I wake up, I stretch, I see it laying on my night stand. I run my hand over its rough hide. Warren's log, and I am giving it to him today. I dress quickly. I hope Izzy is in the kitchen. I have never been this excited about a log.
Most of the logs are standard issue except for the name and the actual design. Most of my young men have never made it inside the house. Not because they wouldn't have, but it is a very personal space. And most are just a passing fancy. There is little I can do in there that I can't do outside if I plan ahead.
Shit, Izzy isn't here yet. I leave a note on top of the log.
Izzy please put enough food for Warren and I on my plate. Put this on his. Use dish covers. We will have our meeting at lunch. Kisses
I exit the mud room door it is 4:59 am Warren is jogging up the path to the garden. I start to jog, he sprints to catch me, then he falls into step beside me. I smile and think "gotcha." He stays with me stride for stride the entire run. He smiles when he sees the set table as we enter the gazebo. Both of us walk till our breathing slows.
I sit down, "Warren please sit down too." He reaches to uncover his plate, I slap his hand. "You do not eat unless I tell you to. Do you understand?"
His head is down. "Yes Laurel." it is weak and shaky, scared.
"Warren look at me." He raises his eyes "I will control when and what you eat. But, I will never allow you to go hungry. Not even as punishment." He visibly relaxes."Now, before we eat I want you to tell me what you have already done to earn punishment today?"
His eyes are round, he hasn't realized yet what's wrong. And he knows I am going to punish him for whatever it is. He sits there dumbfounded.
I go over to the game cabinet and take out a one minute timer. I turn it over. "If you can't figure it out, before the sand runs out it will be a second error." I cross my arms and wait.
He keeps looking from me to him then around the gazebo. His eyes lock on his fingers just before the sand runs out. "Warren, remove your shirt, shoes and socks." His head comes up in shock, then realization. He immediately removes the offending items. And sits back down.
"I will punish you after we finish here. You may take the cover off your plate." There is little tone in my voice beyond cold statement of fact.
He picks up his book, he runs his hand over the cover. Then he takes a single finger and traces his name embossed in pewter on the front. There is a reverence when he speaks "Did you make this?"
I let the smile cross my lips. "Yes, I made it specifically for you. It is very different from any other log, I have ever made. The hide is elephant, the plates that act as the spine come from the first journal I ever made for myself. Do you like it?"
"Yes Laurel, I like it very much. Thank-you." I uncover my plate. I hand him one of the bowls of Greek yogurt, berries and granola.
"Warren, this is your log book. You are to have it with you at all times. When you want to stop our relationship simply return your log to me. I will remove the Log pages and return it filled with empty pages. See the three little screws. They hold this book together, it also allows us to edit it. Now, I am going to feed you the rest of the food on this plate. You are going to hold the book and we are going to go through it. Are you ready for this?"
"Yes Laurel." He takes a deep breath and sighs .
When he opens the page he reads the words:
Warren HALLAY
MOST CHERISHED POSSESSION OF
Laurel Forested
He looks up at me, his eyes full of wonder and fear, "Is it true?"
"Warren, it is absolutely true. I told you I would never lie to you. There is something else about that inscription you should know. It is uniquely yours. Every other log has said property of Laurel Forested. You do something to me Warren that I can't explain." My breathing and voice are both airy and light.
He turns the page. The page is a section divider it is navy blue leather. Written in silver calligraphy is the word.
OBEDIENCE
"Warren this is the section of the book that is likely to change the most. I will add rules as you need them. These are not guidelines, these are hard rules. You will be punished for violations. I want you to read it aloud. I will feed you between each instruction" I want him to think about each one. He turns the page and begins to read.
Code of Conduct:
Warren Hallay (WH) will obey any instructions given by Laurel Forested (LF) immediately without hesitation or reservation and in an expeditious manner. WH will agree to any sexual activity deemed for and pleasurable by LF. He will do so eagerly and without hesitation.
Failure to comply with any rule or instruction will result in punishment, the timing, nature and severity to be determined by LF.
When ordered to report to the playroom, WH will kneel to the right of the door. He will position himself with his knees spread, he will rest his palms on his knees, he will look at the floor. WH will maintain an erection.
WH will be honest with LF at all times. WH will answer any question LF asks.
WH will keep his feet and chest bare at all times unless doing so is hazardous to his body or is socially unacceptable.
WH will always be on time.
WH will not drink to intoxication.
WH will not fight.
WH will follow the rules in each section of this book. WH will record all required information.
WH will record every violation of any rule written or oral and the punishment inflicted in the punishments section of this book.
WH will provide his daily schedule to Izzy by 5:00 am for approval by LF. WH will not participate in any scheduled activity deemed inappropriate by LF.
WH will not have sexual contact with anyone other than LF.
WH will allow Izzy to tend to the after effects of WH's and LF's activities.
WH will produce his log immediately upon request by LF. WH will be held accountable for his log and every thing in it.
WH will not touch, fondle or otherwise sexually pleasure himself with out permission from LF.k
All rules apply to WH at all times whether LF is present or not.
He finishes the section. "Do you have any questions about the code of conduct and what I expect?"
"No Laurel." he answer is almost monotone.
"Warren, remove the rest of your clothing." He hesitates but not long enough for me to call him on it. A year from now it would be punishable. When he sits back down I ask him "Have you masturbated since you left here yesterday?"
The expression on his face gives away the truth. But I can see him deciding how to answer "Yes Laurel."
I smile, "Was it a punishable error?" He may as well start learning how in control of his life I am right now.
His eyes drop, "Yes Laurel."