Chapter One
I sat at the hotel bar and took nervous sips of my apple martini while obsessively clicking my phone to see what time it was. When I was first served, I nearly gulped the entire thing down at once, then I remembered I had twenty minutes to kill and I shouldn't have more than one of these things on an empty stomach. Not tonight. I did my best to watch people outside the bar in the bright lobby of the hotel. The freshly waxed floors reflected the chandelier lighting from the ceiling as suited men and dress-wearing women filed in and out.
Must be a formal event going on tonight
. I thought.
Saturday night, maybe a wedding.
It was a fleeting thought that gave me a much-needed distraction. I found myself jealous of this imaginary wedding. A secret bride and hidden groom off somewhere to be wed. I wasn't jealous of their marriage- god no. But of the excitement of possibilities. What will the future hold for them? Will they buy a house? Move to a new town? Start a new job? All the possible outcomes sounded so fresh and possible. Meanwhile, I sat here in the low-lit and musky bar, facing a bleak future.
Over the years, as I crept into middle age, I've resigned myself to realizing the half of the American Dream that called for me to be married and have kids was not my future to have. The fiction of finding prince charming to whisk me away into a happily ever after never interested me. I was a career-minded woman. My life was grounded in a carefully molded reputation as a tenured professor at a respectable university, and my ability to provide for myself was based on this one possible skill of teaching. Now, because of my stupid horny decisions over the past weeks, everything I worked for over the last 20 years was in jeopardy. So much so that losing my job and reputation no longer felt like a possibility but an inevitability. All it would take is a slip of Justin's tongue to the wrong person or an intentional outing of my sexual life with my students by Jessica.
Jessica texted me shortly after her and mine encounter last weekend. She poked and prodded with intrigue at how I enjoyed our little 'meeting,' as she put it and inquired about a future one. Despite my reservation and attempt to steer the conversation to an amicable parting of ways, Jessica insisted on this Saturday. She invited me to make the reservations this time around and I gladly accepted that offer. At least I won't have to worry about bed bugs or getting robbed at some trailer trash motel this weekend.
When I informed Justin about the conversation, I winced the whole time, waiting for him to demand I disobey Jessica or that he would confront her or some other juvenile response to this real danger I faced. Nonetheless, I told him of our hotel room and date and time we were set to meet. He didn't reply at first. He just laid there shirtless beside me on his mattress, quiet and in thought. After several moments, Justin simply said, "Okay." It wasn't until after he gave this simple response that I realized this was possibly the worst answer he could give. It meant that I was alone in this.
Now, five minutes before our scheduled meeting time at the room, I wonder to myself, am I excited or dread going into that room and facing Jessica again? It was true she awakened feeling for a woman inside me that I had never experienced before. And when I did cum, it was strong, but there was something else there, too. A type of aggression that unsettled me. A misalignment in the kind of dom she was and the kind of sub I am. I shook my head; did it matter how I was feeling? I didn't have a choice when it came to her.
I finally downed the last sip of my now warm apple martini and left the bar. On the 4th floor of the hotel at the end of the hall, I found Jessica leaning up against our door waiting with a smirk on her lollipop-red lips. Show wore a bright red glitter dress that clung to her petite frame and barely hung on to her by the two small spaghetti straps on her shoulders.
"You're a little late, professor," she said, tapping her imaginary watch on her wrist.
I gave a quick smile, "Sorry, had to wait for an elevator."
"Don't worry, I'll make sure you're sorry in a minute," she said, hovering over my shoulder as I unlocked the door. The room was as nice as the rest of the hotel. Modernly decorated and spacious. A large king bed with a table and chairs beside it. Jessica walked past me with a smile on her face and her hands in the air, as if she was previewing the room for me. "Wow, look at this place. You shouldn't have." She stopped in the center of the room and made a twirl while brushing off her dress. "Such a fancy place I thought I'd better dress for the occasion."
"You look great," I said.
"Great?" Jessica sounded offended. "Great? Just great? Looks like we're going to have to start early then, huh? I'm going to need you to get on your knees for that."
I felt small and insignificant walking over to her. Like a beat dog walking to its punishment. Standing in front of her, I went to raise my skirt so I could move to a knee when a quick patter on the door was heard.
"Mmm... did you order some room service?" Jessica bubbled as she skipped over to the door. "I really could go for some Champai-"
She opened the door and froze mid-sentence. Standing on the other side of the door was a larger lady. She was heavy-set but with ample breasts that bounced in her gray dress. Her beautiful long blond hair flowed behind her. It was Amber, my assistant. And she was as white as a ghost. The silence hung almost too long before a familiar voice chimed in.
"I don't know about Champaign, but I did bring some wine," Justin said, appearing beside Amber.
"What- what are you-" Jessica stuttered. "Why are you here?!" The question seemed shot at both of them but with separate connotations.
"We're here for the party," Justin said, walking past Jessica with eyes locked on hers the entire time. Justin was relatively well dressed. He wore a pair of clean black jeans with a black button-up shirt that fit him well. Jessica glared at him, then shot a look at Amber and finally at me. "You invited them?" She spat. The disgust is heavy in her voice.