go against his wishes.
What he did not say but soon proved was that he also needed a receptacle for his seed which was regularly donated but without any thought for her pleasure.
It was also true that a large group of his business acquaintances had been very solicitous to Rowena at the Funeral, that is until every man almost without exception tried to hit on the widow. But the wives (perhaps suspecting that this was sure to happen given her comparatively tender age, glamorous appearance, and new found wealth) had remained reserved and suspicious.
Her up-coming twenty eighth birthday would coincide with the twentieth anniversary of the company that her husband had created and which was now being run by the previous manager leaving Rowena free to do nothing, nothing at all. That is until she received a life changing wake up call from her brother who lived on the other side of the world.
"Come on Roe. It's time you got back on the bike...High time you got to use that double first which you worked your socks off for at Edinburgh and the mighty brain that you were born with...Stop being a nonentity."
Stung at the truth of this lecture she protested but even to Rowena her excuses sounded thin.
"Listen Dave I really did love him at first but that all changed after the honeymoon once I found out that his idea of a wife was a simpering doll....and by the time I woke up enough to rebel he simply wore me down. So you can get off my back for a start."
Later as she lay in the outdoor Jacuzzi, which her husband had installed to bolster his image of the successful business man, Rowena cupped her pudendum.
"When did I last have an orgasm?"
This was shouted out in despair but her voice was immediately lost in the deserted acres of a garden which was now dark as the grave.
"Well I never had one with my husband that's for sure."
This last comment by contrast was a mere whisper.
She stroked her hooded clitoris realising with a jolt that the last time she had come with a man must have been at Uni and probably at some dance or other with his erection pressed against her abdomen and her legs humping a muscular thigh.
Rowena could always attract any bloke that she fancied, get them slavering over her and begging for more, but she had saved her virginity for marriage.
"Jesus what a mistake that turned out to be."
Although this was again whispered it was no less heart felt, and when had she last wanted sex? She couldn't even remember.
Did she want it now?
Probably not, at least going by the lack of interest being shown by her clitoris which despite the attention of her fingers still refused to react.
Should she persist in her efforts? Could she think of something that would set her off, encourage some response? What used to turn her on? Men with the right look in their eyes, men who could stir her soul, make her wet with desire, but after a few minutes of no reaction her hand grew still.
"Oh well, I'll just have one more glass of bubbly then go to bed."
But after a restless night she lay in a warm bath thinking on her brother's long distance
call to arms
and as the water got cooler a new sense of self worth grew ever stronger. Now her ennui was banished in favour of a mounting desire to take positive action which hardened as she rose from the water.
Then, as she dried her lissom body, this momentous decision culminated in her crying out "sod you" addressed directly to her dead husband followed by a resolve to build a new life for herself.
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So, as a first step, Rowena climbed into her little sports car and having neglected her appearance for months set off for the beauty salon.