"You're lucky, Jeanne had repeated; they will be much harder on you. What had she meant by that? Then she ceased to be conscious of anything but the collar, the bracelets and the chain. Her body began to drift, to vanish in the wake. She was going to understand." -- Pauline Réage,
Histoire d'O
(
Story of O
)
It must have been close to midday when she awoke. There was just one small window to let in the sun's rays, but she could guess the hour from the shallow angle of their path.
Apart from that there was not much light, and it took a while for her sleep-blurred eyes to adjust. The room was sparsely but elegantly furnished. The bed was a large four-poster with slender carved columns of red oak but no canopy. In the corner were a velvet-covered sofa and an "Ottoman" style tuffet or footstool. The floor was of wooden boards polished to a high sheen. Beside the bed was a lush rug of rich magenta speckled with gold filaments and decorated with a circular pattern of linked S-shapes, also of gold thread, identical to the design she had seen on the finger rings of the men and the collars of the women. There was no door, just a crimson curtain draped across the opening. The walls were painted a glossy black, and more crimson hangings bedecked the entrance to a compact cubicle containing a hand basin and toilet. There were no lighting fixtures except for a bracket lamp glowing feebly next to the bed.
The bed on which Jane lay naked was queen-sized and sumptuous. The silk sheets and quilt were folded at the foot of the mattress. Above the headboard was fixed to the wall a steel circle approximately the width of a hand, and next to it was embedded a metal hook. They were far enough from the floor that Jane with her hands free could reach them only if she stretched on tiptoes; but she was not very tall, and the average man could do so without effort. A slim silver chain was fastened to the hoop and descended to her collar. She probed the neckband with her fingers. It was snug enough to girdle her throat and stay in place halfway up, and not slip around. Fashioned in several thin layers of leather, it was lined on the inside with fur or felt so that the edges did not abrade the skin. She could discern by touch an inscription embossed on the outside, flanking the small loop on the front and the lock on the back. As there was no mirror, she had no way of determining what the words might be.
Lingering in that foggy twilight of half-asleep and half-awake, she took a few moments to gain her proper senses. She needed a few more seconds to realize she could not lift her hands. Though her blindfold had slipped off her eyes during the night, her hands were still shackled. Clamped on her wrists were gold-plated bracelets crafted in the form of finely braided ropes. On each was a tiny clasp, and the means by which they were snapped together made it impossible for the wearer to unlink them. They were also clipped onto the ring on Jane's collar, so her hands were joined just below her chin, in "prayer" position.
Across the room, on top of the dresser, lay the key to her shackles. It was just out of reach. The chain which anchored her to the ring on the wall was long enough for her to move about and get to the toilet stall, but it had been looped over the hook in such a way that the slack which remained would not permit her to obtain the key. She tugged half-heartedly, and fiddled with the lock on her collar. Neither yielded; but what bothered her most of all was being deprived of the full use of her hands. It was frustrating to have the rest of her body thus made inaccessible to her, as if a reminder that it no longer belonged to her; and she worried how she would cope if she needed to use the toilet.
Memories of the night came back slowly, and might have been a dream but for the aching in her limbs and the markings on her body. Still bound, blindfolded and gagged, she had been taken to her room by the women, who left her standing against the wall with the chain that was attached to her collar and shortened so that she was forced to stand there for what felt like and may have been hours. It was excruciating to be alone in the dark and the silence, fighting fatigue, fending off the enervating boredom with all kinds of imaginings. Eventually the pain in her arms and her leg muscles gave way to numbness, and she descended into a sort of waking dream in which she heard voices and saw things that were not there.
But then, sometime in the middle of the night, men came, at least two of them but maybe more. One of them removed her gag, which felt good after so much time. Her mouth was dry, her lips were puckered and her jaws ached. He then freed her arms, but only to raise her hands over her head and shackle them to the hook that held her chain. She was made to face the wall, and from the way she was posed and her body exposed, she knew what was coming. Even so, the first stroke, from a cane she could tell because of how it stung, was a shock. She yelped and one of the men chuckled. The second was a burning slap, from a leather belt, and she groaned. There were several more before hands with a surprisingly gentle touch turned her around so that she faced her tormentors, albeit from behind her blindfold. Now her breasts and belly and thighs were assailed by the cane and the strap, but she no longer made any noise, too exhausted to expel the air from her lungs.
When the men had gone, one of the girls returned and loosened the chain to allow her to lie on the bed; but she attached Jane's shackled wrists to her collar so that she had no good use of her hands. After that, she was left in peace, and in solitude, visited only by occasional moments of terror as she considered her condition. It occurred to her that, though her bed might be soft, she was chained in a cell, humiliated and flogged, as if she were a convict condemned for some heinous atrocity; but the worst prisoners were not subjected to the cruelty she had suffered while guilty of no crime. So it fascinated her that she felt no anguish or indignation, but rather a strange exhilaration.
Soon after she had awoken, Jane was brought a meal. It could serve as breakfast or lunch; it did not matter; but it was skimpy, just a piece of dry toast, a peeled banana and a slice of melon. In any case, she wasn't hungry. The cup of tea, however, was a blessing. She normally drank coffee in the morning; but flavoured and scented with something sweetly aromatic she could not identify, on Jane's parched lips this was empyrean nectar.
Her server was the chauffeuse from last night, still wearing her choker and wrist and ankle cuffs, but otherwise nude. Jane could not help but stare. Exposed by the daylight, the young woman was even lovelier than she had looked in the evening rain. Her lean curves, satin-smooth skin and sleek long legs, her short, golden-brown hair and sparkling hazel eyes conveyed a vibrant athleticism and a fresh-faced innocence. Jane thought back to the lively, laughing girls she used to watch on the hockey field and the running track, their lustrous tanned limbs dancing in a sensual ballet of energy and grace, their breasts bobbing and jogging and swaying to the rhythm of their moves. She had wondered then about the feelings stirring inside her, never really understanding -- or if understanding, never really accepting.
While she ate and sipped, sitting on the edge of her bed, her hands still shackled at her throat, the two of them did not speak. The fact is, Jane felt embarrassed, naked and chained as she was, even if the girl standing silently before her was equally bare. Plus there was an awkward moment when the girl proffered a small tablet, the purpose of which Jane understood immediately; and when she shook her head the girl gave her a quizzical look. But it would be the last time while she was in the Château that Jane would refuse the little pill.