Thirteen Lystan Gardens
"I'm sorry Michael, I have to go." Catherine's tears ran with mascara as she slammed the front door with a finality that left Michael slumped in a chair, head in hands.
"Seven good years," he murmured, his tearful whispers echoing around the now empty flat. "It's Nineteen Ninety Five and I am thirty. Will I ever find a woman again, and with my, well... special interests, what girl would want me?"
The following weeks were a torture that, whilst still always painful, gradually faded from the initial agonising shock of loss that literally made every one of his nerve endings raw, to a dull ache down Michael's sternum (a broken heart?), so that he often walked around the flat carrying a hot water bottle tied to his chest with the sleeves of a cardigan. Evenings were loneliest, interspersed only with the occasional visit from his sister, and drinks with work colleagues. Michael realised all his personal friends came through Catherine. A busy advertising executive, he knew now he'd spent his entire social efforts on business.
Several weeks after Catherine left him, Michael was packing in the early morning for a holiday in Cyprus, booked long before the split. He looked at the pack of airline tickets and hotel vouchers from the travel agent, sighing at the thought of taking the flight on his own that evening.
"We've paid, might as well use it," he muttered, as he searched on book shelves for his passport, inadvertently knocking an odd looking business card to the floor in the process.
'Relationship Councelling, Results Guaranteed, M. Sternberg', it stated in embossed gold letters over a glossy black backround. Michael thumbed the card, it's texture somehow comforting, turned it, and saw a phone number and address; '13 Lystan Gardens, Golders Green, NW11'. Did Catherine want to get help, try and fix things? Nervously he dialled, hoping it wasn't to early, and was relieved when the clipped, elegant tones of a mature woman answered. Michael made an appointment for the day after his return from holiday.
Tall and handsome, with that confidence a financially successful young man often exudes, Michael was of obvious interest for single women (and some married), at the Cypriot resort hotel. Waiters would even invite him to join women for dinner in the evening restaurant, but he always declined, preferring his own company and a stack of books bought from the airport. He also found himself thinking of Catherine too many times a day, masturbating with a frequency that left his shaft raw with blisters. He said to himself he would do something to get her back on his return. "Faint heart never won fair lady," he would repeat to himself, whilst knowing deep down nothing could likely be done to save his love.
Two weeks and day later, back in London and sporting a healthy tan despite it being late October, Michael found himself at the door of an imposing Edwardian villa in Golders Green. Number Thirteen Lystan Gardens, as the odd, black gloss business card had stated. He pressed the parlophone.
"Come in."
The door buzzed and he entered, to a long, high ceilinged hall with several doors of dark panelled oak either side, and dusty portraits hanging in between, with what to Michael looked like school mistresses or governesses from different periods of history, all strict and unsmiling, all somehow similar. These are women with whom you would need to mind your P's and Q's, he smiled to himself. The second door on the left bore a brass plaque. 'M. Sternberg' Michael knocked, and the door was drawn open for him by a striking looking woman, perhaps fifty years old, with honey coloured permed hair, horn rimmed glasses hanging round her neck on a silver chain, a tight cream woollen vee neck sweater, grey cardigan and pencil skirt, tan seamed stockings, and white stillettos. Her face was lightly made up with soft cream coloured powder and mild red lipstick.
"Come in and sit down," she smiled, pointing to a couch. "Let me take your overcoat and you can relax. Coffee?" Michael shook his head, finding words difficult as he sat on the side of the couch. "Lie down if you wish." Michael complied, after which Mrs Sternberg sat in a high backed leather chair opposite, crossing her legs to reveal hint of stocking top, white suspender clip, and glimpse of creamy white thigh above. Michael flushed with embarrassment as his cock rose in his trousers, squirming a little on the couch to hide the bulge.
"Er... how long have you been practising here?" he asked, trying small talk to break the ice and immediately feeling failure.
"Oh, ever so long, ever so long," Mrs Sternberg replied wistfully, "but never mind that. Tell me why you're here, Michael?" Her eyes pierced his. Had she noticed him looking up her skirt?
Michael let go, feeling relaxation overwhelm, a sudden release, and for reasons that couldn't be rationalised, poured out his heart, telling this assertive and perspicatious woman everything. Things he could never have admitted to anyone else.
It was his fault, he blurted out, his relationship with Catherine deteriorating from a natural loving sex life to a denied liasion, all due to his increasing fetishes for female domination of all kinds. Such kinks were not for Catherine, and this, combined with him neglecting her for his career, resulted in the love of his life leaving him. He had no eye for any other woman, and anyway, with his proclivities, who would want him?