The basement was hot and the air hung heavy with dampness. Kelly could feel the sweat beads slowly rolling down from beneath the ropes that were carefully woven about her slender, graceful arms. The ropes pulling her hands upward were just tight enough to let her heels barely rest on the ground. The tension kept her slender, petite frame taunt. The blindfold pulled a little at her long auburn hair. She was wondering how long she would have to stand here. It had been at least ten minutes since her friend Karen had tied her like this. She knew Karen was still in the room, sitting silently. Should I be doing this, she thought. The doubts started creeping through her mind. The silence seemed to grow thick like the air. Her thoughts were suddenly interrupted. She heard the door at the top of the stairs open... close... lock. Her heart jumped in her chest. She could hear the sound of heavy footsteps slowly working their way down the old wooden stair case. The wood creaking as they strained beneath the weight. Her pulse raced, what have I done?
Karen was possibly the most beautiful woman Kelly had ever known. She was tall and slender and had sexy, long, legs with a perfectly rounded apple shaped ass. She wore a C-cup that was really a little too small, her breasts straining slightly against it. Her face had an angelic beauty that was only emphasized more by her flowing golden blond hair. She felt the contrast to her own petite frame. Kelly knew she was "pretty", but would never consider herself beautiful. Some men found her auburn red hair and fair skin attractive but not like they did Karen. Most people called her cute. Part of her secretly desired to be called beautiful. Her breasts left a little more room in her b-cup then she would like. Still Kelly was proud of her small rounded ass. It was tight and toned like the rest of her body. Years of aerobic exercise at the gym had kept it that way. Her abs showed just the hint of a six pack. For her staying attractive was hard work. It seemed it just came naturally to Karen.
Kelly had known Karen for years. She knew Karen was... well, a slut. She also was the only person she trusted to be truly honest with her. The only person she felt she could trust to keep her secrets. That's why that night, the weekend after her divorce was final, she had confided in her. That secret desire, she had told her husband about it. She had only asked him to use his tie. To wrap it around her wrists, tie it to the headboard.
"That's my best tie!" he had complained. Looking at her judgmentally, not offering an alternative to the tie. That's what she wanted, she needed. He didn't care.
She never told him how deep it went. The way it made her feel. Deep inside when the fantasies came to her. How so many nights she had laid in bed the damp aching between her legs. Knowing she was unable to confide in him.
Kelly had always been the good wife, playing the role. She wanted to make her husband happy. Still she had found herself fighting that emptiness. Perhaps that's why she liked Karen so much. She was honest about her life, her desires. If she couldn't live her own fantasies she would live vicariously through Karen's.
Maybe it was the plum wine. Maybe it was the years of holding back so much. Keeping it locked so deep inside. She just needed to tell someone. The conversation had started innocently enough. Talking about her divorce, how she was pissed off. About the anger and betrayal she felt. As the bottle reached half way she had found herself saying things she never dreamed she would say. How she desired to submit herself to a man, completely. How she had taken one of her husband's old ties and hidden it away. Using it in those special moments when her husband was out. How she would lie in the dark with it wrapped around her wrists, pulling it tight. With her hands bound tightly she would let her hands settle between her legs. Eyes closed tightly trying to imagine her husband standing over her, commanding her to masturbate.
She had found herself telling Karen everything. How she had so often pulled her knees beneath herself, with her ass in the air. One hand had tried desperately to slap her ass. It was only a hint of what she truly wanted. Her other hand would be between her legs, fingers sliding in an out. Working her pussy hard, bringing her closer and closer to the peak. How she would stop her vain slapping and let her fingers slip between her ass cheeks, one finger, teasing that forbidden hole. She would wish it was her husband's cock. That thought always diminished the fantasy. She had to learn to block it out. Think of a cock any mans cock, she had told herself thick, hard. She had fantasized that her finger tip was that cock. Teasing her before it began to push deep inside. She had never pushed her finger beyond the outer teasing, but that was always the thought that took her over the edge.
Realizing what she was saying she had suddenly felt so exposed. Karen's gaze was upon her. Not judgmental, just smiling. She had begun to cry, her emotions flowing freely. Karen pulled her in close raining soft kisses on her forehead, her cheeks, and then pressing gently against her lips their breath intermingling.
Kelly had pulled back, "No I can't" she said quietly
Karen smiling simply whispered quietly to her. "It's okay. Sweetheart, it's going to be okay." then her voice taking a more serious tone "I know a man. One who could give you what you want."
Kelly pulled back a little more, looking a little shocked. "No I couldn't. Not really. It's just a fantasy. I couldn't trust someone... I mean... how could I...?" She had spoken in half thoughts.
"Do you trust me" Karen replied
"Of course I do but..." her voice trailed off "How do you know..."
Karen broke her off. "I have been his for almost a year now."
Kelly needed to break the tension. It felt too intense to real. She giggled then slapped her friend lightly. "You Slut, who is he!" she cried out.
"I can't tell you, because I don't know. I've never seen him. He has his rules, I follow them"
Kelly looked shocked, "How... How do you... I mean" she stammered half in disbelief.
"I've always been blindfolded. I met him through a friend I trusted. I can't know who he is until I prove myself. I have one last rite of passage."
Kelly laughed in disbelief... "You are a slut! You fucking slut!" she said again her head spinning from the wine.
Falling backward laying on the floor she giggled a little more. It felt freeing to release everything she had been holding in. To not be judged. Still it was just a fantasy. She wasn't as bold as Karen. She couldn't really. It was just a fantasy.
She heard Karen laugh saying "Yes I am, and proud of it!" Karen had pushed her chest out, her head held high in a comic pose, hands on her hips looking like superman. Then she relaxed her pose. "Okay maybe you're not ready. Maybe for you it's just a fantasy." She had said this as she moved to her knees. "But right now all I want is chocolate!" She stood up a little tipsy from the wine and headed for the kitchen.
Kelly lay on the floor for a moment more as her giggles subsided. The words caught her by surprise, maybe for you it's just a fantasy. She felt that emptiness slowly flow back into her body. Just a fantasy, it whispered softly in her mind. A moment more passed as she stared at the ceiling. Shaking it off, she stood up wobbling. Thrusting her arm up in the air as if charging into battle, she cried out "Give me chocolate or give me death". She had run, laughing into the kitchen. The subject never came up again.
That had been over six months ago. She had dated one man a few times but nothing came of it. It was way too soon for a relationship. She had found herself indulging deeper into her fantasy. She had ordered some rope on line, passing it under the mattress so she could tie it to her ankles, legs spread. She had gotten rid of her ex-husbands old tie. She bought a new one on line at Brooks Brothers. She had spared no expense. $115 dollars, pure silk, woven in England knowing how expensive it was seemed to heighten her experience more. Then there was the blindfold, the gag... the dildo. Her obsession started to frighten her a little. Still she tried desperately to fill the emptiness.