Chapter 16 Kitten
This is a work of FICTION, made by and for adults. The following chapter includes depictions of consensual intoxication (alcohol), trauma, bondage, biting, vaginal play (fingering, tail penetration, penile penetration), consensual intoxication (aphrodisiacs), multiple orgasms, penis growth, oral play (tail penetration, gags), double penetration (oral, vaginal), and genital mentions (breasts, tits, clit, slit, penis, nipple, shaft). Reader discretion is advised.
Heaving herself off the floor, Saoirse leaned into Elva. "I need some air," she breathily declared, whereupon the two began staggering back down the hallway.
They drew toward the transparent wall from earlier, when Saoirse firmly pressed against a handle suspended in mid-air and opened an unseen door to the outside. The overwhelming scent of peculiar pines engulfed Elva's senses, calming her heart as they descended into the warm outdoors. Her heart lightened upon noticing the soothing floral aura enveloping her and the smooth stones under her toes.
Admiring the novel surroundings, Elva was astonished by the foreign forms and vibrant hues of the blossoming shrubbery that encircled the grand courtyard in a wondrous display. She glanced down when her next step landed softly, marveling at the tiny wildflowers beneath her feet. Soon, she noticed them blooming everywhere betwixt the smooth stones that were irregularly burrowed into the ground. Oblivious to how far they had wandered, Elva jolted up as Saoirse suddenly stopped before a simple bench near the edge of the forest. When Saoirse finally let go and sat with a light huff, Elva took a seat and patiently waited as her Mistress held her head.
As Elva became distracted by the fluttering wings of a moth that smoldered in strange greens and pinks beneath the gloaming, Saoirse sighed before sullenly confirming, "I suppose you wanted to know about The Po--about Saph."
Attempting to conceal her curiosity, Elva hesitantly nodded. Saoirse's hands fell to her lap before she said, "Well, I told you the day we met that they were my first love, but...there's a lot more to it than that. Saph was my cousin's bondslave, though I didn't know until after we had been meeting under evenfall for years.
"Saph's sentence lasted for ten years," Saoirse sluggishly continued, "but we were...just friends for the first seven." Snorting as her gaze dropped, Saoirse elaborated, "Not for lack of trying on
their
part; it should have been
painfully
clear they were interested in me. When Saph first caught me watching them singing, they mused, 'A lost kitten found her way here'--"
'Lost kitten,'
Elva reminisced, the words echoing what her Mistress remarked at their first encounter.
Without acknowledging Elva's realization, Saoirse dourly reflected, "--and then they called me a...cute girl. From the moment we met, Saph saw who I was inside and tried to help me understand myself. I just--didn't understand until I...understood?" Saoirse shook her head before resuming, "Ah, Brigit, it's so hard to remember how I felt then after two thousand years. I knew I felt
wrong
, but I didn't know how to explain it. Not until I crossed paths with my cousin."
Before Elva could ask anything, Saoirse slumped further and admitted, "When Saph finally introduced me to Calliope, it was surreal, and..." Saoirse shuddered before finishing, "troubling. Something
happened
when I realized that the way I viewed myself--as a man--wasn't right. That it was crippling me."
Glowering at her hands, Saoirse said, "Neither Saph nor Calliope were happy with the body they were born with either, but all my life I was so fixated on what I thought I had to be, what
Lynx,
" she spat out her father's name like it scorched her tongue, "wanted me to be--that I couldn't accept I could be someone else until..."
Trailing off, Saoirse rested her palms under her eyes and sniffled, "It's difficult to explain. When you live for so long hiding who you are from everyone--even yourself--well, it wasn't easy to accept who I really was. When I told Saph how I was feeling, they said they already knew, and so did my cousin when I approached it."
Joylessly snickering, Saoirse noted, "Even my mother said they'd known when I told them. It felt like I had been blind all my life, but slowly--
very
slowly--I could see myself and accept who I wanted to be." Finally lowering her hands and looking up at the darkening horizon, Saoirse apologized. "I'm sorry, I'm sure that didn't make much sense."
Shaking off her concern, Elva tried to offer comfort, "It's okay. I--
don't
really understand, but I can see that it was...
is
hard for you."
Saoirse sighed before glancing at Elva briefly. Looking at the wildflowers, Saoirse admitted, "It was, even more so with this form." Holding up her palms and flexing her fingers, a bright flourish of violet and pink lights coalesced as Saoirse said, "This is Brighid's energy, what I received when they fed us supper. I don't have enough of my own energy to make a display like this, nor yours at this point." The glow faded as Saoirse closed her hands and confessed, "I'm more powerless now than I ever have been, and--I'm scared I can't protect you if something happens."
Elva tenderly took Saoirse's hand and consoled her, "Please, you don't have to be so concerned about my safety."
Pulling away and holding her head again, Saoirse reminded Elva, "I
do
though, it's in my vows. 'Care for and protect.' Your safety is my responsibility."
Shuddering before touching Saoirse's thigh, Elva grimly recalled,
'Under pain of dea--'
"
Please
don't remind me," Saoirse asserted as she held herself and shivered. "Oh, Brigit, why did I say that? I don't know if I can--"
Gently taking Saoirse's cheeks to lift her gaze, Elva met her uncertain eyes and implored, "Mistress Saoirse,
please
, you don't need to be so worried about me. I told you, I don't regret anything that has happened between us. If you hadn't taken me in, I would have gone to the Auction House, right?" she let go of her Mistress' perfect face to grasp her cold, smooth hands before insisting, "I--your voice is what gave me the comfort to open my eyes after I came here. If I'd gone to the Auction House instead of your home and your father's voice was the one I heard, I--I would have been too scared to face my unlife." Shyly glancing away as her heart raced and her cheeks flushed, Elva admitted, "I trust you with my safety."
Some of the worry vacated Saoirse's visage as she held Elva back. "Thank you for saying so, Elva," she said before inspecting the ground. "I just wish I felt as assured as you do."
Their silence didn't last long before Saoirse stated, "I'm not sure what else to say. I suppose when I said I've only had one slave, that wasn't entirely true. After my transition, I spent a millennium recovering with my mother before a girl named Vixen showed up at my doorstep. She wasn't a complete stranger; we'd met once when Saph was still here. But, apart from her not being human nor requiring a contract, we had...compatibility issues, so she didn't stay long." Saoirse tiredly closed her eyes before finishing, "After she left the next day, I...fell asleep and didn't wake up--until you appeared."
Elva blinked several times when she realized her Mistress' tale had come around to her. Flustered before she met her glance, Elva couldn't think of anything to say as Saoirse concluded, "And, that's my story, more or less. I'm certainly not the Mistress you thought I was."
Quickly shaking in disapproval, Elva faltered before interjecting, "N-no! I mean, I don't know any other Mistresses, but...I
enjoy
having you as mine. You've shown me--
so
many things that I would never have known if we hadn't met. Having you near me is
comforting
, and," Elva timidly turned away before adding, "as I said, I trust you and feel safe with you. So
please
, trust yourself too."
Saoirse didn't respond for a moment, but with a sigh, she let Elva go to cup her head. Elva shuddered when she was turned, and flushed more as her forehead was tenderly kissed. Cautiously glancing up at Saoirse's smile, Elva's heart danced as Mistress praised. "Thank you, kitten. I promise I'll try."