The silence stretched in the car. It wasn't uncomfortable – it rarely was. It was more aware than anything. We were always so painfully aware of each other. I think I could have told you exactly how many inches we were away from each other, just by that sixth sense. Mark's nervousness (which he'd been unsuccessfully trying to hide all night) increased that. I thought he was just being mysterious, as usual, by not saying anything, but with the rain pattering against the windows and a long night behind us, I didn't blame him for wanting to just sit back and be quiet. The roads were bad, I'd give him that, and he was probably concentrating more on the road than on any invisible sexual energy between the two of us.
I'd been nervous about carpooling because we always had this magnetic energy towards each other, and with Amy in San Diego and Ryan having left that day for North Carolina, I felt the need to distance myself so that I didn't do anything to cross our boundaries. So I didn't mention his tenseness, and didn't try to convince him to hang out after work. I was afraid to. So sue me. He may have remarkable restraint, but I don't.
I'd been so wrapped up in my thoughts that I didn't realize that we were almost to his house. "Mark, don't forget you have to drop me off tonight." I said it gently, feeling almost as if I should whisper so I wouldn't break that heavy silence.
He turned away from the road, and the lights of a lone passing car illuminated his face for a moment. I didn't understand the look at all, and it made me nervous. "I know," was all he said, and turned away again. We went past his house, to a stretch of road I didn't recognize in the dark. Trees lined the road, and there were no lights except ours. He pulled off at a barely visible opening in the trees and I bit my tongue to stay silent, wondering if something had snapped in his admirable restraint. I was suddenly scared. Not scared for my life, but scared that I was going to do something I shouldn't and not feel guilty. It was a typical feeling around him, but not one I'd ever felt to this extent – or, with Ryan out of town, had ever wanted to act upon so badly.
The car fell silent and Mark exhaled, resting his head on the steering wheel. "What's wrong?" I asked tenderly, butterflies churning in my stomach. "You've been off all night."
Mark laughed, a dry sound of exhaustion. "Tonight was hard for me, and not just because the Haugheys were a pain in the ass." I chuckled, remembering. "I can't tell you what's up, only show you." He reached into his pocket and pulled his hand out in a loose fist. "Hold out your hand." I held it out, my mouth turning dry.
He poured something long and light into my hand, and I held it up in the dim light, using my sense of touch more than anything else. When it clicked, my heart actually skipped a beat. My head shot up, and my hand clutched at the tiny anklet. "You said you couldn't give this to me."
His eyes were searching my face, looking like he was drinking in every emotion that crossed it. "I told you I'd never give it to you without Ryan's permission."
"He... he gave it?"
Mark only nodded, and pulled me to him in a kiss I had never expected to receive. It was as if something exploded between us, and I found myself clutching at his shirt as he ravaged my mouth. We both sat back, gasping, and laughed. "Oh my God," I said, "I can't believe –"
"Quiet." Mark said, softly. "We're not going to talk about it tonight."
"But –"
"Quiet. I said it twice. Don't make me say it again." His face had changed to a warning that I didn't quite believe, but I wanted to play along for a bit. It was too exciting to kick back at him at this point. I sat back meekly, and looked at him. He laughed. "You're not very good at that, are you?" I just smiled, a rather bitchy smile, and he laughed again. "Well I hope you're going to like what I have in store for you. I was dying tonight at work having to keep you at arm's length, when what I really wanted to do was take you over the counter."
I felt my body shiver and I wanted to close my eyes to savor the feeling, but I forced myself to meet his eyes, to let him see the desire flowing through me like quicksilver. "Open the door."
I blinked, all thoughts of submissiveness gone. "What? It's 40 degrees and raining out there, are you nuts?"
"Open the door. That's twice."
"No way. I don't mind playing around, but I have no intention of catching hypothermia." I sat back and looked out the window huffily, waiting for him to reason with me, when I heard his door opening and shutting. Startled, I turned to look out the back for him, when my door opened and he hauled me out of the car by my arm.
He was surprisingly strong, and managed to shut the door and slam my back against it before I could take in a breath to scream. He put a finger in my face and my scream caught in my throat. The sudden stillness of the woods made me notice the soft sounds of the rain pattering against dead leaves and the hood of the car, and notice that my work clothes were slowly being soaked. "Don't make a sound. Each time you do, I will add to your punishment."
My jaw hung open for a second, but before I could protest, he bent me over the hood of the car and slapped me, full force, on the rear. I cried out. "It was only going to be three. Plus one." He hit me again, in the same spot.