I am what you call hardline assertive. But to be a female executive in the corporate world, you have to be.
I work right in the heart of downtown. My position is what you could call: "lead director of sales and marketing for a First Coast software company". And I take my work very seriously. Most men whom I work with are either intimidated or flat out hate me. I've been called all sorts of names in the office lunchroom: rude, a bitch, feisty, ice queen, and even a micromanaging cunt. It doesn't faze me. I embrace all of those names but represent none. As far as I'm concerned, I'm not here to make friends, I'm not here to be friendly, I'm here to get in there and get the job done. And if that means throwing my weight around in company meetings and not backing down from this male-dominated atmosphere, then so be it.
I will hold nothing back when it comes to furthering my career. I won't lie, but in this combative environment, I can proudly say I am unstoppable. Mentally, I'm ruthless, cutthroat, and over-ambitious. Physically, I'm hard to handle for most men.
If my body could be described in any way, it would have to be "Thick & Tall". My thighs are heavy, my ass is round; I have an hourglass figure with a pair of voluptuous, all natural double F-cup tits; my stomach is flat and my chestnut brown hair is long and flowing. I also wear a pair of black framed glasses, but I don't have a prescription for them - they just make me look more cunning and business-like. I also have a notorious resting bitch face. Even the most alpha of men in the office have a hard time standing up to me; I can thank my Italian and Dutch ancestors for that. I'm close to six foot five, and when faced with dissidence from my male co-workers, all I really have to do is push my tits out and hover over them when I need to be really persuasive. And if that fails (which is incredibly rare) I just play a little bit of backbiting and office politics to get my way.
Did I also mention I'm model material? It's true! My modeling career was short while I went to business school. I just couldn't break into that skinny-twig market fashion designers love and had to stick with mostly smalltime centerfold publications. Due to my heavy, amazon frame, I eventually began to attract sleazy photogs and porn directors looking to capitalize on my "giantess" body and wanting to hire me for their dominatrix films. No way. If I'm trampling or dominating any man, there's no money that can satisfy me because I symbolically do it every day in the office and make close to over a hundred thousand a year doing so!
I guess by now you might I have an idea that I hate men. That couldn't be farther from the truth; I just love going toe to toe with them in this corporate jungle. This is a Social Darwinist world; throwing those around you under the bus is not only completely encouraged but perfectly acceptable. As far as I'm concerned, I am one of the few women who can do it. In fact, I am so good at it that it is incredibly satisfying watching these ego and money-driven men wither under the pressure of my cunning and dominance. It's actually satisfying watching the looks of these men when they realize I took their ideas, shut down their proposals with such self-important pretentiousness, and pretty much send them to the office break room going "fucking bitch this!" and "god-damned cunt that!"
But even those basic semantics of the job can get boring.
Do you want to really know what I do to keep entertained in this job? I love, and I mean LUV, breaking down my male secretaries to the point of embarrassment and exhaustion. I guess I'm a reverse sexist in that capacity.
I like my secretaries of a similar type. I like young men, preferably white guys or Latinos, who are of the sensitive and introspective artist type - the type my male co-workers would call "beta bitches". I prefer them fresh out of college. They must be clean shaven, low in muscle tone but not fat, under six feet and still possess the boyish good looks of their teens. If these requirements are met during the interview, I then hook them in by boasting of the easy job workload, hefty starting pay, and lucrative benefits package. Most of these young men don't even hesitate on accepting, but once hired, I drag them through a hell of constant browbeating, emasculation, and just flat out losing my shit over the most minuscule mistakes.
I've had close to almost fifteen secretaries to date. Most put in their two-week's notice within the year; two others just stopped showing up; one ran out crying, and my last one actually suffered a panic attack.
Shoulder shrug.
I'm cold-hearted. What can I say? I guess that's why I'm single at thirty-nine. I haven't had a date in five years, not that I'm really looking either, and my sex life is really just meh.
To be honest, I really do enjoy sex with men. I've experimented with the other sex in college, but there's just nothing like a real, fleshy hard cock plowing into my pussy. But most of the one night stands I've had are from men who were looking to get it on with a tall woman; it's these same men who want to be dominated by a tall woman, and to get sex, I have to play that role. My performance in the bedroom could only be described as ravenous by these types of guys, but in reality, I personally love being the submissive role when in the bedroom. It's a really big turn of mine that no one seems to read or even pick up on, not that I'm showing it well, either.
My current secretary Elliott seems like the latter of men who have that Amazonian fetish. I always see him ogling my boisterous legs coming out from under my knee high skirt. Sometimes I even unbutton my suitcoat to expose a little bit of my plump cleavage as to say, "Here's something you can never have!"
He does fill my criteria for my ideal male secretary, though. He's twenty-two, five foot seven with boyishly handsome features like sandy blonde hair, brown eyes, square jaw, narrow chin, nerdy black-framed glasses, and even a faint speckle of freckles that resembles the splatter of dirt. He is everything I look for in a secretary, and the perfect fantasy image I use when I drill my pussy with my pink vibrator at night.
Work wise, though, he is terrible. And I mean really terrible; one of the worst secretaries I've had! He constantly misplaces files, messes up my reservations, and has put my schedule into chaos for two months. It's gotten to the point where the enjoyment of browbeating him has turned into actually having to be a boss and micromanage his every move! Apparently, he's some kind of "writer" which explains why his head is always in the clouds and eyes on my tits. When I interviewed him, I asked what he went to college for, and he said creative writing. I scoffed and asked if he was currently living on the street. The only reason I gave him the job was because he just sat there and took it like a pussy.
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Friday night.
I usually end my work days at this high-end, but local, health club and gym down the street from my office building. It's my way to unwind from the day - a time where I shut everything off, do thirty minutes on the elliptical, work on my lunges and crunches, and then take a long steam in one of the four saunas the gym provides. Sometimes if I'm feeling a little risky, I'll find an empty one, and use my vibrator until I squirt all over the wood seats.
But tonight I'm frazzled, threatened, and honestly annoyed because I see Elliot is here. This is a high-end gym with several amenities! How can a low wage, lit nerd, pansy novelist-wannabe pussy like my secretary afford a membership like mine? I, unfortunately, do pay him sixteen an hour, but hell doesn't he know his place?! He should be working out at the Planet Gym two blocks over where they don't even let you lift and keep you fat with free pizza. Why must he be at my gym of all places? And even worse, he's in the weight room! Yeah, like Elliot actually "lifts". Even worse he's actually trying to deadlift!
I'm watching him right now from the corner of my eye as I'm doing my lunges.
Oh?
Pleasantly, he really is surprising! The...kid...can...squat?
In fact, he's squatting with some decent weight, using the perfect form by having his back straight, knees shoulder width apart, and keeping the bar close to his legs. He's squatting so good that he's barely making any noise. How is he even doing that?! Even worse why I am transfixed by that firm, tight butt of his!?
These feelings are mixing me up!
I feel I need to call him out on something. I must give him flack, the same kind of shit I give him when I turn the office clock ahead five minutes and berate him for coming in late. But there is something about Elliot that just does not add up. Sure he is one of the worst secretaries in probably the entire Gulf Coast, but it's almost like my constant badgering and rudeness has no effect on him. It's like just he takes it, and comes back to work the next day like it was nothing. It's like he has thick skin or something!?
Maybe I'll finally set him over the edge if I catch him doing something minuscule and embarrass him when he's off the clock.
I'm ready to call Elliot out on not putting the weights back...
But he put them all back.
Maybe he'll fail to wipe away his sweat when he uses some of the machines...