To begin this story a little bit of background is in order;
When Sheryl and I got together, she was leaving a failed marriage, and understandably had some insecurity issues that she needed to deal with. She did have a magnetic, and gregarious personality, seemingly never met a stranger. That said, she had a feeling of being physically unattractive, as well as unsure of her sexual preferences.
I will begin with her awakening, then at a later time, will describe the road to get there.
These stories are based on mostly true events, even though the names of the participants have been changed to protect the guilty parties.
I was at work when I received a call from Sheryl. Her voice sounded shaky, and that bothered me.
"What's wrong?" I asked . "Is their something I need to know, or has something happened to you?"
In a still shaky voice she said, "Well, nothing is really wrong, yes, I think there is something's you need to know, and no, nothing has happened to me that wasn't already going on."
"Can you clarify that last part?"
"Not now, but I want you to sit and talk to me. Is tonight all right, I have to get this off my chest, it's tearing me up inside, and it is something that I believe will effect our future. I feel it's very important!" Then I heard her sobbing.
"Tell me what it is, You know you can tell me anything."
"I can't now, all I can tell you is I haven't been completely honest with you, I'll tell you when you get home, I promise." Still crying, she hung up the phone.
I sat there dazed for a few minutes, then picked the phone up and tried to call her back. The ring was turned over to the answering machine. I knew she wanted wait till I was home, and did not want to talk about whatever it was till then. I left a message that we would discuss it when I got home, and I was sure that whatever it was we could deal with it.
I stuck around work for about another hour, but couldn't get my mind straight. Finally I told my assistant, Joyce, that I was leaving for the day after giving her a list of things to do in my absence.
The drive home seemed to take forever, thoughts kept popping into my head, and I couldn't concentrate on my driving. It seemed to take forever, but in reality was only a fifteen minute drive. I pulled into the drive, and was relieved to see the house still standing. I entered the front door, and Sheryl was holding her head bent over still sobbing.
She looked up at me with puffy red eyes, and said "What are you doing home so early?"
I told her I was upset with her state of mind and concerned about her well being.
That opened the flood gates again and she jumped up saying "Oh God, stay right there, I need to pull myself together." Then she headed back to our room.
I sat down and tried to be patient. It was awhile, and I decided I might need a drink so I went in the kitchen and poured me a good stiff one. As an after thought, I got another tumbler and poured her a drink as well, then placed them on the dining room table and had a seat. I could hear her stirring around in the bedroom and the bathroom, and I heard the water running. Still perplexed, I picked up my drink, and confirmed that I had made it very strong, having trouble swallowing it but when the tequila hit my stomach I felt the warmth begin. I lit a cigarette, and took my second sip, remembering how strong it was. I hadn't swallowed it yet when she appeared, and I almost launched it in spray form. There she was, completely nude, she had tried to clean and make up her face and hair.
"What do I owe this pleasant surprise to?"
She tried to smile, only succeeding half way. " Thought if I wasn't wearing clothes, you wouldn't throw me out of the house."
"Baby, no way! You have to know I love you, but I do like your outfit."
Her smile was a little more at ease.
"I poured you a drink", pointing to it, Let's relax and tell me what it is that has you so upset."
She took her drink, and holding it with both hands, took a healthy sample swallow, and apparently having the same reaction I had from my first sip. Then she kneeled beside me on the floor, still holding her drink. "Thanks for the drink, I think I will need it shortly." She was either staring at her drink, or the floor, but she wasn't looking up at me. I put my hand under her chin, and tilted her head up so she was looking at me. She took a deep breath, and looking at me with puppy dog eyes she began.
"As I told you on the phone, I don't think I have been completely honest with you, and it's been tearing me up. So please honey, listen to everything I need to tell you, and let me get it out before you make your decision. O.K?"
Her nipples where erect, and her face and chest rosy indicating excitement. I knew whatever she had to say, it took her a lot of courage to get to this point, so I just nodded my answer to her.
Another big breath, then she began.
"Remember last week when we were out to dinner with Steve and Mickey?"
I nodded yes.
"Well, you remember you whispered to me to go to the ladies room, remove my panties and bring them to you." She didn't wait for me to acknowledge. "When I returned and handed them to you, you took them and placed them under your napkin, sticking out, so anyone could see them on the table. Then I got mad and started an argument, stormed out and went to the car!" Again no pause for acknowledgment. "Well, I was terribly wrong. I'm sorry for the way I acted, and the embarrassment I caused you."
At this point, her gaze returned to her drink, avoiding eye contact with me. Again I reached down and placed my hand under her chin. This time she shook her head "no", and pulled away. We both took a drink, and then she inhaled deeply, held it for a few seconds, then returned to looking at me. She leaned forward, then raised on her knees, and rested her arms on my thighs, still both hands holding her drink. I could feel her shaking, and could see it was such a deep shaking, her breast was quivering, hanging free in gravity. She started again, "What I wanted, well, I needed", she stopped and then tried again, in a quieter voice with her eyes half looking away yet looking at me as though she was focused on something behind me, "What I needed was for you to ........... for you to stop me right there from leaving, and you should have grabbed my wrist or hair, or something. Then I wished you would have," here she paused again and refocused her eyes so she was staring right in the eye. "You should have stood me up and ripped my clothes off me in front of everyone, then tell me I now had a reason to be embarrassed."
Now it was my turn, I reacted with a jerk back in my seat as though being struck between the eyes with a baseball bat. "Whhh,,,,,wha,,,,,,huh, WHAT? I don't understand."
She got up, set her drink on the table, then asked if she could have a seat. She sat on my lap, put her left arm around my neck, took two fingers on her right hand and held them to my mouth signaling me to not ask yet.
"I'll try to explain it to you. You have always tried to show a little, or lot, of me, but I have resisted you. I know you get turned on when you think I look sexy, or slutty, and I also know part of why you ask me to do things is to help me deal with my self esteem. What I don't think you know is what you want, and sooo much more, is what I want deep down, and I need. Can I make a demand of you, then I will answer any questions you have? Then I'll shut up, never demand anything from you again. Then if you think I'm disgusting , I will understand.
I nodded my head, then held my hand out as if asking for hers in a dance.
She got up off my lap, stood in front of me, then with her right hand, she messaged her right tit, and with her left hand ran her fingers through her pussy, with very sloppy sounds, then twirled her clit till she shuddered with a mini orgasm. "Sorry 'bout that, I needed a bit more courage than the bourbon."
"No problem, not necessary to apologize for that" I said wide eyed.
She again dropped to her knees, this time when she put her arms on my legs she clasped her hands as though she was in church, looked up into my eyes purposefully and stated;
"I don't ever want you to ask me to do any of those things, ever again." A slight pause, then she continued, "Tell me what I am to do, don't ask, tell me and do not give me the chance to refuse you. If you do this, I will do anything you tell me to do, anywhere, anytime, for the rest of our lives." Another pause, then "Oh yeah, I'm done, do you hate me?"
It took me a few minutes to reset my jaw, as it must have dropped a good foot. I stammered out "Deal".
At this she jumped up on her feet and into my lap again, only this time instead of her legs off to one side of me, she wrapped them around me and the back of the chair. Arms entwined in each other, she gave my face a good tongue bath, and stated "God I love you." "What's my first order?"
"First order is, never, ever again wait to tell me your feelings so you make yourself sick!"