The Meeting.
Of course, a relationship like the one I now share with my lover doesn't just happen. It takes mistakes, experimentation, frank discussion, mutual understanding, exploration, acceptance, absolute honesty, trust, faith and whole gamut of other things, emotions and desires and the honest confrontation and recognition of those emotions and desires.
Ours started off like any other intimate relationship between a man and a woman with the promise of implied fidelity, if not actually verbally promised. Of course, promises are easy to make, but not so easy to fulfil. The road of good intentions is filled with pitfalls which are not always that easy to avoid.
I have to admit that ours didn't start in any normal way. I had never experienced anything like it in my life. I was totally overwhelmed, flabbergasted, shocked, surprised, thrilled, excited, scared and heaven knows what else. From the very first moment we laid eyes on each other we never conformed to any prescribed norms.
I had been, for six month or so, devoted myself to celibacy. I was tired of men taking the pleasure with me and not really caring about mine. That was much the story of my life. Even if I did manage to experience an orgasm before the man had finished, mostly prematurely, I always felt that there was something missing. The purely physical gratification, when I did manage to enjoy an orgasm, wasn't enough for me anymore, so I decided that I might as well give it a miss. It was no better than masturbation and mostly less fulfilling.
I will touch more on this subject in a later chapter when I give a brief résumé of my history. The reader must bear with me if I tend to roam and ramble a bit. I am trying to convey the ambience and the nuance of my situation so that you can grasp my emotions.
So, there I was living like a virtual recluse, emotionally anyway. Oh, to be sure, men still came calling in the hopes that they'd get lucky, but I just wasn't interested. One of them arrived on a Saturday afternoon, insisting that I accompany him, saying there was this guy who I just had to meet. He'd been trying to get into my brooks for quite a while without any success and I suspected that this was just another ploy to achieve his goal. Anyway, he was extremely persistent so I eventually agreed. I went along, more out of politeness with the intention of showing my face, maybe having a cup of coffee or a glass of wine and going home again.
Well, I never went home again! Other than to collect my things that is.
We arrived at this house and our host was nowhere to be seen. They were going to have a barbeque and my escort said he was probably inside, getting stuff ready and that I should go inside and introduce myself. Talk about chivalry! Anyway, I did. I walked inside, stopping in the open door to be confronted by a tall, athletic figure with his back to me, busy at the kitchen counter. I called out apprehensively "Hello. I'm Monique."