A couple of weeks later she pulled nearly the same trick, but I was a little more prepared. This time, too, she wasn't being quite as forward. She sat patiently at the back of my classroom as I delved into the last 20 minutes of a lecture on rhythm.
"Let's take a look at the Owen poem, Dulce et Decorum Est," I said, deliberately not looking at her. "Regina, will you just read the second stanza aloud for us? I want you to notice the language choices here."
Regina stumbled through the stanza, and I pointed out the way the rhythm strengthened the imagery of awkward speed in the verse. As I was riffing on the phrase "guttering, choking, drowning," I scanned the faces to see who might actually be nodding in comprehension. Regina was, but then I suspected she had a crush on me and tended to hang on my every word anyway. Surprisingly, there were at least five paying attention. It was a brutal piece, which was one reason I used it.
I turned their attention to Whitman's "Out of the Cradle, Endlessly Rocking" and made the mistake of glancing at Bijou while the students were thumbing through their books.
She was wearing a tie. my slate grey Italian silk paisley, to be exact.
And that was my shirt, too. I looked away quickly, before I noticed anything else. But it was clear that I was going to have to cut class short again. There were only ten minutes left anyway, and a few of the truly uninvolved students were already shifting restlessly and stacking their books.
"Before next time what I'd like for you to do is pick two of the poems we discussed today, and read them aloud. Record yourselves if you'd like. Then be prepared to compare the experience with that of reading a printed work. Check your syllabus for the list of poems to look at before next week."
Regina was waving her hand. I couldn't ignore her, and worse yet, Bijou was in my line of sight if I acknowledged Regina. The rest of the students were halfway packed already, but I called on her.
"Can we use a different poem from one of the authors we read today, or do we need to use only these poems?"
Bijou crossed her legs, looking straight at me . The shirt was long enough that she was basically wearing it as a dress, over black tights. She leaned to one side, bringing her arm up to rest her chin on her hand. She was holding a key, and idly toying with it near her mouth.
On her wrist was another tie, wrapped thickly halfway up her forearm. A burgundy foulard, in this case. I struggled to remember what Regina had just asked. "Oh sure," I said, if you feel strongly about some other piece..." my mind did me the disfavor of creating the vision of bijou standing in front of the mirror putting a tie on, fussing with the double windsor knot at her throat.
"...because I just felt like there were a couple of other Dylan Thomas poems that I would like to use? Cause, like, I thought they were stronger? You know? Like Fern Hill? I mean, the meter would..."
I was trying to be courteous. I liked Regina, even though she was a bit of a standard type. With a bit of the wrong sort of encouragement, she might grow up to be Bijou. That was nothing I wanted to be involved with, however. I wished her well.
"A fine choice, by all means," I interrupted before she could get too involved. "It is an essential discussion, and one we don't have the time for in this class, the question of a poem's value when read aloud, and the differences between spoken and written works. You might," I said to Regina, struggling not to look three rows past her, "consider taking a look at Ginsburg's Howl for a real study in that difference. Find an audio recording if you can." With their internet access these days, students could find anything. Including each other's term papers, but oh well.
"I'll have extra office hours tomorrow morning, but I'll be gone for the rest of today, so if you have questions please feel free to e-mail me or come in to see me tomorrow. Thank you, everyone."
Regina was going to try to talk to me after class. I wasn't at all sure how I was going to get past her. Then my cel phone rang. I looked at the screen. It was Bijou. She smiled at me from the back row as I opened the phone. "Need an excuse to leave quickly?" she purred in my ear.
"Absolutely," I answered in what I hoped was an officious voice. Regina was reluctantly moving toward the door, watching to see if I hung up. "I know you've been working on that project pretty diligently." I busily gathered up my folders, trying to look hurried, and as I passed Regina, I gave her a quick smile and nod.
"I have the key," said Bijou's voice in my ear.
"I think we should get going on this right away," I said as I brushed past a few lingering students. Happily, they weren't paying attention to me because I could not have disguised my expression when I passed Bijou and realized she was wearing two ties around her neck, neatly knotted one above the other, and one on each wrist. my good ones, too, I thought rather ruefully. All the Italian mogador silk, for one thing. She'd learned just enough about ties to pick my favorites. And not quite enough to realize that I was probably about to destroy them. Or at least to put them through a few things that $120 silk ties are not designed to endure.
When I got upstairs I saw the closet door open just a crack. I glanced in both directions, heard people coming up the stairs, and ducked in, closing the door as quietly as I could.
She was sitting up on a utility table, cross legged, her hands open on her knees. She was barefoot. She smiled brightly at me . "I was hoping you'd come."
"You weren't sure I would?" I said. "Are you kidding?"
"I try very hard never to take anything for granted," she said, and raised one knee to rest her foot on the table top. The tails of my good blue pinstripe shirt hung down rather tantalizingly between her thighs. The shirt was mostly unbuttoned, and the only thing concealing her cleavage down to her bottom rib were the two ties. I wondered if she'd come to the class that way. I'd have bet on yes.
I approached her, already unbuttoning my shirt. "Here's the problem," I murmured. "I'm not going to gag you. I have some ideas for your mouth that may conflict with that. So I wonder if it's even possible for you to actually be quiet?" Or for me to do so, I thought to myself.
"I can only try," she grinned, looking immensely pleased.
"So. Are you trying to give me ideas with that outfit, or are you just being innovative with half my wardrobe?"
"I like silk," she said contemplatively. "And I like the sensation of something wrapped, all thick like this, around my wrists. It's just one of those esthetic compulsions."
"Let me see if I can help you with that, then. You did a terrible job tying those," I said as I moved toward her. We spoke in barely audible tones, because I could hear conversation out in the hallway; there were people everywhere.
"Oh yes, please, help me," she said, with a theatrically plaintive gesture. "I know they're all wrong. Had to use my teeth."
I experienced a moment of regret as I untied the burgundy tie and began to wrap it around her wrist. I knotted it with a proper four-in-hand, a little disconcerted by the mirror-image of my regular routine. I did the same with the other one. I paused for a moment to take my shoes off. Bijou had managed to find the only utility closet with carpet, and I suspected it wasn't an accident. I also suspected that we were not the only couple to have ever used this particular key. The room had a certain extra ambiance... A small desk lamp for low light, a couple of empty tables, a chair or two.
"The two around your neck are an interesting touch. Everyone will be doing it soon," I said, taking her hands and standing her up. I took both the ties on her wrists and led her to the metal utility shelf bolted to the wall in the back.
"Thing is," I murmured, almost to myself, "there are some decisions to make here." There were only two buttons to undo on the shirt, and I promptly undid them. I couldn't resist running my hands around her breasts, and rubbing my thumbs across her nipples. They were hard. They were always hard. The ties hung between her breasts. It gave the concept of a tie a whole new appeal for me .