Three little words: I dare you.
You stare at them, feeling your excitement surge and then plummet when inevitably you shake your head, as though you can somehow dislodge the thought before it takes root. You couldn't actually do it, could you? It was one thing to entertain fantasies in private and another to do what I asked in a pubic setting. You put your phone down and adjust your suddenly tight jeans.
"Fuck me," you blow out a breath and try and put the thought from your mind as you go about your day. You make it until noon before picking up your phone and typing out a brief response to me. I'll do it. The moment you hit send you wish you could take it back but you can't seem to find your way out of the spell I'd cast over you. Even now, in the back of your mind you can hear me whispering that these were your urges; that I was just pushing you to embrace them.
Mind made up, you grab up your keys and head out to the address I provided you. All I had told you was that I'd arranged a little something for you today but with all of the fantasies we talked about and shared, it could be any number of things. Your palms are sweating as you follow your GPS to the destination some ten minutes away. Pulling up you eye the building, feeling your hesitation quadruple. "Jesus fuck...what am I doing?" This was crazy; I was crazy for pushing you to do this.
Just then your phone rings and my face comes up on screen as if knowing you were seconds away from putting the car in reverse and fucking off. "You can do this, babe," my voice is cheery as it comes through the speaker.
"I can't..." you say on a laugh.
"Put your AirPods in and get out of the car," I say sternly.
You do, pocketing your phone and heading towards the front door. "Why do I feel like I'm walking into a frat house?"
I giggle in your ear and say, "Don't you worry your pretty ass off, just go in and ask for Jeff and remember your code word."
You enter the building and approach the first person you see "I'm here to see Jeff?"
The guy side-eyes you and says, "You don't seem so sure about that."
I yell in your ear and you shake your head and grin, "Apparently I'm sure."
He nods, eying you from top to bottom. "Third floor, last room at the end of the hallway."
On the way up you pass a man coming down who has a euphoric look on his flushed face which has you wondering if he just came from "Jeff's". "Am I going to regret this?" You say, stoping in front of the door at the end of the hallway.
"The only thing you'll regret is walking away," I say softly. "Trust me in this."
You blow out a long breath to steady your nerves and knock. What seems like an eternity later the door swings open and a beautiful black man fills the space in front of you. "Code word?" His voice is warm and friendly.
"BBGL," you say, looking past him at the surroundings. It looks like a regular apartment.
Stepping aside, he waves you in. "Follow me."