Why did I do it? Why did I have to start writing again for that pregnancy fetish site? As I stared at the two purple lines on the home pregnancy test, that question kept racing through my mind.
It had all begun five years before. My second husband and I were recently married and trying for a baby. It would be his first, but my fourth; having three teen children from my previous relationship. We had been trying for a year; almost from the beginning of our relationship.
I was getting more than a tad discouraged too. I knew at thirty-nine that conceiving would not be as easy as it had been in my early twenties. My midwife had told me that it could take eighteen months to two years. But each month when my period arrived perfectly on time was more disappointing than the last.
My lovely husband kept telling me to relax; that the stress was what was causing the problem. He was quite tired of thermometers, charts and carefully timed sex in certain positions to increase the chances of conceiving. So he did a bit of research of his own...a different kind. What he found shocked me. It was a porn site dedicated to pregnancy: getting pregnant, pregnancy itself and lactation.
Now I am no prude; after all I met dear hubby in an erotic chat room for white women to meet black men. But I had no idea that pregnancy could be such a fetish for some people. I did begin to read some of the stories on the site. I have to admit some of them were pretty hot. Our sex life took on a new and more erotic flavour. I began to say more naughty things like 'Fuck me with that big black cock and knock me up.' Those were magic words that got hubby going each and every time.
Now I had also been an amateur author for some time. It began with me writing fan fic based on one of my favorite romance writers. I was proud to say that I was one of the most popular writers on the site. Since I had met hubby and begun the 'baby quest' as he liked to call it, I had not had much time for writing. But reading the hot erotica on the site got those creative juices going. Story ideas began to pop into my dirty little mind. The writing bug had once again bitten me.
A funny thing happened though. A week after submitting my first complete story to the site, I started to feel really tired. A couple of days later, I caught the 'flu.' Then I missed my period. I was nervous; too nervous to even look at the stick as we waited for the lines to appear on the home pregnancy test strip. We did not have long to wait though. Almost before the second, control line that tells you had enough pee to get an accurate result began to appear, the first and most important line faintly hinted at the truth. By the end of those three minutes, its bold purple proudly proclaimed our success.
It became a joke between us that our daughter was the result of The Curse of Preg Site as hubby called it; not a joke we plan to share with her anytime soon, of course. Perhaps my husband had been right all along. Perhaps I was simply too stressed to allow my body to do what was natural. Perhaps the fun of reading and writing about impregnation allowed me to relax enough for it to happen. Who knows?
Of course, over the months and years ahead a little thing like pregnancy, the constant demand of breastfeeding a new baby and then those terrible toddler years meant that my writing was cast aside. In fact, I almost never visited the site anymore...or any other porn sites for that matter. Our lives, including our sex life, became the routine working class existence that entraps so many couples. Rushing to work, compartmentalize work, and then rush home to dinner, dishes, and bath before dropping into bed too exhausted to even think about sex, let alone do it.
Then it happened. I received an email from a fan that had read my old stories on the Impregnorium. He asked if or when I might submit some new ones. It all came flooding back; dozens of story ideas that I had stored somewhere deep in my creative muse. That was all it took.