I woke up wearing my shame. I grabbed my phone and stared at the messages, running over last night's "meeting" and what had happened. I came back to the swirling video clip, to the little wiggle. I realized she had me locked down- later, I'd find that thought ironic- and could demand almost anything. There's no way I'd leave Karen, no way I'd ever want to betray her, but there was also this overpowering need to go back and read every word again. Buzz buzz. My fingers were already trembling.
Janine: Wear the one from the box to work today. I'll check.
I shook my head violently. I couldn't. I quickly tapped out a wandering answer, explaining I had made a mistake, wasn't thinking clearly, anything that came to mind. I watched the screen for an answer and then cursed out loud; my hand had unconsciously drifted down to my groin, stroking myself. Buzz buzz.
Janine: No, baby, you joined the club and since you're going to be so loyal, you deserve the help that I can give you. I'll be looking over you while Karen is gone. That's just how it's going to be.
My jaw was actually hanging open and I found myself breathing heavily through my mouth. My hand was under the little triangle of fabric Jan whimsically called a uniform, wrapped around my instantly hardened member. How had she already done so much to me? I pulled my hand away and mustered what tattered remnants remained of my self control.
Me: I can't. You said it. Karen.
Time ticked by. I stared, trying to will a response- THE response, the one I wanted. To be free. In all honesty, a darker part of me hoped that she would refuse again. But I had made my stand. My phone remained silent. I had made a mistake and would shower Karen with affection, apologies for an act she should never have to learn about. Buzz buzz. I looked down and clenched my jaw.
Karen: Babe, can you do me a favor? Jan is having some kind of computer problem and she needs an expert. Lunch, today?
I think I had a mild panic attack, staring at the message, running over the conversation that must have occurred for this message to show up to torment me. The implications were terrifying. Buzz buzz.
Karen: Petty please? It's for some work thing.
I started to tap out an answer, a way to beg off while trying to catch my breath. I deleted my first two attempts and clearly my phone betrayed me, showing my indecision in the typing indicator. Buzz buzz.
Karen: You two are cool, aren't you? I know you dated way back when, but I thought you were buddies now.
Buzz buzz. It was from Jan, a picture of her over my shoulder, holding my hip. The tip of my dick was clearly visible and, if the genders had been reversed, I would assume she was fucking me. Almost immediately it was followed by a picture of her arm, her sports watch set to 120 seconds.
Jesus. No, no, no. My hands twitched out a response to Karen, "Sorry, was checking my calendar. No problem."
Karen: You're the best. You just earned a special present when I get back! xx
My chin drooped and I exhaled for what felt like forever, maybe forever and a half. How did I do this? How did I end up here? Buzz buzz. Jan, this time the watch was at 0. My fingers stammered out confirmation.
Janine: I'll be checking on your outfit, don't forget!
I sighed, staring down at my duplicitous dick. It was hard. Harder than usual. I wasn't going to give in, to almost train myself into giving into her by masturbating, opting to dive into a cold shower, instead. I was still shivering as I retrieved the panties- the pair that I thought was just a joke- and slid them up. My cock had been tamed by the icy water and I found myself chuckling, a dark laugh. I looked appropriately tiny in the feminine garb. I shook my head as I started to lazily swell and hurried through the rest of my morning.
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Buzz buzz. I was sitting in a meeting, continually distracted each time I shifted. No one looked twice as I slide my phone down to look at the message. Every other person was already texting away, the meeting serving primarily as background for most of us.
Janine: Spot Check.
Me: Can't. Meeting.
She responded with a picture of her arm again, her phone set to stopwatch mode.
Janine: Work happens. You should probably hurry though.
The clock both refused to move and poured forward far too quickly, my mind stuck on the timer and what might be tied to it. I might be dumb enough to end up in this situation, but I was smart enough to assume it wasn't an award. Tick. Tick. Tick.
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