I stared at the money while I let her words sink into my head. They were actually my own words from six months prior. Could she really be serious about our having an intimate relationship? "Bert," she said, "I want you to be my boyfriend with all the commitments involved. Your eyes this weekend told me you love me. I was flabbergasted when you declared yourself in front of your co-workers. Then you asked me for the 'honor' of dancing with me. No one has ever made me feel as special as you do. I hope it's not just an act."
"I'm a lousy actor," I said. "I meant every word. I want to give you all the love and affection that you have been deprived of. I never thought I could fall for someone as quickly as I have for you, but it has happened, and I couldn't be happier."
"I have an appointment with my therapist this afternoon. Would you mind if I talked to him about us?"
"Those sessions are private between you two. I have no right to know anything about them, and I'm not going to stick my nose into them."
"I want to know what will make you happy and how to be happy with you. A lot about me has to change. For one thing, should I continue to be an escort? If I do, how will you feel about me fucking other men?"
I took a deep breath. "That's a big one. Right now, I don't know what to say. Ultimately it's your decision."
"Let's try a different approach. Am I doing anything right now that makes you happy?"
"You are wearing your heart. You wore it all weekend. It looks like it belongs on you."
"I'm wearing your heart next to mine. Please put that money away. I'm not selling my heart. I'm giving it to you."
"I'll be right back." I got up and went to my desk. After removing a deposit slip from my checkbook, I returned to the table, laid the slip atop the cash, and placed the pile in the middle of the table. "I don't have time to stop at my bank today. I'll let you handle it any way you want." I ate a forkful of eggs. "Wow! You are as good in the kitchen as you are in bed."
I had very few personal items in my Burlingame office. New copies of the company manuals were already in my office in Sunnyvale when I showed up there at eleven. I spent the rest of the day on the telephone recruiting people from other offices that I felt would accept the transfer. About half said yes. I didn't leave until eight in the evening. Too tired to even think about cooking my dinner, I stopped for a burger, fries, and a soda on my way home. Mentally I kicked myself for not giving Johanna a key to my apartment. She would have made something for me if she had been there.
Imagine my surprise when I found Johanna waiting for me when I got home. She was wearing the itty-bitty white bikini she had worn the first night we met six months before. She wrapped her arms around my neck and kissed me passionately. "How did you get back in?" I asked.
"I left the door unlocked," she said. "Here's your deposit slip. I hope you don't mind that I kept fifty dollars to stock up some of your groceries. You were low on a few items. I've already eaten. What you like for dinner?"
"I got some fast food on my way home."
"Did you find enough people to staff your office?"
"I've filled about two-thirds of the slots. Dave and I agree that the rest should be filled by new hires. He suggested I hire you, but I can't have my girlfriend as one of my employees."
"Are you serious about the girlfriend part?"
"Absolutely. I have to give you a key for here. If you want to keep some clothes here, that would be wonderful."
"You are really moving fast."
"I learned my lesson when I let you get away the first time. I'm not repeating that mistake."
"When did you know you love me?"
"When we left the courtroom. I saw your anger and pain in your eyes, and your tears. It was then I realized we could have had a future together. I hated myself. I knew I would never have a chance to court you. I was scared as hell when I called you, but I knew it would be my only chance to see you again. It was an act of desperation, but it paid off."
"Why did you ask me to stay over the weekend when you only needed a date for Friday night?"
"So I would have more time to sweet talk you into being my girlfriend. I love standing here holding you, but I need to sit down and relax."
"I'm sorry. I'm being selfish. Should I get you a drink?"
"A cold beer sounds good."
I sat down on the sofa as she went to the kitchen to get my beer. As I did so, I noticed the towel spread out on it. "It's time for you to have a fresh shave," she said as she handed me the opened bottle. "That's why I'm wearing my barber's uniform."