Chapter 5 -- Intimate Positions
Another week passed and Amanda was back in my room once again. I made us some herbal tea and we sat down in our robes to chat.
"So, Amanda," I smiled. "I hope you enjoyed last week's lesson as much as I did. Do you have any thoughts you would like to share? How did you feel about the experience?"
Amanda thought for a moment. "When I put my focus on you and your body," she began, "I felt very close to you. The line between my body and yours became blurry. I felt like I was making love to you and myself at the same time."
She shot me a sly smile. "I really started getting into it. And I loved seeing the passion in your face and watching the hot cum shooting out of your twitching cock."
"Excellent. And the more you got into it--your passion, your energy--the better it felt for me too.
"This week we are going to focus on closeness and on intimacy. And next week I will show you how all of these techniques and mental attitudes combine into something magical."
"So, does that mean we are finished next week?" Amanda frowned.
"I hope not, sweetheart," I replied. "Next week you will see how everything we've been talking about fits together into a Tantric practice. This is not an ending, it is a beginning."
"How do you mean?" she asked.
"After the training ends, the practice begins. This is where you work on improving your skills with a partner. Continue to explore your body and theirs. Figure out new ways to get the most pleasure from your experience.
"It is always a 'practice'. No matter how much you practice, there is still more to discover about your body and your partner's body."
My voice lowered a bit. "I like you very much, Amanda. You are a beautiful person and I would be honoured to practice with you as long as you like."
Amanda looked into my eyes and smiled. "Thanks, Dirk. I'm enjoying these lessons. Right now I really don't want them to end."
"I'm so glad you feel that way, Amanda," I admitted. "And I'm also glad that you're thinking about the present moment.
"And speaking about presents," I slapped my knee and stood up. "I made a trip to the adult toy store this week."
I walked over to my closet and retrieved a hot-pink bag. I sat back down in my chair and placed it between my feet, retrieving a bottle of lube and putting it on the small table.
"First, I got us a fresh bottle of water-based lube."
"I was looking this week and there are lots of brands. How did you know the best lube to buy?" Amanda asked.
"Good question," I replied, pointing to the bottle. "As you can see, this bottle is fairly clear and you can see an air bubble on the top. If you turn the bottle upside down you can watch the bubble rise to the bottom.
"If it pops up quickly, the lube is mostly water. This kind is hard to apply. If you put some on your fingers it will just run off like water. And because it is mostly water, it will evaporate quickly and you will need to re-apply more often.
"In general, when you are looking for a water-based lube, the slower the bubble rises, the better the quality."
Amanda picked up the bottle, flipped it upside down, and watched the bubble slowly float up while I retrieved the remaining items from the bag.
"I also picked up two vibrators for us to try," I stated proudly, placing both on the table.
"The first one is small--about the size of a lipstick or finger--and very versatile. It's waterproof and doesn't look like a penis. It only takes one battery so it's not the strongest vibrator. And it's a little small for a vagina. But you can take it anywhere, even the shower, and use it anywhere on your body; your clit, your nipples, pussy lips, ass.
"I think you might like how it feels if I pressed it against your clit while my cock was in your pussy."
Amanda smiled and her cheeks turned pink. "Mmm. That sounds interesting."
"The other one is a vibrating dildo. It's just a little bit smaller than my cock. There are more realistic looking ones that let you feel the head and the veins, but I prefer something more feminine looking when we're together.
"The dildo takes more batteries than the little one so you can make the vibrations stronger. And it has more settings for patterns and strength.
"I think you might like it if I played with it in and around your pussy while I'm sucking on your clit."
"Ooo," Amanda squirmed a bit on her chair.
"It's important that you take care of your toys," I cautioned. "You should always clean them before and after you use them.
"There is a whole ecosystem in your vagina, Amanda. As long as things are in balance, it will maintain itself and it should have very little odour.
"If it is in balance, you don't want to disrupt it by introducing any sugar, bacteria or mould. Even a douche can put it out of balance.
"Soap and warm water work great to kill bacteria if the toy is submersible like these. The adult toy stores sell disinfecting sprays for parts that can't get wet. I washed these after I showered tonight."
"Thank you, Dirk," Amanda smiled. "I was a little shy to buy one myself and I didn't know which one to choose."
"When selecting a toy," I explained. "It's a good idea to think about how easy it would be to clean. Does it have grooves that could hide bacteria? Does it have parts that can't be rinsed by soap and water?"
Amanda nodded her head.
"Great. So let's start our lesson.
"Intimacy is very important in the Tantric tradition. It is necessary for forming a deep connection with your partner, both physically and spiritually. And it is something that I have personally struggled with over the years.
"We need to keep in mind that sex and intimacy are not the same things," I explained. "You can have sex without intimacy and you can be intimate without having sex."
Amanda tilted her head to the side. "I don't know what you mean."
"Okay, let's talk about sex without intimacy," I started. "Think about that time you were with the janitor. There was no real intimacy in that encounter.
"You barely touched each other. You were facing away from him the whole time. He was looking at the back of your head. There was no emotional connection.
"You didn't even really see or feel his cock. Don't get me wrong, I am so glad he used a condom since you barely knew him, but they can be problematic with Tantric sex."
"How is that?" Amanda asked.
"To be honest, condoms block a lot of subtle sensations that you can only get with skin on skin contact," I explained. "And over time a man will keep leaking pre-cum, which causes them to start slipping off. So he has to continually stop and put on fresh ones.
"I'd prefer not to use a condom with you. Are you Okay with that? I'm clean, very picky about my partners and I've had a vasectomy, so I can't get you pregnant."
Amanda furled her brow and thought about it for a moment. "It's Okay with me, Dirk," she agreed, "I've been longing to feel your hard cock inside of me."
"Wonderful," I beamed. "Now, let's talk about what I mean by, 'intimacy without sex.' For this, I think we need a demonstration.
"I have an exercise that I'd like us to try. Can you please stand up and face me?"
We both stood up in front of the little table and faced each other.
"This is one of the most intimate things I know," I explained. "And it doesn't involve sex. It's called a 'heart to heart.'
"Put your right hand on my chest, with your palm down over my heart and I will hold it there with the palm of my left hand.
